Luckily we have great mods. Guess that answers my question of whether Xinino(sp)/Havnis was just a bit off or a complete psychopath.
lol well as long as it entertains you, I guess I'll poke a little. It's not about guessing your deepest, darkest secret; it's about guessing what you think is your deepest, darkest secret.
You openly talk about the guys you are interested in, and you've given some of your fantasies, so it probably isn't sex/love related. (And having bisexual thoughts about kpop stars isn't dark, so I'm not counting that.)
One way I'd be tempted to go is that you have an insecurity you don't admit to on here, where you outwardly show so much confidence (in terms of looks, smarts, etc.), but I doubt you'd want people guessing if that's what you had in mind.
However, with how much you already transparently spill, I do like the angle that your deepest, darkest secret is a lie you've told here, or something that would be hypocritical to the ideals you espouse. Maybe you actually have a full-time job and LARP as a NEET as a way of coping and not admitting you are a normie/sheeple? That would be hilarious.
Or maybe when you said you were a German fed, that was misdirection. You're actually a Chinese spy sent here to convince more Americans to be NEETs so that China can more easily take over the US. (er, wait, maybe I'm confusing that guess with one of my answers to the personal dark fantasies thread.)
Otherwise it would have to be something bad you've done that you feel guilty about.