NSFW what's the point of being a pretty girl online if the only functioning thing in my body is my pussy

[notevenhere]

you show them your social media and they see photos of your thighs and cigarettes and bottles of strong zeroes and you have small tits and you look like a Japanese asian school girl or a boy and you realize only incels and pedophiles in their 40s are attracted to you and men your age with savior complex and you have to be drunk or high all the time to feel loved, to be lovely because they will leave when you stop being pretty, after you turn fat, after you show signs of your actual fucking mental illness they all leave. and you have cptsd nightmares, from the sexual trauma from how they'd gore up your body— and the only thing that calms me down is my twitter feed where other Asian girls are cutting themselves, and then posting the fucked up messages they get: I'd go to reddit, exchange this body for a couple dollars, a hundred, 75, 50— it's just a little mindbreak, i forced myself to do this, dumb slut— i want this, just cut your arms afterwards and get drunk and drink your anti anxiety medications and the cycle repeats because you'll be super drunk for the next discord boy you'll meet and they're gonna treat you like a project, they'll love you, obsess over the manic pixie dream girl version of you and then once all of that is over and done with: you've done something to piss them off, you're no longer of value because ah well fuck bitch didn't actually die or they get obsessed and you have new stalkers that'll watch your IG stories for the rest of your life.

and your friends. still. don't think. you're that. mentally ill. you are. doing this. for attention.

they'll only believe shit once I'm dead. fuck this shit. if any of you care? fucking actually help me ctb or talk to me. got a lot of fucking guts to tell me to focus on myself and not die and do better, bitch i hate myself and I'm gonna harm myself if I'm left to my own devices. what? you don't know fuck shit about me then. easy for you to say, you didn't go through quarter of what I've been through and I lost the only two real people who mattered. who understood and it made me realize i only really have myself.

and i can't stand myself. so let me go and have my fucking peace. i can't do this shit.

 

[sylvey]

you show them your social media and they see photos of your thighs and cigarettes and bottles of strong zeroes and you have small tits and you look like a Japanese asian school girl or a boy and you realize only incels and pedophiles in their 40s are attracted to you and men your age with savior complex and you have to be drunk or high all the time to feel loved, to be lovely because they will leave when you stop being pretty, after you turn fat, after you show signs of your actual fucking mental illness they all leave. and you have cptsd nightmares, from the sexual trauma from how they'd gore up your body— and the only thing that calms me down is my twitter feed where other Asian girls are cutting themselves, and then posting the fucked up messages they get: I'd go to reddit, exchange this body for a couple dollars, a hundred, 75, 50— it's just a little mindbreak, i forced myself to do this, dumb slut— i want this, just cut your arms afterwards and get drunk and drink your anti anxiety medications and the cycle repeats because you'll be super drunk for the next discord boy you'll meet and they're gonna treat you like a project, they'll love you, obsess over the manic pixie dream girl version of you and then once all of that is over and done with: you've done something to piss them off, you're no longer of value because ah well fuck bitch didn't actually die or they get obsessed and you have new stalkers that'll watch your IG stories for the rest of your life.

and your friends. still. don't think. you're that. mentally ill. you are. doing this. for attention.

they'll only believe shit once I'm dead. fuck this shit. if any of you care? fucking actually help me ctb or talk to me. got a lot of fucking guts to tell me to focus on myself and not die and do better, bitch i hate myself and I'm gonna harm myself if I'm left to my own devices. what? you don't know fuck shit about me then. easy for you to say, you didn't go through quarter of what I've been through and I lost the only two real people who mattered. who understood and it made me realize i only really have myself.

and i can't stand myself. so let me go and have my fucking peace. i can't do this shit.

you're unironically the most genuine person here and are now my favorite. if you wanna slice up that arm, do it girl, do it. for fucks sake screw the overly positive people who never accept the fact that things don't get better. i can't relate to the part where people would actually give me the time of day to begin with, but i can relate to the part where you only have use to someone for so long before they throw you aside because you're not all that cool anymore. and then they get other people to shit on you just because they can't accept the fact that they are gravel under your feet and they'd be better off throwing themselves in front of a subway train.
and those friends of yours who think you're just doing it for attention? fuck them. fuck them to hell. they can keep living their happy go lucky lives and fuck themselves because they got a better deal than you in life, or maybe they're suffering too but they had the guts to shit on you.
they'll all burn in hell one day, so they can go fuck themselves.
you're cool to me, at least; just because you were able to say all that.

 

[MBG]

Not sure how your thread title relates to the body of your opening post….

You seem really tormented by life. Sorry to hear that. :(

When I feel really down a few things help lift my spirits. (1) Just spill my guts out to God in prayer. Closing your eyes can help avoid being distracted and losing your train of thought. A handy little formula is ACTS: Adoration: tell God how wonderful, powerful, just and yet merciful He is. Confession: tell God how you've done wrong to others (we confess our sins against others, not their sins against us), and beg for mercy and forgiveness. Thanksgiving: thanks Him for all the small and great blessings He has blessed you with in particular and humanity in general. And last, Supplication: this is you asking God to do something for you or another. Close by saying something like "Please help me God and guide me to a loving relationship with you."

