AgentOrange

AgentOrange

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Oct 3, 2023
22
i feel like all i do is sleep rn. i slept 12 hours yesterday and i woke up still tired. i went back to sleep for 3 hours and im still tired. even sleeping is fucking pointless now. my one escape doesn't even help.
Anyway, i haven't felt well rested for years. maybe here or there but mostly not. i think i might have sleep apnea? i know depression is causing it too. my neck hurts so much.
 
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plzgivemebooks

plzgivemebooks

Lord Of The Guys
Oct 3, 2023
2
I feel like it's been forever since I've got a good night's sleep. Most the time i just stay up thinking.
 
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bpdiskillingme

bpdiskillingme

Member
Oct 25, 2023
17
Honestly I relate to you so much, I sleep so much usually around 12+ hours even more on weekends when I don't work and I always wake up so exhausted, I usually feel like I've slept more on nights I have slept for 3 hours and gone to work. I don't remember the last time I ever woke up feeling rested haha
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Angelic
Jul 29, 2021
4,709
i've slept for 5 hours tonight been awake since 2am if i don't smoke weed i only get a few hours sleep but when high i get 12 hours sleep sometimes more
 
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BlazingBob

BlazingBob

I'm still here b/c of my dogs
Oct 28, 2021
602
I have a neurological movement disorder that makes restorative sleep impossible. Part of my brain screws up my sleep cycles and I wake up much more tired than when I went to bed. Sleep makes me exhausted. I'll never get another good night's sleep as long as I live. There's no cure and it gets worse with age. It's the number one reason I'm going to ctb because it's ruined my life. I'm always tired and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. Adderall was about the only thing that helped but nothing can make up for a good night's sleep. And I can't get anyone to prescribe it. My brother deals m but I won't touch that shit because god only knows what's in it.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
9,798
At the moment, I'm sleeping really well but that's because I'm utterly exhausted. I'm working 10-11 hour days and soon I will have worked 100 days straight in a row with no break. I'm still tired though!
 
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AgentOrange

AgentOrange

Member
Oct 3, 2023
22
At the moment, I'm sleeping really well but that's because I'm utterly exhausted. I'm working 10-11 hour days and soon I will have worked 100 days straight in a row with no break. I'm still tired though!
i hate the way workers are treated. we live in such a hellscape
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,490
I have a pretty good natural sleeping schedule from about 11 pm until 7 am. That may vary +-1h it depends on when I'm sleepy and when I want to go to bed. Most of the time I don't wake up at all during the night and usually I also sleep very deep.
 
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cheese.out

cheese.out

Why am I still here
Jul 25, 2023
200
I only have a good nights rest when I take some alprazolam before sleep but without it its very rare that I have a normal sleep
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,856
Temporary sleep no matter what could never be good enough for me. Only eternal sleep could ever bring me peace, I will always feel tired of existing as long as I still exist here.
 
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voyager

voyager

Don't you dare go hollow...
Nov 25, 2019
965
30 years, 2 months, 2 weeks, 1 day and around 8 hours ago, give or take a minute or two. Rough estimate.

That's the last time I can remember waking up feeling rejuvenated and looking forward to the day, was on holidays in France in the summer of 1993. That winter my mind went to shit and ever since my sleep has been a mess. Have slept well beyond 12+ hours before 2012 and have had as little as 1-2h/n for over 8 months in 2020. It's all the same anyhow. Earlier this year it was nocturia mostly, toilet breaks, was as much as 5+ a night, waking every 60-90mins. It's a little better now, but have been waking up for all kinds of reasons for years now and it'll take anywhere between 1-3 hours to get back to sleep, or until I flat out give up.

Doesn't really matter though, wake up and feel exhausted no matter what and after an hour or two it's like everyday. Only benefit to getting 5-6 hours in is one's brain won't feel fried with a debilitating headache. Awesome. 👍
 
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Orbitc

Orbitc

Sorry for my English
Jul 2, 2023
277
I have a neurological movement disorder that makes restorative sleep impossible. Part of my brain screws up my sleep cycles and I wake up much more tired than when I went to bed. Sleep makes me exhausted. I'll never get another good night's sleep as long as I live. There's no cure and it gets worse with age. It's the number one reason I'm going to ctb because it's ruined my life. I'm always tired and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. Adderall was about the only thing that helped but nothing can make up for a good night's sleep. And I can't get anyone to prescribe it. My brother deals m but I won't touch that shit because god only knows what's in it.
What country do you live in? I sometimes take fenobarbital to get a good night's sleep. Complain about insomnia and ask your doctor to prescribe this medicine for you - I take 100 or 150 mg once a week or 2 times a week because for some reason I only sleep until 5 o'clock in the morning - then I lie like an idiot until 7 o'clock and wait for the alarm to ring ))
 
