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kindawannacrylol
Student
- Jan 13, 2021
- 142
i planned to ctb today, in fact i'm meant to be doing it right now but now i'm having second thoughts, i know i want this but i don't know whether it's because i want my suffering to end or because i genuinely want to die or if those two things are the same?? it's probably just survival instinct putting all these thoughts into my head i've planned this for so long. i was so certain this is what i wanted. i know i deserve so much more than a future of suffering, taking my life now is a merciful ending for me, it's the kindest thing to do so i don't know why i'm confused