Boochky
Fat, bipolar, and hairy. (Sorry boys, I’m taken.)
- Feb 23, 2019
- 334
Benzos. But my psych now has me on a sbort leash due to my abusing them. I tried a synthetic opioid 2 nights ago, eyeballed the amount, did not test first and ingested, prepared to accept the risks but not much happened, I slept real well though. My friend said I looked a bit high the next day.
RainAndSadness
Administrator
- Jun 12, 2018
- 2,146
Rachel74
Enlightened
- Sep 7, 2019
- 1,716
Ambien, Diazapam and codeine.
Currently being good and only on codeine at the moment as was wasting £200/300 a month on sleepers.
Currently being good and only on codeine at the moment as was wasting £200/300 a month on sleepers.
Stan
Factoid Hunter
- Aug 29, 2019
- 2,589
ithappens
Live free or die
- Aug 9, 2018
- 159
Usually weed because it makes me feel good while helping me relax and take my mind off of things. It can help my creativity as well when it comes to ideas for writing, but the hard part is then finding the motivation to actually write stuff down before my stoner brain just as quickly forgets it. :(
Rachel74
Enlightened
- Sep 7, 2019
- 1,716
Oblivion Lover
No life, no suffering
- May 30, 2019
- 360
Aside from the drugs I plan to or already use for self-medication purposes (diazepam and methylphenidate), I'd love to try either high quality marijuana (not the crap that they sell here) or high purity cocaine in small amounts. I wouldn't go beyond that, though.
Feline Fine
Member
- Jul 5, 2019
- 22
I used to have a stash from when they were still legal of LSD analogues that I used a lot, for better and for worse. I do miss having psychs, I only have one tab left for when I ctb now
I also like weed but it's not like it seems to be for a lot of other people with me, it's not like when I have it it makes everything okay, it just makes me and my environment feel different for once, which is the reason I do most of this kind of stuff really, since I'm always stuck in the same place doing the same things
The first time I did coke was really amazing, it didn't take away all of my anxieties and depressive thoughts about my problems but it made them feel surmountable, it was a really good feeling to have and the only time I ever did have that feeling. But I did it like 3 times after that and it never gave me that feeling again, I did feel different but nothing else felt different, and I think that's what I needed from it. So I don't really care too much for it now
Not that I'd turn down a line though
Alcohol is one of the only things that usually does help and for a while before my first attempt it was what kept me going, but it costs a lot to get me drunk for some reason and I worry too much about money to let myself get into the throes of an addiction unfortunately :c
There's a lot I haven't done yet that I want to though, I tend to try what I can to see if it'll make me feel anything different
DMT seems like it could be the one thing that could maybe actually help, but I can't easily get or make it, hopefully one day
I also like weed but it's not like it seems to be for a lot of other people with me, it's not like when I have it it makes everything okay, it just makes me and my environment feel different for once, which is the reason I do most of this kind of stuff really, since I'm always stuck in the same place doing the same things
The first time I did coke was really amazing, it didn't take away all of my anxieties and depressive thoughts about my problems but it made them feel surmountable, it was a really good feeling to have and the only time I ever did have that feeling. But I did it like 3 times after that and it never gave me that feeling again, I did feel different but nothing else felt different, and I think that's what I needed from it. So I don't really care too much for it now
Not that I'd turn down a line though
Alcohol is one of the only things that usually does help and for a while before my first attempt it was what kept me going, but it costs a lot to get me drunk for some reason and I worry too much about money to let myself get into the throes of an addiction unfortunately :c
There's a lot I haven't done yet that I want to though, I tend to try what I can to see if it'll make me feel anything different
DMT seems like it could be the one thing that could maybe actually help, but I can't easily get or make it, hopefully one day
Weed.
Not addicting and gives me a incredible good feeling without sideeffects.
Other than that I would say MDMA. It's too good, so I would rather stick with 1-2 times a year for it.
Not addicting and gives me a incredible good feeling without sideeffects.
Other than that I would say MDMA. It's too good, so I would rather stick with 1-2 times a year for it.
Moonstruck
Carry on, carry on, as if nothing really matters.
- Sep 18, 2019
- 23
Ahhhhh yes.
