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AN1V

AN1V

♱ v ♱ v ♱ v ♱
Jun 14, 2025
5
I want to go thrill seeking, something to make my adrenaline rush. and try new foods, experience something new and nice before I go
 
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Nothing Left

Nothing Left

🧿
Sep 6, 2024
186
Travel to Ireland, maybe the UK, and Europe and then write some sort of sci-fi/absurdist book.
 
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NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
728
I feel like I am going to be a downer here but no, I do not have a bucket list. Just in the same way I never had any real ambition goals or dreams since I've been young. I have nothing I wanna do before I die.
Just another way I am pathetic.
 
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bankai

bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
1,499
I'll be going to Portugal for a visit, then Japan.try a lot of different food and nice desserts.

try a few drugs.Maybe ayahuasca.

try bungee jumping and cut the cord on the way down.
 
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Sergeant45

Sergeant45

Member
Jun 11, 2025
50
No strict list but I'd like to kiss someone or something cliche like that before I do it.
 
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Parasitism

Parasitism

Member
May 27, 2025
41
I've been considering getting heroin from the darkweb. I've never done it before (order from the darkweb and heroin) so it's nerve wracking in case the police intercept it but its always intrigued me.
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Wizard
Mar 15, 2025
627
no bucket, no list, nothing interests me
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
658
No bucket list. I'm 56 and lived my life with no regrets.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,688
Psychadelics. Skydiving. I want adrenaline rushes to since I cant produce much dopamine
 
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starlightstarbright

New Member
Apr 26, 2025
1
It's a bit lame, but there's a list of maybe a dozen local restaurants I want to try out before I CTB, plus a couple fancier restaurants in the major city I live 2 hours from. I also want to take classes in glassblowing and candle-making, and finish a watercolor painting I'm working on which is taking forever. I prefer food and arts & crafts to traveling or adrenaline rushes.
 
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just a bird

Member
Jun 7, 2025
20
I'd very much like to row again. Given the timeframe I'm currently looking at, being able to do so is unlikely. Then again, given my nature, there's a decent chance I won't go through with my plan.
 
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coked_pigeon

coked_pigeon

Member
Sep 21, 2023
10
Not a bucket list per se but I'm going to try to give myself a pleasant last day - have my last meal at a restaurant I like, go to the park or waterfront to watch the sunset, watch a favorite show or movie, that sort of thing.

There was a time I would have wanted to have one last conversation with the people in my life, but it seems pointless now. Plus, I don't want to inadvertently tip someone off and get locked up.
 
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ginko0

ginko0

To be or not to be
May 8, 2025
31
To try LSD, to read/watch/play as much as I can, to travel on my own at least once, and to eat as many pizza as I possibly can xD
 
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badkarma4618

badkarma4618

Marika the Eternal
May 13, 2025
47
try real mdma
visit the town i grew up in one last time
get a passport and travel to arizona
partake in some kinky behavior
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,234
No, I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, to not exist is all I hope for, I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, futile existence I just always saw as a mistake and for me existence is always the problem, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer. I'd just never wish to exist at all, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, existence to me is an abomination and I'd never want to experience anything, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, simply just existing causes me to suffer, more than anything I wish this existence of unnecessary suffering was just never imposed.
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
406
Not really, but recently I met this girl who I might actually be able to befriend. I want to see this through and see if potentially she can be a motivator for me to live or leave.
 
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ThankYouGuys

Member
May 23, 2025
9
I used to think that if I ever faced death, there would be so many things I'd want to do. But now… it feels like I've run out of energy, out of desire. That's why I searched this thread. I thought if I'm going to take a day off work and die alone the next, maybe there's something more meaningful I could do instead. We really have handful of time isn't it? Even if it's been such a bland life, I guess I can't help but overthink because it's the only kind of thing I've allow to know.

The way I imagined CTB was to live like there's no tomorrow, do everything I've ever wanted, and then go. But I didn't expect my desires to die before I did.

I still vaguely want to visit the UK once though. I'd love to spend a night drinking with strangers in the pub, just talking and laughing until morning, living the moment.
 
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AN1V

AN1V

♱ v ♱ v ♱ v ♱
Jun 14, 2025
5
try real mdma
visit the town i grew up in one last time
get a passport and travel to arizona
partake in some kinky behavior
real. I wanna try a ton of psychedelics, but I really don't care about my hometown, mainly because I hardly have any memories of it

and real, yes me too
I've been considering getting heroin from the darkweb. I've never done it before (order from the darkweb and heroin) so it's nerve wracking in case the police intercept it but its always intrigued me.
Me too. I wanna work on my OpSec so I can get started but I'm super broke rn. I don't think I can send you any advice or links here but do your research before getting into it
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
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I've got a couple simple ones I might do. I went to the range the other day and burned off about 500 rounds. My groupings were great, but they were mostly left. I hadn't shot in quite some time, so it's not a big surprise, really. I may do it again before I ctb. I'd like to get on a horse again, too, before I ctb, maybe take a nice, tranquil trail ride, if I can make it happen. I'd like to have sex again, also, but that one may be more difficult, since I have no prospects and really don't even try. Maybe make a trip to visit my godmother and godfather's gravesite. That's really about it. Most of my focus is on getting rid of things and "tidying" up my estate, when I feel up to doing it.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,997
As of current, nothing really in particular and while enjoying some nice food or having some nice music and entertainment, copes before I go is nice, it wouldn't be a necessity. All I hope for is to die reliably (even if brutal due to my lack of access to more peaceful means) and not suffer as much as I CTB. I suppose each passing day until that very moment is all just transient coping and passing day after day.
 
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Terminonaris

New Member
Jun 17, 2025
2
Not anymore, disability and poverty stole all my dreams. I just hope death is better than life.
 
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