miguel6565
Arcanist
- Apr 5, 2020
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As the title says,when did you know you were ready to die?,i have times were i am in peace whit dead and suddenly no,so i guess i am still not ready
What about you?
What about you?
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May i ask where you gonna ctb,i used to think it would be at the woods and give me a bit of anxiety now i will in the storage room and it gives me more comfort than in the woodsI thought I was ready earlier this year but backed out multiple times. A few days ago I found a better, more hidden spot to ctb. I wonder if the locations had something to do with it. Now I feel more prepared and I think I'm ready. When I think about my death I feel at peace.
It's been nine months since decided to CTB (though I've been suicidal and attempted before as well). I've had a noose hanging and ready for most of that time as well. Yet I'm still here, without a real attempt all year. I guess I'm still afraid of actually dying but I know my life is hopeless and I want to be dead. So I guess I'm not really ready either but everyday life of lying in bed depressed all day is pretty unbearable.I thought I was ready earlier this year but backed out multiple times. A few days ago I found a better, more hidden spot to ctb. I wonder if the locations had something to do with it. Now I feel more prepared and I think I'm ready. When I think about my death I feel at peace.
My new place is behind the park I had planned to ctb at. There's a bunch of trees, bushes, and shrubs to conceal me. It's much farther away from the walking/biking trail than my original spot, so it should be much safer, and that's comforting.May i ask where you gonna ctb,i used to think it would be at the woods and give me a bit of anxiety now i will in the storage room and it gives me more comfort than in the woods
Full suspension hanging?My new place is behind the park I had planned to ctb at. There's a bunch of trees, bushes, and shrubs to conceal me. It's much farther away from the walking/biking trail than my original spot, so it should be much safer, and that's comforting.
When I didn"t win the lottery.As the title says,when did you know you were ready to die?,i have times were i am in peace whit dead and suddenly no,so i guess i am still not ready
What about you?
I've just realised that 'letzte ausfahrt' means 'last exit'.I've been ready since mid-March, every single minute since then.
The date for the end of September has been fixed since then, but I have good reason to wait, otherwise I would be gone for a long time.
But waiting for ctb is becoming more and more difficult, the longing for death ever greater.
The torments of life are now compounded by the agony of waiting.
Oups, almost overlooked.I've just realised that 'letzte ausfahrt' means 'last exit'.
'Ende september wird sein die letzte ausfahrt'. Maybe the grammar is wrong here
What you mean if you've suffered with mental health problem you basically won't be able to get a job?i knew it when i left a mental house diagnosed with disorder. in my country it equals death because 99% of jobs are forbidden for people like me
yeah, everyone thinks we are unstable or some kind of dangerousWhat you mean if you've suffered with mental health problem you basically won't be able to get a job?
That's horrendous.