sevennn

sevennn

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Sep 11, 2024
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to the people that say "no don't kill yourself" ok what's the point of not killing yourself? to work? wake up almost everyday and go to work, right. that's an amazing alternative to, you know, dying and not dealing with any of the worlds bullshit anymore. the alternatives are so bleak and bland. and not interesting me one bit. why the hell was i born. what did my parents want to share with me? this depressing world? it's awful.

eternal peace or study. eternal peace or work. eternal peace or upkeep of your needy body. feeding, shitting, pissing, washing, nail clipping, etc etc etc. eternal peace or all the "good things" in life which you don't really ever get to have anyway. only yearn and long for. because it's not that easy. and hard work and therapy won't get you them. it's just dumb luck, etc. eternal peace or walking around the same damn concrete jungles everyday for a breath of "fresh air". eternal peace or worrying about being raped or kidnapped as a woman does. etc etc etc. eternal peace or longing for things you'll never get to have. eternal peace or living with a physical or mental condition that disables you but hey there are ways to cope! i don't want to cope. i for want to strive. i don't want to do. i don't want to wait. i don't want to seek. i don't care, life is exhausting. there's no point to doing these things or not doing these things. a stillborn child and you, dead at 80 after having lived are no different. in the end - dead either way. they say you can't take money to the grave. correction: you can't take anything to the grave. so what's the difference if you lived and strived and tried and i didn't? what's the difference between taking the long run or making a shortcut. when the destination is all the same. maybe i want to skip all the gruelling parts. thanks. you can take them. why push the importance of them on all. if i simply do not care. about it all. it is a matter of preference. who cares how it is formed. if someone doesn't like almonds because they choked on them and almost died once or just because they don't like the taste. who cares. why do you want to correct it either way? why is it a wrong opinion to have an opinion on life that is negative. why is it a wrong opinion to have an opinion on life? why? aren't i alive don't i live? and just like with any experience. cant i review it? i give it a 0 stars out of 5. people are so weird. the only reason it could possibly matter to others that someone else doesn't enjoy life and wishes for it to end - because maybe they secretly hate it too. but everyone is supposed to be saying the same empty words. lest you lose your mind. well i simply don't like it here. and i'll say it. there's no point. live 80 years 40, 20, 10, or a minute. it's all the same conclusion. there's no point in your striving. and there isn't any point in mine
 
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bl00deater

bl00deater

The Bloodeater Hungers
Oct 7, 2024
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Everyone hates living, the select few that have everything working out for them.

Life isn't long, everyone dies eventually and some people are fine with waiting the long game. Some aren't.

There's nothing wrong with not waiting, quite frankly I have nothing to show my existence. I'm fine with that. Even if your world view isn't negative, life is full of negative & there's nothing wrong with embracing it.
 
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Oct 14, 2023
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i think the only point is to not hurt those around you and that sucks
 
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sevennn

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Everyone hates living, the select few that have everything working out for them.

Life isn't long, everyone dies eventually and some people are fine with waiting the long game. Some aren't.

There's nothing wrong with not waiting, quite frankly I have nothing to show my existence. I'm fine with that. Even if your world view isn't negative, life is full of negative & there's nothing wrong with embracing it.
i love skipping things. classes. appointments. etc. well, back then when i could love something. i see life as just another gruelling thing to skip
i think the only point is to not hurt those around you and that sucks
it got so bad that i don't mind hanging myself quickly in the hall while everyone is out 😞 i'm so fucking tired
 
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