Whats your method of choice and why?

[failedmind]

I was going to go with SN but I can't find it anywhere in the US anymore. I'm debating buying a gun or going with jumping. Both are scary but I need to get out of here. Im still trying to think of other methods though. Im just so beyond tired, I can't even put it into words.

 

[ifihadnever]

I want to die in the house and was looking at FSH but my highesy point 'might' be too low to achieve FSH (give or take). So may be SN.

But I'd do FSH if I had a higher point in the house just so it could be over with quickly.

I'm finding the whole thing exhausting too - i go back and forth between the 2. I just want it over with....too much thought at the minute.

 

[failedmind]

I want to die in the house and was looking at FSH but my highesy point 'might' be too low to achieve FSH (give or take). So may be SN.

But I'd do FSH if I had a higher point in the house just so it could be over with quickly.

I'm finding the whole thing exhausting too - i go back and forth between the 2. I just want it over with....too much thought at the minute.

I've also thought about FSH but I'm scared I'd mess it up. Maybe I should research more

I'm sorry youre in the same spot. Feeling this way + having to plan out your own death is so extremely tiring

 

[oulabalewbaaah]

there was a thread here that talked about partial hanging and it's the cheapest and seemingly easiest and argued to be the most effective in terms of cheap and accessible. I think I might just go with that bc SN isn't available where I'm from and there's nowhere tall enough to jump and guns are way too expensive.

 

[lovelydove]

Jumping probably.

I mostly picked this method because it's the easiest for me (it requires little research, purchases, preparation, etc compared to other methods) and because it's readily accessible to me. I live in a pretty tall apartment building (310 m), and I have roof access and solid concrete to land on.

I could buy a gun since I live in the US, but I literally don't know the first thing about guns. I feel like getting and using a gun requires a lot of research and preparation (finding the right gun, getting a gun license, practicing shooting at ranges, etc), and I can barely get myself to get out of bed in the morning let alone do all of that.

So, jumping is probably the best method I've got right now. I'm just scared to do it because of the fear of failure and my SI.

 

[traingirl]

Jumping probably.

I mostly picked this method because it's the easiest for me (it requires little research, purchases, preparation, etc compared to other methods) and because it's readily accessible to me. I live in a pretty tall apartment building (310 m), and I have roof access and solid concrete to land on.

I could buy a gun since I live in the US, but I literally don't know the first thing about guns. I feel like getting and using a gun requires a lot of research and preparation (finding the right gun, getting a gun license, practicing shooting at ranges, etc), and I can barely get myself to get out of bed in the morning let alone do all of that.

So, jumping is probably the best method I've got right now. I'm just scared to do it because of the fear of failure and my SI.

It really doesn't require much preparation unless you live in a state that heavily restricts them. For me it was in and out in an hour. Only thing you have to worry about is if you've been involuntarily committed. A revolver is very very easy to learn how to use just pop the chamber out load the bullets snap it back in cock your hammer aim inside the mouth at the brain stem or above the ear and you're gone. For me, a simple glance at the gun thread taught me I needed a 357 magnum with 357 magnum hollow points and that was it.

 

[ifihadnever]

I've also thought about FSH but I'm scared I'd mess it up. Maybe I should research more

I'm sorry youre in the same spot. Feeling this way + having to plan out your own death is so extremely tiring

I think I've done too much research...my want for it to work is clouding my judgement that the ligature could stretch too far and I hit the ground (really not a method you want to mess up).

I do have SN but I vomit at everything.. .so think I have a low chance of keeping that in my stomach even with meto.

So, Im back and forth. Its very frustrating. Yes you are right, planning your own death is exhausting! I'm not impulsive (that has pros and cons) but I don't think I need to plan to the extent I am. I think all the planning could actually end up that I mess over but I've over thought it.

Who knew it could be so hard....sorry you are in a similar position.

 

[shiftingtendons]

partial hanging for me, it's the most accessable right now, and i always was so drawn to it for some reason

also in my head seeing someone kneeling is less traumatic than fsh? idk idk

 

[traingirl]

Gun. Was easy to acquire since I didn't have an involuntary commitment. Quick and painless if you do it right. People act like it's super hard as a method and that you have to take a class to learn how to use the gun when a revolver is super simple and doesn't take a genius to know how to use. Handguns don't leave much of a mess so I'm not worried about it. The SI is a beast but I feel like I'm getting closer to overcoming it.

 

[TheHolySword]

It was SN. Then I failed. And now I know what that drink tastes and feels like, it will be impossible for me to even attempt that again. Then it was jumping. I don't really have anywhere accessible to me though. I thought about going out of state for this, but it's a lot of work. And if I chicken out, then I wasted all that time and money for nothing (or if I'm caught, the hassle of being committed out of state). I'm too stupid for anything like CO and hanging scares me. So now I'm going with a gun. I just need to get my license to purchase.

 

[deadmanwalking1990]

I've also thought about FSH but I'm scared I'd mess it up. Maybe I should research more

I'm sorry youre in the same spot. Feeling this way + having to plan out your own death is so extremely tiring

Im so sorry our minds share the same fucking fate,im soo fucking tireeed

 

[Liebestod]

Gunshot wound to the head plus opioid overdose because I want my death to be guaranteed.

 

[lovelydove]

It really doesn't require much preparation unless you live in a state that heavily restricts them. For me it was in and out in an hour. Only thing you have to worry about is if you've been involuntarily committed. A revolver is very very easy to learn how to use just pop the chamber out load the bullets snap it back in cock your hammer aim inside the mouth at the brain stem or above the ear and you're gone. For me, a simple glance at the gun thread taught me I needed a 357 magnum with 357 magnum hollow points and that was it.

