When should I ctb? at midnight or when my family leaves my house for a few hours?

[dysthymia]

Let me know which one is better:

I ctb by SN in middle of the night (like 2am). My concern here is that I won't be able to give updates of the SN taking effect on me. I really want to share pics of my blood oxygen dropping and bpm rising and tell how I'm feeling, it'll make me feel less alone.

I ctb by SN when my family leaves 7pm-9pm. I can do all my desired things like updating on the SN's effect but I'm scared it'll be more shocking than if I ctb in middle of the night.

If I ctb in midnight, I can pretend to have died in my sleep. Obviously a autopsy would give away my actions but still, for a brief moment my family will think it's a freak accident; and who knows, maybe they won't get an autopsy done

If I ctb when my family leaves the house, i feel like I can't pretend to have died randomly idk why. and honestly a random death would be more shocking than suicide in that moment.

 

[rozeske]

It will come down to what gives you comfort and what you decide. You should only go with what makes you comfortable in your last moments and what gives you the best chance at success. Am sorry but I don't understand the difference between midnight ctb and morning ctb and them thinking one of them is natural....but anyway would it really look natural with sn? I mean with your body turning blue, probability of presence of vomit, cups of dissolved sn around? Plus when they find you like that wouldn't their first instinct be to call medics or take you to a hospital? I think their would still be a very good chance to know it was suicide.

 

[AnonymousL]

Let me know which one is better:

I ctb by SN in middle of the night (like 2am). My concern here is that I won't be able to give updates of the SN taking effect on me. I really want to share pics of my blood oxygen dropping and bpm rising and tell how I'm feeling, it'll make me feel less alone.

I ctb by SN when my family leaves 7pm-9pm. I can do all my desired things like updating on the SN's effect but I'm scared it'll be more shocking than if I ctb in middle of the night.

If I ctb in midnight, I can pretend to have died in my sleep. Obviously a autopsy would give away my actions but still, for a brief moment my family will think it's a freak accident; and who knows, maybe they won't get an autopsy done

If I ctb when my family leaves the house, i feel like I can't pretend to have died randomly idk why. and honestly a random death would be more shocking than suicide in that moment.

Your family will find out it's a ctb case and not a random cause of death. They will want to know what happend to their child.

Also u need to have a second dose prepared just in case you throw up the first one .. so police will see the cup of SN.


Im not sure but it is possible that you will make sounds which is risky for waking up your family. They might find you in time.
Other than that idk how long it takes for SN to fully do its job so it could also be risky if you're not alone long enough.

Seems like you need more planning for these risks.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I would take into consideration how long your method would take.

 

[breezeboy]

I'd get a hotel or do it outside of your home.
No reason to have your family find you unless you intentionally want to hurt them more.