What’s your plan for the day you CTB? Or up until then?

[burninghill]

Are you going to do things you love? Or just up n go for it?

Every time I've tried to kill myself, I've gone to town and had some takeout and sit by the water. I always buy a boba and pour a couple shots in it.

I'm trying to cram in a bunch of stuff before I kill myself at the end of April or early May. Trips and clubbing and arrangements for my birthday.

I want to stand on this huge suspension bridge in a city quite far from where I live, so I'm going to go there and do that and stare at the water. I'm going to go to London and look at a few exhibitions next week and invite all of my friends over for my birthday. I've had lots of complications with friendships and relationships, but there's a couple people who I want to see for a last time.

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

I've been trying to 'live life to the fullest' before my SN gets here, but it's just not working. I had planned to blow all my money on spoiling my dog and take him on trips, eat good food and enjoy myself, but most days I can barely get myself to eat a full meal and take him on a hike. I don't have it in me to go on one last road trip, or go camping, I just want out. In a way my inability to do the things I love before I go only further solidifies my choice to end my life. I wish things were different, I much rather be doing the things that used to spark joy and fulfill me, rather than obsess over my death, constantly checking my SN tracking number and running over my plans in my head.

 

[DecayAndAsh]

I've got a shooting competition on my birthday that some friends and I like to go to. (There may be a wrench in the works on the "shooting" part, but I'll still show up for the friend time). After our traditional post-match meal I'll go back home and ctb. I can't think of a better way for me to end things.

 

[tonicer]

I wait for my parents to die (both are around 80 and not very healthy anymore especially my dad) then i am going to use my inheritance to travel a bit (i never got out of Europe before) and when the money is used up i am going to jump from the tallest building i can find while making sure i don't land on or next to someone else as to not cause trauma or injury or death to someone else who might enjoy life.