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Engström

Engström

hyvää yötä ♊︎
Oct 27, 2023
74
It's been a while. In the past few days I've had some strange dreams, though I also had a high fever so maybe I was a bit delirious. I dreamt my ex husband was here and walked across the bedroom to the window. I've dreamt of my sister twice, both of us climbing a mountain together. Last night I dreamt of my brother telling me about his first serious girlfriend - he was telling me things like he'd never have that again, etc. (he's married now and we've been estranged for over a year at this point, so I don't know what to make of that dream).


I woke around 4am this morning but I wasn't tired. I spent the weekend cleaning my apartment and getting rid of the last traces of any sort of incriminating "evidence" once I am gone. I ordered candles today which should arrive by Wednesday or Thursday hopefully. I'm finally going to mail packages to my sister as I fear certain items will essentially be looted after my discovery. I have our great grandmothers wedding ring and some gifts for my nieces and nephew - I plan on shipping those out once I get the candles since I ordered candles for them as well.

Planning for the 2nd-ish, I just can't do it anymore. I'm surprised by how much I was able to get done this weekend in terms of cleaning and organizing. I did find some cocaine in my bathroom, hidden in a box containing an unused moisturizer - that's likely how I was able to get a lot done. When I opened the box I was like "well, well, well…"

I also had excellent background soundtrack. For anyone who enjoyed Arrested Development, someone made a 2 hour compilation and I have become addicted.

Arrested Development Crack

I had it on all weekend 😂
 
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BLEH:3

BLEH:3

Member
Nov 6, 2023
51
got put on Seroquel to help with my insomnia, I get a solid 9 hours of sleep but sleep quality is down the drain. Haven't woken up not-tired in a good few months
 
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greebo6

Enlightened
Sep 11, 2020
1,621
Can't remember. Its been a long time . But to have one....that would be so nice.....
 
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WeDontKnowTheFuture

WeDontKnowTheFuture

Student
Feb 3, 2023
153
Most of the night i sleep well to be honest, it is the day that i'm living bad. I curently try to sleep the more possible to escape the torture to be awake so i even sleep during the day if i'm able to.
 
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hermestrimegistus

hermestrimegistus

Specialist
Sep 16, 2023
341
I sleep 2-3 hours at a time. Fucking sucks. Last time I had a goodnight's sleep? When I wasn't binge drinking daily
 
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hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,231
I have aleays atruggle with sleeping. I don't remember ever just sleeping in peace. I have always been haunted by demons.
 
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Oathkeeper

Oathkeeper

Member
Nov 1, 2023
65
I don't even know what a good nights sleep is anymore. I'm either lacking on hours entirely because I can't fall asleep, or I'm getting 7-8 a night with multiple interruptions.

Hardly matters anyways. My body is always exhausted. My mind is even worse. What good is sleep if the painful thoughts rush in as soon as the day begins?

Wish it was just permanent.
 
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sanlcx

sanlcx

Member
Oct 21, 2023
84
I sleep 2-3 hours at a time. Fucking sucks. Last time I had a goodnight's sleep? When I wasn't binge drinking daily
Holy shit me too! I have chronic back pain (and some other bullshit problems) and my body just started waking itself up after 2 hours or so, can't fall asleep again unless i stay awake for a while, only to have just 2 to 3 hours of sleep again.

Fuck this shit. Can't wait to kill this torturous flesh vessel with SN!
 
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SenseOfLoss

SenseOfLoss

life could have been so beautiful
Feb 24, 2023
208
I can't remember…
 
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penguinl0v3s

penguinl0v3s

Wait for Me 💙
Nov 1, 2023
798
Mostly every day, but when I wake up it's a problem because I have slept the entire day away.
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
876
I can sleep like a motherfucker. Any chance I get, I'm always tired.
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,331
What counts as a good night's sleep?

Sleeping for as long as I like? Maybe like a week ago
Sleeping and waking up refreshed? Not since I was 5.
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,628
Sleeping is easy. Pop a Benadryl or 2. Done. I think the more poignant question is when was the last time we all woke up not disappointed at being alive. I don't think any of us will be able to recall.
 
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BlockHammer

BlockHammer

Confused loser
Oct 25, 2023
243
Probably around high school, back when im still a naive kid who knows very little about world
 
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stoiccactus

stoiccactus

somehow still here
Mar 24, 2022
246
Honestly the last time I had a genuinely good nights sleep was probably somewhere around 1996
 
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