Another thing I do is go on YouTube and listen to 15-30 minutes of Gregorian chants to calm my mind (no, I do not understand the words but the music is soothing), and then about the same amount of time listening to classic Christian hymns (good teaching), and last the same amount of time listening to contemporary praise song (lifting up my spirit).

Even if you are not a Christian you might try it. It doesn't cost anything and can't hurt you.

 

[tiger b]

You definitely deserve whatever peace is there for you.

 

[notevenhere]

you're unironically the most genuine person here and are now my favorite. if you wanna slice up that arm, do it girl, do it. for fucks sake screw the overly positive people who never accept the fact that things don't get better. i can't relate to the part where people would actually give me the time of day to begin with, but i can relate to the part where you only have use to someone for so long before they throw you aside because you're not all that cool anymore. and then they get other people to shit on you just because they can't accept the fact that they are gravel under your feet and they'd be better off throwing themselves in front of a subway train.
and those friends of yours who think you're just doing it for attention? fuck them. fuck them to hell. they can keep living their happy go lucky lives and fuck themselves because they got a better deal than you in life, or maybe they're suffering too but they had the guts to shit on you.
they'll all burn in hell one day, so they can go fuck themselves.
you're cool to me, at least; just because you were able to say all that.

right? oh, when my last real boyfriend dumped me and I was ready to off myself with benzos And booze at 2pm and everyone was at work or school or out or in dates or gaming? fuck them. you know who was there? same manipulative redditor who have given me 200 dollars to do it and that, I did. i sent him nudes, he was in call with me when I was yelling at my mom i drank all my pills and she was like sighing and going ugh can't you wait for 30 minutes? No absolute Concert and she stopped for burger king on the way and it was a fucking city ride away and they didn't even fucking pump my stomach because my mom was too lazy to drive to the main city with resources and the nurses told me to ride out the pills because haha fuck you broke ass bitch we only save REAL PEOPLE Maybe don't fail your. next suicide attention whore fuck me fuck me fuck me I'm a whore I swear my next suicide will be guaranteed. fuck this shit. fuck everyone fuck everyone fuck everyone fuck this shitty life this is what i get for trying this is what I get for righting my wrongs im fucking shitty too I fuck all my friends for male validation so i have. no one now i lie i fake moan i fucking cheat i have no control in this house so I try to control men I'm a horrible person.

no amount of cutting can make me attone for my sins i need to be raped and murdered and tortured.

 

[notevenhere]

You definitely deserve whatever peace is there for you.

Thank you! Everyone keeps telling me to find my peace. My peace is when I'm dead.

 

[BlockHammer]

I dont know what to say, but i do hope you can find your peaxe even if it means you have to leave this world

 

[sylvey]

right? oh, when my last real boyfriend dumped me and I was ready to off myself with benzos And booze at 2pm and everyone was at work or school or out or in dates or gaming? fuck them. you know who was there? same manipulative redditor who have given me 200 dollars to do it and that, I did. i sent him nudes, he was in call with me when I was yelling at my mom i drank all my pills and she was like sighing and going ugh can't you wait for 30 minutes? No absolute Concert and she stopped for burger king on the way and it was a fucking city ride away and they didn't even fucking pump my stomach because my mom was too lazy to drive to the main city with resources and the nurses told me to ride out the pills because haha fuck you broke ass bitch we only save REAL PEOPLE Maybe don't fail your. next suicide attention whore fuck me fuck me fuck me I'm a whore I swear my next suicide will be guaranteed. fuck this shit. fuck everyone fuck everyone fuck everyone fuck this shitty life this is what i get for trying this is what I get for righting my wrongs im fucking shitty too I fuck all my friends for male validation so i have. no one now i lie i fake moan i fucking cheat i have no control in this house so I try to control men I'm a horrible person.

no amount of cutting can make me attone for my sins i need to be raped and murdered and tortured.

welp, i'll make sure to run your mother, the nurse, and anyone else you need me to over with a car before i kms. not as if anyone can do anything about it since my death is ensured via grotesque means.