I enjoy pot, I like the way coke made me feel but hated the regret after. Always wanted to try h.
gingerplum
Enlightened
- Nov 5, 2018
- 1,450
I can relate to that, Grumpy Cat. Except my only regret was running out of cocaine.
Moonstruck
Carry on, carry on, as if nothing really matters.
- Sep 18, 2019
- 23
benzos mostly, fast/long acting, it's so easy to get them here. sleeping pill like Ambien. painkillers with morphine. I snort some heroin too, but not very often
ithappens
Live free or die
- Aug 9, 2018
- 159
Sorry for the late response. It does, actually. Even better, it makes me have a dreamless sleep. As far back as I can remember I've had nightmares when I sleep. Constantly.
When I started smoking I stopped dreaming and having nightmares. When I don't smoke, the nightmares return, sometimes even more vivid than they used to be. I prefer not dreaming. It's the closest thing I get to a peaceful death.
Nem
Drs suck mega ass!
- Sep 3, 2018
- 1,489
Generally weed, never had a cocaine problem but I do like the smell of that stuff. I had a severe reaction to a dangerous combo of meds and ever since, weed doesn't really affect me the same way. Right now I'm not doing well at all and I am feeling really rough
Peace/hugs
Peace/hugs
Numbtopain97
deader than dead
- Aug 10, 2019
- 443
Gabapentin for now
It is really helping me at least for now. I am afraid in time it won't. That has always been my experience with stuff. I guess I build up a tolerance and stuff starts to not work anymore. Once I get to that point, raising the dose does not help any. I guess I can only enjoy while it lasts. But, for now it is really helping with my anxiety. It was getting out of control, yo the point of making me throw up because I have been so scared . I am afraid of life. This med is numbing the fear some.
It is really helping me at least for now. I am afraid in time it won't. That has always been my experience with stuff. I guess I build up a tolerance and stuff starts to not work anymore. Once I get to that point, raising the dose does not help any. I guess I can only enjoy while it lasts. But, for now it is really helping with my anxiety. It was getting out of control, yo the point of making me throw up because I have been so scared . I am afraid of life. This med is numbing the fear some.
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k75
L'appel du Vide
- Jun 27, 2019
- 2,546
I'm "lucky" to have it prescribed for a couple of different things (severe nerve damage, anxiety, neuropathy), so I have easy access, but I find it helpful in a more recreational dosage. It's tricky, but if you take it correctly, you can avoid the tolerance issue.
my doctor prescribed it for my anxiety.. my nerves. I have neuropathy too, but it doesn't seem to help with that ,even though that is one of the main things it is supposed to help. I am just glad it does calm my anxiety down some. Recreational dosage sounds good, lol ... anything to help ease the pain of living. But, I have always kept to stuff that is legal. But, I am at such a low point in life that I could see myself wanting to take more than I am supposed to.
Fragile
Broken
- Jul 7, 2019
- 1,496
gabepentin and drugs in that family build tolerance super fast, i take pregabalin and it feels amazing while i have low tolerance, after that it feels like I need to double the dose if i want to feel something.
just try to not get dependent on it, the withdrawals are HELL for some people, even worse than benzos and those are scary as fuck and sadly, i'm in that group.
I already am dependent on it now. Oh well, one more problem to add to my list.
Yes, I have always heard benzos were hard to get off of. I guess they all are, but screw it. What are we supposed to do?
Forest Fire
Student
- Jul 19, 2019
- 118
Cannabis. Only thing that guarantees I'l get a semi decent nights sleep with no nightmares. Also helps with suicidal thoughts, anxiety, rage etc.
walker
Member
- Apr 8, 2019
- 10
MDMA, Molly et al by far. Cant do it too often cause I wouldn't want to rot my brain but.. that's the ticket there.
SlackJim
Nothing lasts, but nothing is lost
- Sep 30, 2019
- 226
used to party with MDMA and LSD a lot. Mixing MDMA, LSD and laughing gas will take you right to the edge of the universe, you will see that the shape of the universe is a donut shape, this goes infinitely in both directions, and in more than 3 dimensions (though how many is hard to say, coming from a human perspective). DMT and Mushrooms are my favourite drugs now, although my view on taking psychedelics recreationally has changed a little. weed is a constant, alcohol comes and goes, sugar and television most the time as well.
