Help What’s cutting like?

[Pancake]

I've never done it before, it's a little scary. But I think it might be better than what I've been doing… I impulsively bang my head against something when I'm overwhelmed with sadness, whether that be my hand, the wall, or a table. The pain helps me cope but I don't think that's very good for my head. Lol…

Anyway, what's it like? More specifically, how bad does it hurt? How long does it take to heal? How do I hide it? I find myself going overboard often with things like self-harm so I'm a little afraid I won't be able to hide it..

 

[dyn00ss]

I've never done it before, it's a little scary. But I think it might be better than what I've been doing… I impulsively bang my head against something when I'm overwhelmed with sadness, whether that be my hand, the wall, or a table. The pain helps me cope but I don't think that's very good for my head. Lol…

Anyway, what's it like? More specifically, how bad does it hurt? How long does it take to heal? How do I hide it? I find myself going overboard often with things like self-harm so I'm a little afraid I won't be able to hide it..

Really if this becomes an addiction and uncontrolled you can go out doing a lot and lose control and do it on the whole body, well I do it when I'm angry or I just do it because the feeling is good, about pain depends on how much you cut the depth and the way and the part of the body, like in the thighs for example where there is more ""Fat does not hurt as much as on the sides, about healing time depends on the depth, my deepest ones take 1 week to heal completely, now scars I have some that never came out and are very visible, I hope I have helped <3

 

[spacehardware]

Addictive as fuck. Also scars like a bitch. I have deformed my limbs. It used to make me euphoric for a minute or two max, but that high fades fast and chasing it requires you to do more and more damage to yourself. Also it's messy and dressings/wound coverings cost money. I wouldn't start if you can help it. Pain wise, I became desensitised to it over time. For me it became less about pain and more about blood loss until I was targeting bigger vessels and blood letting in a crazed fucked-up attempt to drain my body of iron. It's been two years since I last cut and I still miss it most days - the addiction is real.

 

[momdontcryplease]

depends on how deep

to me it hurts and idk how to describe besides it feels sharp lol

 

[Hihihehehuhu]

I've never done it before, it's a little scary. But I think it might be better than what I've been doing… I impulsively bang my head against something when I'm overwhelmed with sadness, whether that be my hand, the wall, or a table. The pain helps me cope but I don't think that's very good for my head. Lol…

Anyway, what's it like? More specifically, how bad does it hurt? How long does it take to heal? How do I hide it? I find myself going overboard often with things like self-harm so I'm a little afraid I won't be able to hide it..

I started self harming 10 years ago, at first it hurts a lot and you cant cut deep, but as years pass you become immune to pain and start to cut deeper (especially if you are in contact with others who cut extremely deep, like being on shtwt) i dont feel pain anymore and cut as deep as bones, but in first time it will hurt a lot.

It heals depends on how deep it is, babycuts usually fully heal in a week
My deepest cut healed in 3 months
and babycut scars usually fade in few months, while deeper cuts can fade in 1-2 years depending on how deep they are
To hide, thighs are the easiest area to hide
I dont suggest for you to start it since it becomes a huge addiction, but if you start, be careful and make sure to clean your cuts :)

 

[Kodokushi]

Sharp. Burning like fire. Electricity going through your entire body, forcing you to tremble. Heavy. Wet and dripping, cooling against hot skin. Aching and pulsating heavily after. The nasty spot when it heals and a strong desire to rip it off, make that ugliness disappear. A long painful recovery and aftercare. And a nasty scar that will forever haunt you and never go away.

Forgive me for my romantization. What sounds beautiful on paper is really nasty and annoying to deal with in real life. To me the worst thing is not the act itself, but a "sign" it leaves, a constant reminder of what I've done and why I did it. Some haunted me so bad I had to literally waste money to put a tattoo on them, so it'll stop torturing me with flashbacks

 

[Mortalist]

I did selfharm by cutting. The deeper you try to go, the more it hurts, at least for me. And the scars...
Pain by doing this is short termed. the scars are permanent. If you don't want to be caught in a situation where someone discovers them, and you need to explain yourself, then I would advise not to do it. Even if you hide them, something stupid can allways happen and then they know :/
Depending on how deep the cuts are. "Simple" ones heal in a week or two. Deeper ones, far longer.
So avoiding self harm by cutting, and ofcourse in general, would be the best course of action. But I know from experience that that is far more easy to say than do.

 

[Sammie_com.sanrio]

It's painfully good

 

[SpiderLink]

I've never done it before, it's a little scary. But I think it might be better than what I've been doing… I impulsively bang my head against something when I'm overwhelmed with sadness, whether that be my hand, the wall, or a table. The pain helps me cope but I don't think that's very good for my head. Lol…

Anyway, what's it like? More specifically, how bad does it hurt? How long does it take to heal? How do I hide it? I find myself going overboard often with things like self-harm so I'm a little afraid I won't be able to hide it..

