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disgusting-life

disgusting-life

The smile is a bit crooked
Dec 25, 2025
97
I used to be one of 'em and damn...just what was I seeing? I really was just a foolish, mindless chaser of the illusions of this world

Now I just want to skip to the good part and die



I wanna blab on more but I'll respect myself lol
 
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Kayla

Kayla

quetiapine <3
Dec 23, 2024
240
I've started to enjoy life recently. Mostly because I had a near-death experience with SN last year, and now I've got SN again, I always know I have that to fall back on if life gets really shit again.
 
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disgusting-life

disgusting-life

The smile is a bit crooked
Dec 25, 2025
97
I've started to enjoy life recently. Mostly because I had a near-death experience with SN last year, and now I've got SN again, I always know I have that to fall back on if life gets really shit again.
Good for you, maybe I need a near-death experience of my own
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,594
It is all a matter of perspective. Some genuinely enjoy life and that ia ok. I wish it was equally ok to acknowledge that not all of us do and that some of us want to do something about it.
 
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Mr.Tristesse

Mr.Tristesse

It hurts
Jul 23, 2022
4,819
Nothing is wrong

Wanting to die is valid but it's always the aberrant stance
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Mage
Dec 24, 2025
570
i wouldnt say ive ever enjoyed life since i always wanted to die from a young age being apart of an abusive family but what kept me holding on for longer than i shouldve was naivety and false hope. thats what was wrong with me.
 
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simplymiserable

Hi
May 21, 2023
47
Some people genuinely have alot of things to look forward to and are naturally blessed. Life is beautiful just not for me and u
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
2,745
the society in my country is very perverse,
life is beautiful for the majority of people because they have no sense of wrongdoing,
they enjoy life because they exploit animals and people in poor countries
 
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SufferingDev

SufferingDev

The Prince of the Earth's Last SN Stronghold
Aug 4, 2024
117
It's not always 0-1 remember - I do enjoy some parts of life as much as some I do really hate. Some people are just more positive, some are less - that's it really.

You should not categorize yourself in "I love life" or "I hate life" - the spectrum is simply too large for that :)
 
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Uncounted1846

Member
Jan 17, 2026
67
Being dealt a shitty hand in the life lotto is something I still struggle with. And I know suicide is the logical, obvious conclusion for someone who suffers from severe trauma and depression. But I've had false hope for the past 21 years.

I can say definitively, in my case, things do not get better. They have largely gotten noticeably worse. Play the tape through and it doesn't take a rocket surgeon to conclude things will continue to dip down.

So why can't I just go buy the shotgun and do it already?!
 
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witchcraft

witchcraft

it's too painful to live but I'm too afraid to die
Nov 27, 2024
96
Life isn't fair. That's pretty much it as far as I can tell.

They don't deserve their opportunities, luck, fortune, temperament, genetics, any more than anybody else. All of their stars aligned, their "perseverance" always pays off, their efforts always bear fruit, so naturally they conclude their life is worth living. They conclude that it's all the direct result of their own actions; it's not, but life never proves them wrong, so their illusion is indistinguishable from reality.
 

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