When did you become self aware that you had weak genetics?

[TakeMeBack07]

• Not accepted by environment
• Cannot/Could not adjust to environment
• Rejected by environment (people, parents, family members, academics, etc
• Etc

I'm curious if anyone realised that their life was doomed from a young age. For me, I became aware of this fact in primary school, around age 10/11. I wanted to die since then and not been ambitious for any type of success since then, not forming long-term goals. It is like my own self deeply understood this fact and wanted to remove myself from the gene pool..
Can anyone relate? What forced you to believe this?

 

[Lady Laudanum]

I found out pretty early in life that severe mental illness runs in both sides of the family. I think I was maybe like 6 years old.

I never plan to have children. I currently have an IUD and I plan to go for salpingectomy in the future (sterilization by removing fallopian tubes). With all of my past partners, I always used condoms despite always being on some other form of birth control. My brother, who is just as mentally ill as I am, already has a kid. I respect his decision. However, I reserve the right to cut myself out of the gene pool.

 

[AnxietyHangover]

Mental illness runs in both sides of my family, I remember when I was younger asking myself when will my turn come to deal with this stuff? Well, it turns out I didn't have to wait for too long.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Mostly Strong genetics but abused as a child.

 

[Luchs]

I totally get that feeling. I have no genetic illnesses that I know of, but be it nature or nurture I got dealt a losing combination from the outset. My mother is a very compassionate and emotionally intelligent person, while my father is less empathetic but very smart and logical.
I got the logical nature of my dad and the emotionality and empathy from my mom. That just left me very self-conscious, overthinking and overanalysing everything, picking up on the slightest social cues and blowing them out of proportion (i.e. "that person doesn't want to hang out rn, I guess he hates me").
I've always felt out of place as far back as first grade elementary school, like I was born into the wrong world, like I'm not supposed to be here.