Honestly I don't recommend it, it's nice to have some relief but it's only temporary. I still have scars from 3 years ago, some r very visible and others have faded but if u pay close attention u can find them. It's painful trying to hide them and hoping no one notices. I don't cut as much as I used to tho, I do it sometimes when I'm absolutely desperate which the last time was in February.

 

[fallenangel444]

it feels good for me because it give me peace but after that it stings and hurt so bad when you take a shower :(

 

[aliasblue.]

I've never done it before, it's a little scary. But I think it might be better than what I've been doing… I impulsively bang my head against something when I'm overwhelmed with sadness, whether that be my hand, the wall, or a table. The pain helps me cope but I don't think that's very good for my head. Lol…

Anyway, what's it like? More specifically, how bad does it hurt? How long does it take to heal? How do I hide it? I find myself going overboard often with things like self-harm so I'm a little afraid I won't be able to hide it..

Makes you feel alive in a way and connected to your body. It's something that is very easy to get addicted to. You need to have strong mental fortitude to not become completely dependent on it. If that sounds like you, then I would recommend it. But do keep in mind that scars looks real gnarly to others and at times, to yourself. Also, it is best to do it on the part of your body which is mostly hidden, like your thighs and stuff.

 

[Valky]

Don't recommend. Too high risk for various stuff and also very addicting. It is a sharp pain, you start going deeper and deeper. It's like continuing to up the dosage of a drug until you one day overdose.

 

[never mind me]

I started at age 16 and at first was upset about it and only did it a few times, then stopped again. At age 17 I restarted it and never ever stopped again. One thing I do and would advise you to do, too, if you start cutting is to be very careful where you cut (i.e. finding good places on your body that are hidden in public). Take care not to use too much force, especially when using tools like razor blades. Especially when proceeding to new tools for cutting you should be especially careful to see what the results are when using a certain amount of force. Generally don't cut too deep or, if you decide to do it have some knowledge about anatomy, in order not to cause any serious damage to yourself.

 

[Specific_Milk]

Cutting makes you feel like you're violating yourself, I've never come out of a session feeling better (in fact the exact opposite) but sometimes it's the only way to cope :/

 

[wiltingorchid]

It becomes really addictive. Whenever I feel bad, and cut, then it feels like all the pressure gets released. It feels so good, and that's the bad part about it. You can't stop once you begin.
The scaring is crazy, if you cut deep enough, you definetely get a scar. Depends on the severity, the color of your skin and general wound healing if it fades or if a bad scar is formed.

 

[goodbye_._]

I've been cutting for a long time. It's itchy and it hurts. It's super addictive and the scars suck. People in public look at you like you're crazy because of your scars so you try to hide it. Even in hot weather. Kids ask "why is your arm/leg like that?" And you have to find an excuse. The cuts are never deep enough and you always feel the need to go deeper. Sometimes you get blood on your clothes and it is hard to get off, sometimes it doesn't come off. It's always lying. It's not worth getting into tbh just a waste of time.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

Like cutting a rare stea but with more blood and hurt nerves

 

[Pancake]

Thanks to everyone who replied. I see that cutting can be ridiculously addictive and hard to live with. I think I'll try to avoid it, I can definitely see myself going a little too far. Finding a way to cope has been really hard and I've been trying to find a better way than hurting myself. Thanks again, this was really insightful.

 

[Ghostofthepast]

Gives me physical pain to forcus on and a place to take my anger out on

 

[Lo Priest]

im prone personally to manic cyclical ruminations. i sit and stare and as i catch myself i decree a stopgap, but one thought bleeds another and there i cartwheel. every entrance or exit a serrated stretch i stress and to override i sting myself. slip scrape slash scratch. x acto, boxcuttered, shred-o-glass, loose edges, its all the same, really. i wreak a mess ill pick up later. pieces, pieces- cut. it gives another assured reprieve. hamsterwheel selfjabbings cease for the time being, misgivings nolonger centerstage. i focus on the airy simmer of these fresh wounds, deep or shallow. its all the same. stops but does not solve. thoughts. what a shit enclosure am i, how unkind a precinct. i repeat; stops but not solve

 

[7thundercloud]

I've never done it before, it's a little scary. But I think it might be better than what I've been doing… I impulsively bang my head against something when I'm overwhelmed with sadness, whether that be my hand, the wall, or a table. The pain helps me cope but I don't think that's very good for my head. Lol…

Anyway, what's it like? More specifically, how bad does it hurt? How long does it take to heal? How do I hide it? I find myself going overboard often with things like self-harm so I'm a little afraid I won't be able to hide it..

I highly recommend not doing it imo. I think banging ur head is much better, I do it and have been for awhile and its better than cutting. I scratch myself till my skin peels off and have also cut myself. It scars and people only say things about it when I wear short sleeves. It also gets annoying in the shower. It is good at relieving emotional pain but it just brings even more a couple weeks after. It also depends how deep u cut, I would usually just use a sharp ruler and quickly scratch my arm a couple dozen times till I started bleeding. In my opinion, not worth it. Banging my head feels better. Im only more insecure about my body now.