Help What's going on with me?

[Ginnn]

I have never suffered from any form of sexual abuse, violence, abandonment or bullyng in my life, yet I have some weird behaviours and coping mechanisms that usually appear in people who went through those kind of trauma. What's going on with me?

 

[Forever Sleep]

Hmmm, but if you're using 'coping mechanisms'- evidently, you are trying to find escape from a current situation you find stressful. Is that the case- or- have I misunderstood? In which case- are you experiencing some kind of trauma now and using those behaviours to cope with it?

 

[MentalStefan]

I'm sorry if I want too intimate information, ofc you don't have to answer this question but what kind of weird behaviours and coping mechanisms do you mean? Have you experience some kind of trauma lately?

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I have never suffered from any form of sexual abuse, violence, abandonment or bullyng in my life, yet I have some weird behaviours and coping mechanisms that usually appear in people who went through those kind of trauma. What's going on with me?

I was interested in speaking with you before but I never got around to writing - you also have severe dissociation and the whole "living in a dream" thing right, with like the off-balance feeling etc?

I have suffered with this nonstop since 2014. I agree it seems widely agreed upon that it's some kind of trauma reaction, but I am still clueless as to exactly what's going on. Like you, I can't really identify anything super difficult or traumatic in my life that would have caused this. I mean yeah, I can speculate, but it feels like grasping at straws.

Sorry to hear you are having a rough time with it. It's been very difficult for me to make peace with this condition.

 

[Ginnn]

I'm sorry if I want too intimate information, ofc you don't have to answer this question but what kind of weird behaviours and coping mechanisms do you mean? Have you experience some kind of trauma lately?

Don't worry, I have no problem talking about these things anonymously, but I warn you that it's going to be long. I feel anxiety all the time and sometimes paranoia, I have delusions that aren't very strong but they're weird, depersonalization and derealization (don't know if it's exactly that, but from how others describe it I think so), I think I have avoidant attachment, it's hard for me I talk about my feelings in real life, low self-esteem, I'm always feeling judged by others, and I had a depressive stage but I'm recovering little by little, or I hope so, also, in certain surroundings, I feel like I age regress a little. But what affects me the most is constantly feeling distanced not only from the world, but also from reality of what I feel and what I am. I would describe it as being high all the time, or that little moment where you're half asleep and half awake. I guess that's dissociation. I also have memory problems and practically do not remember my childhood. On top of all that, I have some problems with my parental figures, I feel too detached from them, especially my father. I never talked to a psychologist, so my word isn't 100% accurate, but that's what i feel
((Also, I think I used the term "defense mechanism" wrong, it's more like feelings, it's not something specific.))

I was interested in speaking with you before but I never got around to writing - you also have severe dissociation and the whole "living in a dream" thing right, with like the off-balance feeling etc?

I have suffered with this nonstop since 2014. I agree it seems widely agreed upon that it's some kind of trauma reaction, but I am still clueless as to exactly what's going on. Like you, I can't really identify anything super difficult or traumatic in my life that would have caused this. I mean yeah, I can speculate, but it feels like grasping at straws.

Sorry to hear you are having a rough time with it. It's been very difficult for me to make peace with this condition.

Yes, I could say that dissociation is my main problem, it's really weird and confusing. It is as if the brain decided that it no longer wants to be part of reality for no reason, some day it just decided to stop workig. I am relieved to know that I am not the only one who has to go through this, I hope the best for you

Hmmm, but if you're using 'coping mechanisms'- evidently, you are trying to find escape from a current situation you find stressful. Is that the case- or- have I misunderstood? In which case- are you experiencing some kind of trauma now and using those behaviours to cope with it?

Hmmm, but if you're using 'coping mechanisms'- evidently, you are trying to find escape from a current situation you find stressful. Is that the case- or- have I misunderstood? In which case- are you experiencing some kind of trauma now and using those behaviours to cope with it?

I can say for sure that I don't have any type of relevant trauma, just little things that happen to anyone, maybe it's just my brain overreacting, or something genetic, as mental illnesses usually are, but I don't really know what's going on

Hmmm, but if you're using 'coping mechanisms'- evidently, you are trying to find escape from a current situation you find stressful. Is that the case- or- have I misunderstood? In which case- are you experiencing some kind of trauma now and using those behaviours to cope with it?

Hmmm, but if you're using 'coping mechanisms'- evidently, you are trying to find escape from a current situation you find stressful. Is that the case- or- have I misunderstood? In which case- are you experiencing some kind of trauma now and using those behaviours to cope with it?

I can say for sure that I don't have any type of relevant trauma, just little things that happen to anyone, maybe it's just my brain overreacting, or something genetic, as mental illnesses usually are, but I don't really know what's going on

 

[MentalStefan]

Don't worry, I have no problem talking about these things anonymously, but I warn you that it's going to be long. I feel anxiety all the time and sometimes paranoia, I have delusions that aren't very strong but they're weird, depersonalization and derealization (don't know if it's exactly that, but from how others describe it I think so), I think I have avoidant attachment, it's hard for me I talk about my feelings in real life, low self-esteem, I'm always feeling judged by others, and I had a depressive stage but I'm recovering little by little, or I hope so, also, in certain surroundings, I feel like I age regress a little. But what affects me the most is constantly feeling distanced not only from the world, but also from reality of what I feel and what I am. I would describe it as being high all the time, or that little moment where you're half asleep and half awake. I guess that's dissociation. I also have memory problems and practically do not remember my childhood. On top of all that, I have some problems with my parental figures, I feel too detached from them, especially my father. I never talked to a psychologist, so my word isn't 100% accurate, but that's what i feel
((Also, I think I used the term "defense mechanism" wrong, it's more like feelings, it's not something specific.))


Yes, I could say that dissociation is my main problem, it's really weird and confusing. It is as if the brain decided that it no longer wants to be part of reality for no reason, some day it just decided to stop workig. I am relieved to know that I am not the only one who has to go through this, I hope the best for you


I can say for sure that I don't have any type of relevant trauma, just little things that happen to anyone, maybe it's just my brain overreacting, or something genetic, as mental illnesses usually are, but I don't really know what's going on


I can say for sure that I don't have any type of relevant trauma, just little things that happen to anyone, maybe it's just my brain overreacting, or something genetic, as mental illnesses usually are, but I don't really know what's going on

Hmm, that's strange indeed... It seems like your problem is very elaborate. I'm no psychologist so I probably won't help you much. However I had a friend which had very similar feelings and later they were diagnosed with some kind of schizophrenia. But as I said I'm not a psychologist so it obviously can be something else. I encourage you to visit a psychiatrist and later a psychotherapist. It's important to visit a psychiatrist firstly as they are a specialist with medical education which will give you proper meds which will stop the progress of your mental issues. Then I encourage you to get a psychotherapy to understand the root of your problems and learn methods to alleviate them or even defeat them entirely.

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

Some aspects sound similar to ptsd, you could have repressed memories of childhood trauma, especially if you were too young to process what happened. I know someone who recovered memories of csa during therapy, until then she didn't realise she'd been abused when she was a lot younger than she originally thought.