sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
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Just curious lol
 
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
749
Let's just say I feel like I'm a disgusting person who definitely deserves to die because of what I've done
 
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uniqueusername18

Member
Apr 7, 2024
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Fell in love 😂
 
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ClaudeCTTE

ClaudeCTTE

Misunderstood...
Aug 22, 2023
264
To exist
 
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Malaria

Malaria

If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
Feb 24, 2024
1,085
Pretend to be someone I wasn't for approval and acceptance from people who don't care about me anyways.
 
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anotherlastchance

anotherlastchance

Your never not you
Feb 3, 2024
94
Well Well where to start…
When I still was living in squats I used to steal stuff for my addiction: bicycles, scooters, tools, copper, lead, and much more the worst thing I stole back than,
even made the local newspaper. its was an special electrical bike designed for someone in a wheelchair. Yeah I know disgusting wright. I also stole like a realy nice sail yacht one time. so that me and my dog had a place to sleep.
Also multiple Cheating on my ex girlfriend.
Yeah there are a number of bad things I've done. but I never killed anybody and I'm a nice guy if you get to know me but yeah dark past and shit. And just for me this song
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
Pretend to be someone I wasn't for approval and acceptance from people who don't care about me anyways.
That's what I used to do to. I used to change myself, conform and try to fit in in order to be accepted by others
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,202
I'm not sure actually. Now that I think about it, I don't think that I really did many bad things in life. Maybe I'm just innocent or something. There must be something but I can't think of anything
 
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Agon321

Agon321

I use google translate
Aug 21, 2023
1,546
Are you planning to create a black file to intimidate us? :)

Seriously though, that's a good question.
Confronting your actions is an interesting and difficult thing.

I don't want to give all the details.
It's also hard for me to choose, so I'll write what comes to my mind.

- At school, I mentally (sometimes physically) bullied at least one person.
I've done it with others.
I'm not necessarily proud of it now.
I also "bullied" others, but in the end I had good relationships with them.
- As a child, I tortured cats a bit.
Maybe I'm exaggerating the word "torture", but I was very unpleasant to some cats.
I also burned snails alive in the oven (and other small animals).
It made me happy then.
Now I would probably not commit such an act.
- I stole money from several of my family members.
I'm not going to elaborate on this
- ...and probably a few other things.
I simply wrote the first thing that came to my mind.
Some things aren't necessarily bad, but they can be controversial.


I'm definitely not a good person.
I sometimes have radical views.
However, I do not consider myself an "evil" person.
I'm currently harmless.
I'm 21 if that makes any difference.
 
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dragonofenvy

dragonofenvy

Mage
Oct 8, 2023
564
I emotionally manipulated friends in high school and treated them very badly. I eventually learned my lesson but it was too late. I also was a bit abusive to one of my dogs for like, a week because I was frustrated with training him. It wasn't anything crazy but it was beyond the normal corporal punishment you're supposed to do when training a dog. I realized I was being a piece of shit and stopped doing it and now really love the dog. Don't live with him anymore and miss him (the only thing I do miss lol. I don't even miss my parents).

Otherwise, the worst thing I've done was go to college. This time it's not me being cruel but instead being stupid. Big waste of money and waste of time for something that didn't end up going well because my school wasn't supportive in helping students get an internship during COVID and just expected us to get along on our own.
 
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SuicidalOrganism

SuicidalOrganism

Experienced
May 31, 2023
223
walk in the classroom naked
 
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SuicidalOrganism

SuicidalOrganism

Experienced
May 31, 2023
223
Why were you naked in the classroom?
Someone pulled my pants down as i was walking in the classroom one day, which was an unfortunate day where i didnt wear any underwear
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
3,649
Someone pulled my pants down as i was walking in the classroom one day, which was an unfortunate day where i didnt wear any underwear
Oof, that's awful. I'm sorry that happened to you. I don't think that would really count though, because that only happened because some asshole pulled down your pants. This wasn't a case of you specifically deciding one day that to just waltz into your classroom half naked.
 
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SuicidalOrganism

SuicidalOrganism

Experienced
May 31, 2023
223
Oof, that's awful. I'm sorry that happened to you. I don't think that would really count though, because that only happened because some asshole pulled down your pants. This was a case of you specifically deciding one day that to just waltz into your classroom half naked.
it wasnt a big deal in my school tbh, stuff like swearing at teachers, vandalism, getting into knife fights, drugs, sex in restrooms is pretty common
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
3,649
it wasnt a big deal in my school tbh, stuff like swearing at teachers, vandalism, getting into knife fights, drugs, sex in restrooms is pretty common
Your school sounds terrible.
 
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marchshift

marchshift

Member
Mar 15, 2024
89
I went no contact with my Mom and she CTB. I have a temper and tend to go say harsh things and go no contact. It hurts really bad and I regret my behavior. I've also had some dark thoughts/wishes towards abusive people. Bullies irritate me.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
7,258
When I was about 28, I got my gf pregnant. We were already fighting a lot, and, I guess, the stress of the pregnancy just made things worse? Anyway, I got a house and moved her, along with her 2 kids from a previous relationship, in with me, and things just headed even more downhill from there. I got to learn more about her, her mothering abilities especially, and began to realize that I had made a big mistake, not only by getting her pregnant, but even being with her at all. She just didn't have the values I have. Anyway, I really started hoping (not praying since I'm atheist) that somehow she would lose the child, my child, that she was carrying. At the beginning of the 2nd trimester she did just that. I think the cosmos has punished me over the past 30 years. Maybe I've been punishing myself. Either way, it doesn't matter, as I deserved it.

Boy, can I hear all the hate words now. I doubt anyone can say anything that I haven't already said to myself daily over the past 30 years.

Is that what you were looking for, OP? Writing a book? IDC.
 
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