I've read over a couple gun threads too, and it all sounds simple on paper. However, actually going out and getting a gun and practicing shooting is extremely intimidating to me, and I really just don't have the energy to do it. I'm too big of a lazy coward.

 

[SkullKitty]

It's on Amazon. I have it available for myself. I have a bottle of sleeping pills, I'm also prescribed valporic acid, and I don't mind sodium nitrate. I'm just scared of the feeling again. But at this point I'm getting closer and closer. I already committed suicide almost fatally back in 2020.

 

[traingirl]

I've read over a couple gun threads too, and it all sounds simple on paper. However, actually going out and getting a gun and practicing shooting is extremely intimidating to me, and I really just don't have the energy to do it. I'm too big of a lazy coward.

You don't have to practice shooting. Kids steal their parents guns and CTB all the time. It's not rocket science. The people at the store I went to were extremely nice. You just have to say you're getting it for self defense. They won't question it. I understand the lazy part though. It took me a burst of motivation to go out and finally do it.

 

[Marbas]

Hanging because for one thing rope is cheap and easily accessible. Another is I just have an image in my head of how I'd like to go. Hanging is it. I've just not decided on full or partial yet.

 

[failedmind]

It was SN. Then I failed. And now I know what that drink tastes and feels like, it will be impossible for me to even attempt that again. Then it was jumping. I don't really have anywhere accessible to me though. I thought about going out of state for this, but it's a lot of work. And if I chicken out, then I wasted all that time and money for nothing (or if I'm caught, the hassle of being committed out of state). I'm too stupid for anything like CO and hanging scares me. So now I'm going with a gun. I just need to get my license to purchase.

Im really really sorry you went through that. Can I ask why it failed? Is there a thread or anything?

 

[TheHolySword]

Im really really sorry you went through that. Can I ask why it failed? Is there a thread or anything?

I posted a thread and answered some questions but I'll explain here too. There's not a whole lot to say. I honestly don't have an exact reason it failed. My only guess is that the SN wasn't actually high enough purity and that I was scammed by the seller. I followed the protocol otherwise, so if it were the correct purity, I should have succeeded. Instead I laid there for hours. My hands and feet were almost completely blue, but I'm still here unfortunately

 

[FuneralCry]

If I was able to choose I'd go for Nembutal as all I want is a death as peaceful and painless as possible with no more suffering but of course I'm so cruelly denied that as after all I exist in this horrific anti-suicide world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what. I just want to be gone, I just want to never suffer again and I see so much cruelty in how peaceful death is denied for me with no risks of it going wrong and leading to way worse suffering and torture as a result and I suffer simply from existing.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Either ligature strangulation or partial suspension hanging, plus an OD same day to make sure.

I envy those of you with guns but I'm in the UK.

Im really really sorry you went through that. Can I ask why it failed? Is there a thread or anything?

I have a feeling a lot of people who attempt with SN haven't read the PPH, so they don't know they have to take an anti-emetic with it and some other steps... maybe that's why.

 

[natsuobun]

Depends on how Ill feel about it in the future But most definitely full suspension hanging Or ligature strangulation. I dont have an anchor point In my apartment and Neither do I wanna try partial suspension since It seems like WAY too much work. If I get the chance Ill go in the woods and Hang myself by a tree branch... If not Ill do it in the Comfort of my own Home on my bed With a rope

 

[littlecutecorpse]

fsh since it seems to be the most viable option for me at the moment. only real issue is finding a good anchor point where i won't be found in time. could've went w/ firearm or SN if they were easier to access

^this plus the fact that everything else is either too much of a hassle (like SN or partial) or too much for my SI to deal with (drowning/jumping). either way i'm now comitted since i just got my rope i'll be using to ctb

 

[failedmind]

I posted a thread and answered some questions but I'll explain here too. There's not a whole lot to say. I honestly don't have an exact reason it failed. My only guess is that the SN wasn't actually high enough purity and that I was scammed by the seller. I followed the protocol otherwise, so if it were the correct purity, I should have succeeded. Instead I laid there for hours. My hands and feet were almost completely blue, but I'm still here unfortunately

Ugh I'm so sorry. Thats sounds traumatic. I wish you all the best

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Nitrogen + exit bag, but I still want to buy a gun to have just because I can and just in case. Even though it will be a hard thing for me to go & do.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

I have SN and will probably use that.

 

[elletaber45]

Nitrogen + exit bag, but I still want to buy a gun to have just because I can and just in case. Even though it will be a hard thing for me to go & do.

Can I ask how you got the nitrogen?

 

[PI3.14]

Hanging.

It's my only option that is well known to be lethal. Might be painful ofc, but only for few seconds.

 

[Hollowman]

It's on Amazon. I have it available for myself. I have a bottle of sleeping pills, I'm also prescribed valporic acid, and I don't mind sodium nitrate. I'm just scared of the feeling again. But at this point I'm getting closer and closer. I already committed suicide almost fatally back in 2020.

Sodium nitrate won't work you need nitrite.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Can I ask how you got the nitrogen?

Oh, it wasn't hard. I just searched "nitrogen gas near me", called the first place on the list, asked if they sold 40cf cylinders of pure nitrogen gas & they said yes.

 

[elletaber45]

Oh, it wasn't hard. I just searched "nitrogen gas near me", called the first place on the list, asked if they sold 40cf cylinders of pure nitrogen gas & they said yes.

You didn't have to provide any information? Here in Canada they check that you're a registered company.