 

[silentnights56]

you show them your social media and they see photos of your thighs and cigarettes and bottles of strong zeroes and you have small tits and you look like a Japanese asian school girl or a boy and you realize only incels and pedophiles in their 40s are attracted to you and men your age with savior complex and you have to be drunk or high all the time to feel loved, to be lovely because they will leave when you stop being pretty, after you turn fat, after you show signs of your actual fucking mental illness they all leave. and you have cptsd nightmares, from the sexual trauma from how they'd gore up your body— and the only thing that calms me down is my twitter feed where other Asian girls are cutting themselves, and then posting the fucked up messages they get: I'd go to reddit, exchange this body for a couple dollars, a hundred, 75, 50— it's just a little mindbreak, i forced myself to do this, dumb slut— i want this, just cut your arms afterwards and get drunk and drink your anti anxiety medications and the cycle repeats because you'll be super drunk for the next discord boy you'll meet and they're gonna treat you like a project, they'll love you, obsess over the manic pixie dream girl version of you and then once all of that is over and done with: you've done something to piss them off, you're no longer of value because ah well fuck bitch didn't actually die or they get obsessed and you have new stalkers that'll watch your IG stories for the rest of your life.

and your friends. still. don't think. you're that. mentally ill. you are. doing this. for attention.

they'll only believe shit once I'm dead. fuck this shit. if any of you care? fucking actually help me ctb or talk to me. got a lot of fucking guts to tell me to focus on myself and not die and do better, bitch i hate myself and I'm gonna harm myself if I'm left to my own devices. what? you don't know fuck shit about me then. easy for you to say, you didn't go through quarter of what I've been through and I lost the only two real people who mattered. who understood and it made me realize i only really have myself.

and i can't stand myself. so let me go and have my fucking peace. i can't do this shit.

Yes, I think most men aren't all that empathetic towards the female condition either (they say most women are callous and indifferent towards the average dude, which I agree, but honestly they reciprocate the exact behaviour towards average girls, so yea...). Even for girls they supposedly ogle after and can die for, most of the guys just want a piece of fuckmeat, let's be real for a second. I'm not the type to complain about objectification of females (I think it's been overdone and abused by Lefties), but seriously a lot of men see women as "person with boobs and pussy". Fuck their thoughts and opinions, fuck their personalities and aspirations, that's all women will ever be to a great chunk of men (maybe "baby mummy"/"mother of my children" at most). So many men are actually animals when it comes to women, all they see is the PUSSY and nothing else. How are humans an advanced species with the amount of dumb things we engage in and our animal instincts still dominant (not absolving women, a lot of us chase after money and social status in men, which is good old objectification and animal mating practice too)?

I agree that males seem to be getting the shorter end of the stick in recent years as compared to the past. But just as below average dudes are struggling, below average (ugly, out of shape, struggling with physical and mental issues) girls don't have an easy life too. Also, even beautiful girls can lose their looks rapidly or slowly, do they not? Guys think good-looking girls get all the advantage, which is true to a certain extent. But if this looks thing is what your entire worth is (Btw I find it depressing and ridiculous that humans place THAT MUCH emphasis on looks, but it's the same old pathetic human nature, which will NEVER change. Humanity just needs to go extinct to end this pointless and ridiculous charade...) based upon, doesn't seem like a stable foundation to me either. Also most men want children from women, and most women have to procreate in order to be deemed "good" or "successful" by society, but the same does not apply for men. Absolutely not every men would be involved in a war or combat in their lifetime. And I don't casually hear people say men that don't go to war are losers, on the contrary, the saying is all too common that women that don't breed aren't "real women" (disgusting and sickening rhetoric) .

 

[IWishToDie]

you show them your social media and they see photos of your thighs and cigarettes and bottles of strong zeroes and you have small tits and you look like a Japanese asian school girl or a boy and you realize only incels and pedophiles in their 40s are attracted to you and men your age with savior complex and you have to be drunk or high all the time to feel loved, to be lovely because they will leave when you stop being pretty, after you turn fat, after you show signs of your actual fucking mental illness they all leave. and you have cptsd nightmares, from the sexual trauma from how they'd gore up your body— and the only thing that calms me down is my twitter feed where other Asian girls are cutting themselves, and then posting the fucked up messages they get: I'd go to reddit, exchange this body for a couple dollars, a hundred, 75, 50— it's just a little mindbreak, i forced myself to do this, dumb slut— i want this, just cut your arms afterwards and get drunk and drink your anti anxiety medications and the cycle repeats because you'll be super drunk for the next discord boy you'll meet and they're gonna treat you like a project, they'll love you, obsess over the manic pixie dream girl version of you and then once all of that is over and done with: you've done something to piss them off, you're no longer of value because ah well fuck bitch didn't actually die or they get obsessed and you have new stalkers that'll watch your IG stories for the rest of your life.

and your friends. still. don't think. you're that. mentally ill. you are. doing this. for attention.

they'll only believe shit once I'm dead. fuck this shit. if any of you care? fucking actually help me ctb or talk to me. got a lot of fucking guts to tell me to focus on myself and not die and do better, bitch i hate myself and I'm gonna harm myself if I'm left to my own devices. what? you don't know fuck shit about me then. easy for you to say, you didn't go through quarter of what I've been through and I lost the only two real people who mattered. who understood and it made me realize i only really have myself.

and i can't stand myself. so let me go and have my fucking peace. i can't do this shit.

My advice:
Leave social media, it is not healthy for anyone let alone women who exposed themselves. What exactly are you expecting? Would you jump off a cliff and be surprised when you hit the bottom? Cause and effect, friend.

Best of luck.