What's the reason why you want to cbt?

[Lol]

I just don't want to feel the painful pangs in my chest due to anxiety anymore, and a few other things, but this is the main reason

 

[Mikulal1995]

Cerebral palsy; being gay; difficulty finishing college; realizing I can only get menial jobs and that I suck at them because I don't know how to work in the real world; the reality that I'll have to prostitute the rest of my life's time working to barely make a decent living; the real possibility that I may never attain true independence and may have to continue living a parasitic lifestyle; crippling depression; bipolar disorder with severe manic episodes with one already leading to bankruptcy at age 23; no trust in myself that I will go manic again fuck shit up even more. That's some of what I've got.

 

[GinaIsReady]

Cerebral palsy; being gay; difficulty finishing college; realizing I can only get menial jobs and that I suck at them because I don't know how to work in the real world; the reality that I'll have to prostitute the rest of my life's time working to barely make a decent living; the real possibility that I may never attain true independence and may have to continue living a parasitic lifestyle; crippling depression; bipolar disorder with severe manic episodes with one already leading to bankruptcy at age 23; no trust in myself that I will go manic again fuck shit up even more. That's some of what I've got.

That is a lot of shit to have riding along on you, damn. But you are actually in college, you are doing it!! It's just a given that college is hard (for everybody) but you are doing it even with the other shit going on! You may or may not end up making whatever a lot of money is, but at least you're trying and maybe doing better than it feels you are. ? Best to you.

 

[Lol]

Cerebral palsy; being gay; difficulty finishing college; realizing I can only get menial jobs and that I suck at them because I don't know how to work in the real world; the reality that I'll have to prostitute the rest of my life's time working to barely make a decent living; the real possibility that I may never attain true independence and may have to continue living a parasitic lifestyle; crippling depression; bipolar disorder with severe manic episodes with one already leading to bankruptcy at age 23; no trust in myself that I will go manic again fuck shit up even more. That's some of what I've got.

that's alot.

 

[manwewaslonely]

Feelings of loneliness, self hatred and hopelessness eat away at me every second of the day. Every day something bad happens or I mess something up. Past trauma. There's just no point in going on because these are all things I can't fix and won't change.

 

[Lol]

Feelings of loneliness, self hatred and hopelessness eat away at me every second of the day. Every day something bad happens or I mess something up. Past trauma. There's just no point in going on because these are all things I can't fix and won't change.

felt that. hopefully we'll find a way to cbt soon.

 

[thedutchguy]

Lower back issues (unoperatable) cluster headache (21h a days 2 double sided) fibromyalgie (untreatable), lonely because of my disablements it's hard to be social.

 

[not_a_robot]

Lower back issues (unoperatable) cluster headache (21h a days 2 double sided) fibromyalgie (untreatable), lonely because of my disablements it's hard to be social.

God I hate to be "that guy", I guess you know what you want if you're here but, shit, have you tried yoga and exercise for the back? I only ask because I'm generally pretty lazy, but I have a few simple exercises and stretches I have to do for my back and if I didn't, I would be in constant agony from a shitty spine and bad posture. I don't even do it often but every time I do I just feel like, more people who suffer back problems need to know how important this is to easing back pain.
It literally takes me from constant agony to pain-free with only 40 minutes of effort a week. I don't mean to interfere, I just hate to see people in pain, I'm that annoying person who has to suggest every possible simple solution before giving up.
Edit: also, I lied. Sometimes I like seeing people in pain a little, if they are very mean and evil people. But I guess that's subjective.

 

[Rez_MbChB]

I lost the person that meant most to me, and realised the damage I'd done to them.

