Discussion When and why is suicide the best choice?

[Allan that was]

I'm really just writing this because I am curious and bored. I know that a lot of people on here are suicidal and know a lot of people that want to die, because I am one of them. What actually makes life unbearable in your experience, Now general feelings of despair or felling like life is a suffocating tarpit, I mean specifically what caused or is continually causing the will to die. Loss of a loved one, economic failure, social failure?
What specific point breaks the animal will to live? let's find out.

 

[Mm80]

I'm really just writing this because I am curious and bored. I know that a lot of people on here are suicidal and know a lot of people that want to die, because I am one of them. What actually makes life unbearable in your experience, Now general feelings of despair or felling like life is a suffocating tarpit, I mean specifically what caused or is continually causing the will to die. Loss of a loved one, economic failure, social failure?
What specific point breaks the animal will to live? let's find out.

A complete and persistant inability to find joy or pleasure in life, after trying every way you know to change things over a long period of time.

 

[chopinkms]

the thought of suicide has lingered for as long as I can remember, but I think the final straw was the person who came the closest to understanding me passing away. And tbh, what's the point? it's the ultimate freedom :")

 

[Sinkinshyp]

I was born into a life of hell. I guess being through all I went through I wasn't able to develop the stronger skills to make life work. I also have multiple birth defects and have often wondered if my anxiety and depression might be related to one of them like the homozygous mutation I have on mthfr gene or one of the others. I've been somewhat quite tested on due to health issues. The final straw for me was when my 25 yr old son died in a car accident. I totally lost it. In my destroyed state of grief I pushed away my younger son to the point 3 months after he turned 18 he ran to my ex in laws. I have lost 1 son to death and 1 son to my devastating grief. Life without my kids is not something I am able to do. I died with my older son that day and without my younger son I have no reason to try to find something to live for.

 

[Deformationalplagio]

Born with severe facial disfugerment (deformed) dont like it outside because of the looks i get and people being rude and dont like it inside because my life is pretty boring. Im just tired

 

[I screwed up too bad]

For me, Ive always been fine. I made an enormous mistake this year due to my own stupidity. Because of it, more bad decisions happened. Now, I've lost almost everything I worked for. I don't see a way out of it. I wish I would not wake up tomorrow. I would love to know that my family is waiting for me on the other side with open arms.

 

[Ramirez]

completely abandoned by family rotting in some shithole.

 

[lonewolf22]

Utter despair and hopelessness. Struggling with loneliness for over 30 years.

 

[gnomeboy17]

For me it's mostly knowing that my life will never be the same as others. My anxiety is so bad I literally can't do anything, I doubt I'll ever be able to get a job or hold a relationship. I am also gay, transgender and recently found out I am autistic. I hate these because it makes me different and are incurable.

 

[muffin222]

When the agony of living severely outweights the joy

 

[Jojo81]

When you don't have family and you are alone.. CTB is perfect. But I have family to take care of and am looking to earn money for them..

 

[L I F E T O L O S E]

it's an end to it all.
the best future career.

 

[Deathbydemo]

Loneliness, fear of rejection and abandonment, crushing mental pain every single day of my life that intensifies more when I think about my life failures and fuck ups. All of these are the reason I'm going to die. This is just a general outline, but the biggest 'straw that broke the camels back' was my ex leaving me and completely shutting me out of his life. Zero contact, it's like I never existed to him to begin with.

 

[grungeCat]

When there's no other way to stop the spiral of misery. Nobody wants to die - the external circumstances force us to do such a thing.

 

[epic]

CTB should only be considered for severe mental or physical illness. Everything else can be recovered or outgrown .

 

[Jellyfish42]

When: When there is no lingering hope left

Why: To free yourself from mental imprisonment

 

[They call me Death.]

People say it's not you that you want to end, but the problem(s) within you. When there are no problems to end or find a solution to anymore, when you still don't want to live even when you're suppossed to be happy, that's when suicide is the answer - for me atleast. I'm happier now than I've ever been. I don't have any friends and am nowhere near social, but I honestly don't care. I go to school, pay my bills, have food on my plate every day and don't have any physical diseases. I own a few cats and dogs, have a sister that loves me unconditionally and I'm not the smartest, but definitely also not the dumbest person walking around. These last few years I got a lot of the things (achieved) which I never thought I would. I'm suppossed to be happy and grateful, right? Well, I'm not. There is no problem within me to kill. It's me that's the problem. I am the problem. I won't get better because I'm not sick. I can understand why some people think this world is a beautiful place. I understand why people are grateful to be alive. I just don't agree with it. I think the world is an ugly place in which I don't belong, in which I don't want to live. I'd rather try to find peace in Hell.

 

[RC90]

People say it's not you that you want to end, but the problem(s) within you. When there are no problems to end or find a solution to anymore, when you still don't want to live even when you're suppossed to be happy, that's when suicide is the answer - for me atleast. I'm happier now than I've ever been. I don't have any friends and am nowhere near social, but I honestly don't care. I go to school, pay my bills, have food on my plate every day and don't have any physical diseases. I own a few cats and dogs, have a sister that loves me unconditionally and I'm not the smartest, but definitely also not the dumbest person walking around. These last few years I got a lot of the things (achieved) which I never thought I would. I'm suppossed to be happy and grateful, right? Well, I'm not. There is no problem within me to kill. It's me that's the problem. I am the problem. I won't get better because I'm not sick. I can understand why some people think this world is a beautiful place. I understand why people are grateful to be alive. I just don't agree with it. I think the world is an ugly place in which I don't belong, in which I don't want to live. I'd rather try to find peace in Hell.

