Discussion Whats Keeping You Alive Mate?

[starboy2k]

Heres a list of things that explains why Im still reluctantly in this plane of existence teehee

•food
•music (Maladaptive Daydreaming+Dancing)
•porn
•youtube
•SaSu
•consuming content from global music group "XG" (Xtraordinary Genes)
•this mobile game called "Survivor.io" (im obsessed with it)
•my fear of what happens after death

i think thats all…..what about yall?

 

[LastDayOnEarth]

Nothing really. Just fear of ending up in a worse state after a failed attempt.

 

[LostZombie]

This whole living thing, I find it to be an interesting experiment. I stay since I want to see it through, and understand as much as I can about it. I don't fault others for not staying this is just my opinion, and to all those who want to leave early that's a valid option. We all are different humans, and we have different reasons why we stay or leave and that is what makes us such a fascinating species to me.

 

[HollowSoul]

Family, friends, my pets....and a stupid tiny spark of hope that my life will eventually stop being a fucking mess

 

[Wojaczek]

fear of the potential pain that accompanies dying

 

[maki]

im a scaredy cat

 

[nails]

fear of failing + i'm waiting to get a car lowk

consuming content from global music group "XG" (Xtraordinary Genes)

yuppp i started listening to them when Gala came out and then i fell in love w their entire discography
the core aoty

 

[scary]

Main thing keeping me alive is not having any methods, but I feel like even if I did have a gun or something my SI would still play a factor in me being here.

 

[whitetaildeer]

My late girlfriend's wishes for me to live, no matter what, my cat, + though it's a far more temporary thing, I'm currently re-watching my favorite childhood series (Red vs Blue).

 

[MyPropellerWontSpin]

fomo

 

[porcelain.ribbon]

the few people who i love and care about

 

[starboy2k]

FALfear of failing + i'm waiting to get a car lowk

yuppp i started listening to them when Gala came out and then i fell in love w their entire discography
the core aoty

GALA is their best era HANDS DOWN.

 

[sickofeverything]

I wanted to outlast trump but now it's just failing to hang correctly, pain and si

 

[ChiariBear]

My cat and also waiting for a certain clause in an insurance policy to mature :)

 

[IMAFRAIDDAVE]

Fear of failing and my pets

 

[Rihan]

Currently unable to CTB since I can't get the needed materials. That's it. I'm just impatiently waiting right now.

 

[seeyoulater26]

Strangely, SaSu really is helping me stay alive despite me ending up here because I want to CTB. I haven't been here long, and of course, I'm sad knowing we're all carrying very heavy hearts, but it feels nice to be understood.

Also:
- I wanna see MCR
- My friends whom I dearly love and I know they love me back
- My dad and my sister
- My pets
- I've always been scared to even attempt. Scared of the pain.
- I want to at least have some cash to leave behind. My last gift, yes. Hope they buy themselves something nice.
And I want to have a nice funeral. I want my loved ones' final, final memory of me to be beautiful. They made my life beautiful, despite it all.

 

[untothedepths]

being duped into thinking i can live a SAFE LIFE OF CONTENTMENT. oh boy am I wrong

 

[squiddedoutt]

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[TransientEternal]

Fear of the unknown, fear of failure, fear that I won't be myself after death (even though it's unavoidable).

 

[Hopel3ss]

At first it was lack of a method but now that I have SN its probabily because I have still a small useless hope that things can change. Also my mother.

I lost all the things I enjoy so there isn't anything left other than eating junkie foods which i still like it

 

[darksouls]

afraid of afterlife

 

[FuneralCry]

I only continue to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence as a result of humans making it illegal to cease existing peacefully, it truly is such horrific extreme cruelty how we exist in this world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, there's just so much evil in anti-suicide.

All that anti-suicide people want is to make it so others are tortured for as long as possible and it'll always be torture to exist, to be conscious in this existence is the most terrible, tortuous burden and there's just so much evil in existing with existing beings in agony every second with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

For me only non-existence could ever be positive, only in non-existence will I be at peace from the terrible torture and suffering of existing but of course this existence should never be imposed and it's so horrible how humans cause all this dreadful unnecessary torture by doing so, to suffer in this existence will always be a mistake to me and I always suffer so much as a result of being trapped in this dreadful, torturous existence.

 

[glass-petal]

there's not a lot of reasons these days considering how small my world is, and I'm afraid It's nothing terribly unique

- the knowledge that I will deeply hurt my family in the event of my passing

- listening to music and daydreaming is rather lovely

- fun video games here and there

- the rare and cherished times I get to be in nature

 

[briardweller]

Alcohol and the occasional sex act from my cheating girlfriend

 

[Mrs. T-800]

Fear of what comes after. But, mostly, my mom, my grandparents, my goddaughter, some of the small goodies in life (a nice walk, candy, my morning coffee and newspaper/CBS Mornings, etc.).

Fear of failing and my pets

I just want to say, ohmygosh! Data, Blade Runner, and 2001! I'm a huge Terminator fan so I feel so happy to see all of this... this makes my day...

 

[persistentheartache]

i larp that I'm a charming down on their luck loser who's life sucks but in an artsy and cool way. (see dispatch, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, oldboy, disco elysium, chainsaw man, etc...

as much as I feel like nothing will get better i understand that i dont KNOW that.

so i just do stuff to see what happens

plus I've failed to ctb enough times to know it's more trouble than what I'm trying now

just larpmax bro

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

scared of failing, dont want to hurt my family, other than that, nothing really. the moment i grow a spine and decide enough is enough, it's over.

 

[endboss]

I have a dentist appointment.