 

[Mort]

My body is mess up beyond any useful any more got arthritis in most of my joints. And the painkillers i am taking are slowly killing my kidneys and liver. I all so have heart problems due to a lack of sleep. My mind is slowly slipping away cant tell whats real and whats a wakeing dream. All my eyesight is falling sum times i can only see
In black and white odd i know . And top of that despite all that i am being forced to find work a white 45 year old Male if was in good health it bit tricky but the way i am no way hosay :|

 

[Rez_MbChB]

My body is mess up beyond any useful any more got arthritis in most of my joints. And the painkillers i am taking are slowly killing my kidneys and liver. I all so have heart problems due to a lack of sleep. My mind is slowly slipping away cant tell whats real and whats a wakeing dream. All my eyesight is falling sum times i can only see
In black and white odd i know . And top of that despite all that i am being forced to find work a white 45 year old Male if was in good health it bit tricky but the way i am no way hosay :|

what type of arthritis? shit man sounds rough

 

[Morphinekiss]

I have degenerative scoliosis and will soon have my spine fused. I've got intractable epilepsy and chronic migraines. Trigeminal neuralgia and allodynia leave me feeling like I'm on fire most days. I've done a round with cervical cancer/radiation. My teaching career is over and I'm not sure what to do with my life now. I'd like to go back to school but brain damage from multiple concussions has left me slower than I used to be. Due to the limitations of my physical conditions I live with family. When my parents die, it will be just my sister and I. She hates me and I won't feel bad about leaving her behind so I'm just trying to hold on for a little longer.

 

[Mort]

what type of arthritis? shit man sounds rough

The one were it eats away the cartilage in your joints o and i have a vertebra in the bottom of my back thats collapsing . In couple of years if i still a live going end up in a wheelchair pissing and shitting my self as i be paralysed from the waist down.

 

[Halo13]

Incurable disease, scoliosis, severe degenerative disc disease, a laundry list of psych issues and ctb attempts, Epilepsy, years of disappointment and heartache over friends and partners, zero family left or friends, PTSD - just sick of fighting for a life not worth living. I've experienced both good and horrible, exhausted options for treatment of my physical issues and mental health and it boils down to no reason to continue suffering. Especially with an incurable disease and disability issues. All I want now is some kindness before I go as life has been unkind since childhood but it's not likely to happen.

The one were it eats away the cartilage in your joints o and i have a vertebra in the bottom of my back thats collapsing . In couple of years if i still a live going end up in a wheelchair pissing and shitting my self as i be paralysed from the waist down.

I feel for you, I'm in a similar situation. Hugs.

 

[andy69]

Feelings of loneliness, self hatred and hopelessness eat away at me every second of the day. Every day something bad happens or I mess something up. Past trauma. There's just no point in going on because these are all things I can't fix and won't change.

I lost the person that meant most to me, and realised the damage I'd done to them.

I feel the same way that you do.

I am doing it because my partner left me. I feel that it was my fault. I am going to be alone and filled with regret for the rest of my life. The pain is unbearable.

 

[mathieu]

Mostly becuase of my poor mental health. Schizoaffective disorder, generalised anxiety disorder and ADD. It prevents me from living a decent life.

 

[BlueMeanie88]

My depression is eating away at me everyday. I am finding it harder and harder to even get out of bed. I feel like a horrible mother and girlfriend. I know they'd be better off without me causing unnecessary stress of always being so sad

 

[inconsequential]

Chronic pain, and PTSD, mostly.

I have degenerative disc disease in both my thoracic and lower spine, several cord impingements/compressions, and connective tissue that is degrading. My PTSD makes me hypervigilant & dissociate on and off. I cry constantly. It's impossible to make or keep many friends because I can't keep plans due to anxiety or pain.

 

[ExitTheDay]

Chronic headaches, relentless BPD, and overall just realizing how shitty the world is. I want to help change it but what's the point if I feel like shit all of the time, God damn...

 

[Egddios]

Death is the ultimate safe place, nobody can hurt me once I'm gone. That is most appealing to me.

I'm exhausted to continue fighting for quality mental health care that every person on the planet is entitled to. It's becoming more and more difficult to have nescessary medications prescribed, ie benzodiazepines and even with access to a benzo, I've got PTSD/MDD/Panic disorder. I recently started seeing a new psychiatrist and he suspects I may have BPD. The cherry on top.

Hypothyroidism I'm only just beginning to treat and I wonder how much it has to do with my depression.

Chronic pain from a broken C2 and multiple TBI's....it's been a rough road. Or ride.

