Discussion What's stopping you from ctb?

[Anhaedra]

For me personally, I don't want to attempt ctb for several reasons. Most important reason is my family; Ive very loving parents and siblings, and it would destroy them if I do it. The other reasons are that I don't really have a method, as SN is kinda impossible for me to get where I live. Even if I found a suitable method, I'd be too afraid that something would go wrong and I end up in a worse place than before, or if I failed and my family find out, they could put me in a psych ward.
What about you guys? Whats keeping you alive till now?

 

[lack]

cowardice, mostly

 

[waterbed]

the eternal "what if" question, what if life gets good, what if this or this works out, what if other people will ctb because i did, what if i fail and end up paralysed from the neck down. stuff like that

 

[Anhaedra]

cowardice, mostly

It's a really scary thing to do, so its understandable.

the eternal "what if" question, what if life gets good, what if this or this works out, what if other people will ctb because i did, what if i fail and end up paralysed from the neck down. stuff like that

Things will never get better for me, I've been suffering for a very long time and it never got better nor I got used to it. It's only logical for me to ctb, but I don't have resolve to do it.

 

[shouldbedirt]

the eternal "what if" question, what if life gets good, what if this or this works out, what if other people will ctb because i did, what if i fail and end up paralysed from the neck down. stuff like that

It's mostly this for me too. Terrified of failure and terrified of missing out on things getting better, no matter how unlikely.

 

[LostLily]

Hurting people for my actions

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

Being indecisive about rather I want to do it, and afraid that once I start building the exit bag, it will fail.

 

[ALonelyFreak]

Fear of death and I just really don't like dying

 

[EyeBeyond]

Im tooo scared to do this

 

[resteasy3232]

family, my cat, being scared to ctb, guilt, still hoping it can get better