So touching what you wrote.

 

[NextSummer]

In my case it's homelessness. I can't survive on the streets and I would be ashamed that my old friends see me. I can get along with the fact that I will be lonely, poor and unemployed but as long as I have a warm bed that's ok. But not homelessness.

 

[Blueman]

Not sure if suicide is my best choice but I'm here as after a pretty good life I find myself long term unemployed, aged 55, with money but

For me, Ive always been fine. I made an enormous mistake this year due to my own stupidity. Because of it, more bad decisions happened. Now, I've lost almost everything I worked for. I don't see a way out of it. I wish I would not wake up tomorrow. I would love to know that my family is waiting for me on the other side with open arms.

I could've written this word for word, apart from the last bit as most of my family is still on this side

 

[I screwed up too bad]

Not sure if suicide is my best choice but I'm here as after a pretty good life I find myself long term unemployed, aged 55, with money but

I could've written this word for word, apart from the last bit as most of my family is still on this side

I'm sorry to hear you're in the same position I am.

 

[TheQ22]

I'm in the same position you two are. I'm too old and tired to start again from zero, so I can only see one way to avoid the misery, lonliness and humiliation.

 

[Futile]

When you want to and because you want to

 

[XYZ]

When you, of your own volition, decide it is the best choice for you. There is no recipe for suicide. There are no perfect ingredients. It's a strictly personal matter between you and yourself.

 

[Allan that was]

A lot of intresting answers, and a lot of people mention being to it being too late or being to old to start over. to keep the conversation going. When is it too late to improve ones life and do you feel like you are at that point?

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Born with severe facial disfugerment (deformed) dont like it outside because of the looks i get and people being rude and dont like it inside because my life is pretty boring. Im just tired

Would any form of surgery help?

 

[Blankcanvas]

I was born into a life of hell. I guess being through all I went through I wasn't able to develop the stronger skills to make life work. I also have multiple birth defects and have often wondered if my anxiety and depression might be related to one of them like the homozygous mutation I have on mthfr gene or one of the others. I've been somewhat quite tested on due to health issues. The final straw for me was when my 25 yr old son died in a car accident. I totally lost it. In my destroyed state of grief I pushed away my younger son to the point 3 months after he turned 18 he ran to my ex in laws. I have lost 1 son to death and 1 son to my devastating grief. Life without my kids is not something I am able to do. I died with my older son that day and without my younger son I have no reason to try to find something to live for.

Sounds like the typical self centred dad who wants the easy way out. Your living son has also experienced the SAME grief in losing his brother.

Whether you want to see it or not your living son will see your suicide as a punishment for him rejecting you. He will feel responsible. It will kill him.

I don't care for the details of your relationship but no kid deserves that. He will struggle for the rest of his life because a person who he was supposed to trust and he loved by decided he wasn't worth fighting for.
You suffer for your child, end of. Grow up.

Oh and here's my reason for my upcoming suicide. A selfish dad just like you.

Call it projection I don't care. I see right through you.

IDC if I get blocked from the site

 

[Sinkinshyp]

Sounds like the typical self centred dad who wants the easy way out. Your living son has also experienced the SAME grief in losing his brother.

Whether you want to see it or not your living son will see your suicide as a punishment for him rejecting you. He will feel responsible. It will kill him.

I don't care for the details of your relationship but no kid deserves that. He will struggle for the rest of his life because a person who he was supposed to trust and he loved by decided he wasn't worth fighting for.
You suffer for your child, end of. Grow up.

Oh and here's my reason for my upcoming suicide. A selfish dad just like you.

Call it projection I don't care. I see right through you.

IDC if I get blocked from the site

I'm a mom. I have been here 3 yrs almost post the death of my older son just for my younger son. I appreciate your input. Sometimes others input can make a difference and help us see things we are to depressed to see. I don't see why you would be blocked by the site. Thank you for sharing with me. He has a job and I pay his cell bill- so he has no excuses to not call or text me. I text him at least 3x a week and get no reply. I call him every week he will call back when he has time usually only about once a month. Yes he is grieving the loss of his brother and his mother as he knew her. It was just me and the boys and his brother was the man figure in his life. I was not strong enough to keep it together when his brother died. My kids were/are my life. I'm so very sorry your dad has done things to make you feel this way. I am sending you hugs

 

[I screwed up too bad]

I'm in the same position you two are. I'm too old and tired to start again from zero, so I can only see one way to avoid the misery, lonliness and humiliation.

I totally understand. I'm 42, and am trying to be hopeful. I had a great job. Maybe I can find another one.

A lot of intresting answers, and a lot of people mention being to it being too late or being to old to start over. to keep the conversation going. When is it too late to improve ones life and do you feel like you are at that point?

I don't know if I am. I've always had a good life. Im scared I might have screwed up too bad.

 

[Ghost2211]

When the little value I have to anyone runs out.