These are some of the main reasons I want to end my life aka catch that bus already (CTB).

 

[lululoo]

Chronic pain and fatigue, depression, being a loser who couldnt find anyone to love me despite being supposedly attractive, there's just something repellant about me.

 

[vulpo]

I think life is pointless.
You are born, get older, have fun, have problems, but then you just get more and more older. Your body gets injured, ugly, weak. We suffer we should ctb legally if we want to. There's no point in forcing ppl to live a life they don't want.

We will ALL die eventually, so why oblige some to do it if they are miserable? I feel frustrated with my life, think I wasted it. Many years wasted. I just want to disappear and never remembered.

Sometimes I wish some asteroid crashes with our planet and trigger a massive extinction like it happened with dinos. I guess rich or successful ppl might feel happy but even they will have to face illness, pain, getting old, etc. Wish this was legal worldwide.

 

[Jumper]

Long-standing suicidal ideation and feeling that life is pointless (even when I had no concrete problems); worsening bipolar disorder in the setting of some new physical ailments; the physical issues themselves (one is chronic foot pain — it hurts with every step, and standing is intolerable... and physical issues have destroyed my sense of self); inadequate performance at a high pressure job (+inability to learn due to executive dysfunction; having to stand/walk long hours at work with foot pain; copious bureaucratic demands); circadian rhythm disorder (lifelong inability to wake up in the mornings, leading to adverse consequences in multiple settings - job starts early and with long commute); financial woes (owe around 100K to the IRS); physical + mental problems interfering with romantic relationships and intimacy; the knowledge that worse illnesses await me in the future and I won't be able to cope.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I want to keep my dignity.

 

[TheLastStraw]

Being a wage slave working hard labor, not being able to be free or independent economically and having low self esteem because of it

Being 27 and never being in a relationship or had sex, never had any true friends

Life as a bottom feeder is just surviving, not living

 

[Weems]

Shame, guilt, embarrassment. Everything else is downstream.

 

[Sandman]

Chronic envy, disappointment, and isolation.

Life as a bottom feeder is just surviving, not living

Exactly.

 

[wanttodie]

I want die as I have Dpression cant sleep hate my life I hate living and hate my body and want to end my life​

 

[secondtimesthecharm]

I basically destroyed a good life with ample future prospects, and I'm just exhausted now, I don't have any will to fight left so I can't face the struggle of desperately trying to rebuild my world, and enduring misery day to day for months until I cobble something decent back together.

 

[TimeToDie]

Let's count the reasons:

1. Disabled by social phobia -- tried every med and they all fail.
2. Severe generalized anxiety -- every med has failed.
3. OCD -- every med has failed.
4. Have been totally unable to sleep since March -- every sleep aid has failed.
5. Ears have been ringing nonstop since March.
6. Loss of sex drive & sexual function.
7. Obese
8. Teeth are horrid -- yellow, crooked, cross bite, worn & chipped due to grinding -- would need at least 11 crowns, if fortunate enough to not need dentures.
9. Have lost $600,000 to a lawsuit.
10. Will never get Social Security nor Medicare at 65 due to lack of work history.
11. No family: parents dead, aunts & uncles dead, brother dead, other brother is the bastard who's suing me (So I wish he were dead!)
12. Low testosterone: Years on AndroGel never made me feel any better and does nothing for sex drive, though results in tiny balls.
13. Stretch marks (that remain from massive weight gain as a teen).
14. Bald
15. I hate my house -- right on train tracks.
16. Upper arm aches due to cervical ridiculopathy and physical therapy failed.
17. Lower back pain if I actually dare to do wild & crazy physical activity such as washing dishes.
18. Extrapyramidal side effects: blinking at a VERY rapid rate (resulting in visual impairment) and my entire body twitches. I can't write.
19. My nose has been stuffed up & runny for the last 46 years. Need sinus surgery, but too afraid of surgery to ever get it.
20. I'm old.
21. High blood pressure
22. High cholesterol
23. High triglycerides
24. No wife, no GF, no realistic chance of ever having a relationship.
25. Maybe I'll think of some more later...