When was the last time you felt true happiness?

[wannabesetfree]

Looking back on my life, I can't think of a time when I was truly happy. Either I've always felt numb or dull. Of course there are times when I laugh at a YouTube video or something, but it's never a long-lasting feeling. I wasn't even happy when I was on my medication.

I'm almost 30 and I can't imagine going on so unhappy for another 30 years. At this point, I think I'm too far gone to ever truly be happy so what's the point?

 

[aludnelac]

yeah.. i think it is one of those things that seems to come in even shorter and more infrequent moments that longer you've been generally miserable.. i think for me, even times where i thought i was completely miserable even a year ago almost seem happy looking back on them now.. it's funny how one form of suffering doesn't seem so bad when put under the perspective of a much worse one.. i'd probably say the last time i felt truly happy and hopeful for the future was December, 2019, but it's not like that moment lasted very long.. happiness feels so impossible now.. so far away from whatever kinda messed up creature i'm continuing to become..

 

[ClownMe]

The last time i remember feeling genuinely happy for a short period of time was when I was around 12, so 2013. A long time between drinks.

 

[Cid9121]

Without medication being at my grandfather's home & enjoying conversation. 17 years ago

 

[Snake of Eden]

I dont know if this can count as true happiness but Last year. I was on so much drugs

 

[EOL4ME]

About 5 years old -

 

[OrcWitch]

The honeymoon phase of an internet relationship in 2019. It was a period of about 5 months where I woke up feeling happy to be alive and like my life had a wonderful future. I hope I can find that feeling again. Before that, probably when I played pokemon ruby with my best friend in 5th grade, like the entirety of 2004 I was high on life. We would go to the park together and sit on the swings and tell each other about our training plans. I had 367/400 of the pokedex. I've mostly been unhappy since I was 12. That first part is pretty pathetic, sometimes it's actually kind of funny to me what a loser I am.

 

[clown_17]

Probably the summer of 2019. Only then.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

September 24th-29th, 2020.

 

[AtMostOkay]

The last time I felt true, life altering happiness was over 30 years ago. Short periods of contentment along the way. But happy?

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Hmm I don't remember.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm not sure I ever have. I do not know what that is like. I have never wanted to be alive and I have been suicidal since a young age. I am incapable of feeling that emotion. Life is just so empty and depressing. It is like I have already died in a way.

 

[existtosuffer]

Most of my happiness in the past was from taking psychedelic drugs to trigger my hypomania.

Would probably have to go back to childhood when I was naive & innocent. But I often looked grumpy as a child & rarely smiled.

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

I never knew how to be happy. My happy moments are few and apart and they seem out of character.
My most memorable moment, however, the one that stuck with me, happened in 2009. My wedding day. It wasn't spotless. Back then, I've never missed an opportunity for social anxiety to take over my body in its awkward manner. I had a few slips. Like oversweating at the photoshoot or that overly steamy first kiss. But I remember the day well and I remember it with (almost) no regrets.
Everything that happened afterwards is nondistinct and certainly not dated.

It's almost like I know the exact date my life started going downwards... 25.06. My anti-birthday. Oh well.. I still like it more than my birthday
...
Just to be clear: my ex doesn't play any part in my downfall.

Most of my happiness in the past was from taking psychedelic drugs

Oh, that too. I've never been happy as when the air turned into a warm cloud of pink that one time.

 

[ven]

True happiness without drugs, probably at some point experiencing life as a child and due to youthful ignorance.I don't recall a specific event or moment.

Later in life, I encountered drug induced happiness with ecstasy. It was the first time I felt peaceful and free from my normal incompatibility with my environment.

 

[again_noidea]

what is true happiness? any definition will do but the term is prone to misunderstandings

 

[fultron12]

I turn 25 in 2 days (libra gang) and when I really think of the last time I felt pure, genuine happiness, I think I was 10.

Just hanging in my room playing Doom. My older brother just introduced me to Tool and Slipknot. I wasn't thinking of sex, money, a roof over my head, or all the people I'd disappoint.

10 year old me would be simultaneously amazed and horrified to meet me now

 

[Depressed_Kettle]

yeah.. i think it is one of those things that seems to come in even shorter and more infrequent moments that longer you've been generally miserable.. i think for me, even times where i thought i was completely miserable even a year ago almost seem happy looking back on them now.. it's funny how one form of suffering doesn't seem so bad when put under the perspective of a much worse one.. i'd probably say the last time i felt truly happy and hopeful for the future was December, 2019, but it's not like that moment lasted very long.. happiness feels so impossible now.. so far away from whatever kinda messed up creature i'm continuing to become..

I notice that effect as well. I don't think I'm any less happy, just different but it feels like I was happier then almost nostalgia like. At least that's just how I feel.

I have had ups and downs so it's kind of hard to say for sure. I was definitely more prepared in the past to deal with any waves that may come, now I'm more fragile.

My memory isn't the best, it's kind of a blur to me.

I have felt lonely most of my life but I was happier at one point but it wasn't "happy" happy. I always had things going on at home, no physical abuse but I got in trouble a lot for not doing things right or not paying attention (I have ADHD, so does my mom) and there was lots of yelling. I only had my mom until I was a pre-teen and then she met my step-dad so I was alone often with them and didn't have very many friends because she was protective of me.

The ADHD meds made me reclusive, I got put on them at 7 and I became more shy but I was already shy and awkward to become with.

 

[lugerepair]

Earlier this afternoon. I tend to have extreme mood swings.

 

[sadghost]

It's been close to a year since I actually felt pure, uncontainable happiness, when I first opened my new PlayStation. At face value, it may perhaps seem silly for a 20 something adult to cry tears of joy over a game console. It was extremely sentimental to me.

The little pleasure I've experienced since is largely drowned out by either emptiness or misery, depending on the day. I get out of bed every morning and semi-function only because my meds force me to.

It's hard to enjoy a party you don't want to be at but can't leave just yet.

 

[AntHydra]

A bit over a year ago, when my dear friendships weren't in shambles. Oh, how I yearn for that time.

 

[right:sun]

I'm not sure if happiness is achievable as something one can be most of the time. At least not for me. I can feel happy in small moments - I remember holding someone, looking out of my bedroom window at the trees outside, making a list with them of all the things that they like - stuff like that. It always goes away though. But I am at least able to enjoy it more and more when it does arrive. When I was younger I was not really able to be in "the happy" so much, due to worrying about it going away, and it being real or genuine, etc.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Can't remember, was never one for positive emotions.

 

[Freedom Believer]

Early 2019.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

January 2020 because I was visiting a friend overseas, before covid was a global thing. I felt strongly that dying on the plane ride back was the only was the solidify it. I was right.

 

[back_to_oblivion]

A long time ago. When I was under 12 years old.

 

[Skathon]

Never, not even in my dreams.

 

[NumbItAll]

I've had moments of happiness, but I haven't had an overall positive outlook on life since 2008. Yikes...

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I was pretty happy today to find out Sora from the Kingdom Hearts is finally confirmed for Smash Bros. He was my second most wanted character even though I've barely played Kingdom Hearts. It's a very temporary happiness though but I do feel a little bad that I'm so easily pleased…

 

[motel rooms]

If true happiness is unambiguous happiness, then I've never experienced it; everything in my life always has to be complicated.