Ferret77
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- Jun 2, 2023
- 71
Knowing I have a brain tumour that's getting bigger all the time in a closed space (my skull) with nowhere to go other than put pressure on my nerves and brain and the many chronic symptoms experienced while being fucked over by a corrupt medical system.
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Heem wasnt there
Missing You
- Dec 8, 2023
- 21
Trauma. Trauma alone is a horrible thing. But my trauma involves seeing someone I loved die. So the grief mixes with that. And then having every memory of your loved one seemingly tainted with flash-backs of their death? It's painful. Not to mention so many people are not trauma-informed outside of mental illness spheres, and that isolation and misunderstanding just further adds to the pain.
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Abyssal
Probably gonna die soon maybe?
- Nov 26, 2023
- 1,331
Being a failure.
It was in the past but there was a point where anyone you asked would say I had no future, a time where I admitted to being depressed and I'd get told I was worthless. Someone would say "come eat with us" and as I'd sit down they'd stand up and walk away. People would confess they liked be then beg me not to go out with them because they're friends dared them. I had no SI when I attempted back then.
It was in the past but there was a point where anyone you asked would say I had no future, a time where I admitted to being depressed and I'd get told I was worthless. Someone would say "come eat with us" and as I'd sit down they'd stand up and walk away. People would confess they liked be then beg me not to go out with them because they're friends dared them. I had no SI when I attempted back then.
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Eternal🌈Rainbow
♡ ✨ ♡ 🌸 ♡ 💖 ♡ 🌈 ♡
- Apr 2, 2022
- 241
Loss, grief, abandonment, death of a loved one. I put it all together because it's the same whole situation, seen from different perspectives. I never imagined my life would ever turn out like this and I would end up in this daily hell.
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pthnrdnojvsc
Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
- Aug 12, 2019
- 2,747
Losing loved ones to death is hell unbearable torture that could go on for a long time . Also is a broken heart from a romantic break up . I've been through both. That is just one reason not to get into a romantic relationship the pain of the breakup . but you have people wishing for and pushing everyone to get into a romantic relationship.
People might think I'm bsing but imo there are even worse tortures than those I mentioned above. Imagine the worst torture u can then multiply it by a billion times worse and that is still not as bad as it really is going through such unbearable hell unbearable pain that won't let up even for a second the peak of the worst pain and lasts for weeks months or years. I mean if there is even an 1% chance of such an unimaginable hell..... I'm not talking about some fictional afterlife hell but torture here on earth as a living sentient being
Imo the normies prolifers and even some in this site invalidate our suffering and the worst tortures imaginable every time they say life is good, or that this or that is enjoyable. As if watching a dumb clickbait youtube video , looking at a sunset, or even eating a sandwich makes it worthwhile going through the worst torture imaginable which can happen imo to any sentient animal. None of that "pleasurable" garbage is worth going through the death of a loved one or pet dying nor going through the worst unbearable every second without letup torture . Imo u can't separate the supposed fun things from the worst pain possible they are both part of life and the odds are something horrible will happen. But everywhere we see constant pervasive focus on all the supposed pleasurable things but never on the really horrible things that can happen
To add insult to injury they mention that because some of us comment that "life is bad" that we are evil , trolls , encouraging suicide, instead of what we are doing telling the truth.
People might think I'm bsing but imo there are even worse tortures than those I mentioned above. Imagine the worst torture u can then multiply it by a billion times worse and that is still not as bad as it really is going through such unbearable hell unbearable pain that won't let up even for a second the peak of the worst pain and lasts for weeks months or years. I mean if there is even an 1% chance of such an unimaginable hell..... I'm not talking about some fictional afterlife hell but torture here on earth as a living sentient being
Imo the normies prolifers and even some in this site invalidate our suffering and the worst tortures imaginable every time they say life is good, or that this or that is enjoyable. As if watching a dumb clickbait youtube video , looking at a sunset, or even eating a sandwich makes it worthwhile going through the worst torture imaginable which can happen imo to any sentient animal. None of that "pleasurable" garbage is worth going through the death of a loved one or pet dying nor going through the worst unbearable every second without letup torture . Imo u can't separate the supposed fun things from the worst pain possible they are both part of life and the odds are something horrible will happen. But everywhere we see constant pervasive focus on all the supposed pleasurable things but never on the really horrible things that can happen
To add insult to injury they mention that because some of us comment that "life is bad" that we are evil , trolls , encouraging suicide, instead of what we are doing telling the truth.
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Still trying to work out how I live with child sexual abuse knowing that there were horrible men who raped, tortured and gave me hell since before Incould speak or run. Trying to work out how such behaviour can exist, how many others covered up etc..,
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idkrat
Deluded rat
- Dec 18, 2023
- 16
SA and living with abuser, sister comparing me with him since in her words i'm just weird like him.
Also autism, bullying and overall being really clumsy.
Trauma after trauma, i'm diagnosed with PTSD so living it's a hell sometimes.
Also autism, bullying and overall being really clumsy.
Trauma after trauma, i'm diagnosed with PTSD so living it's a hell sometimes.
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,920
Knowing that I cannot easily free myself from this flesh prison that was imposed. It's a curse to exist in this hellish reality, existence is the problem, it really disgusts me how existence doesn't come with an permanent offswitch to find peace from all the suffering existing causes.
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