What’s a good age to die at and why?

[lilypeachoo]

I keep thinking maybe 30 is like the prime because I don't wanna grow old and wrinkly and walk with a cane with back pain but I also don't wanna die too fast before I can do stupid stuff with my life and then die

 

[Darkover]

18 because the rest of your shitty life won't be worth living at all

 

[Kerrtu]

My first serious attempt was on my 30th birthday. I didn't plan it like that but it happened. It didn't have anything to do with age; I was married at the time and the night prior, my husband and some friends of ours from out of town came to the city for my birthday party at one of my favorite restaurants, La Esquina.

One of the friends brought this guy who I had previously said I felt was creepy and didn't want him there but lo and behold, a friend brought him anyway. We were all drinking and I got especially hammered.

When we were splitting up into cabs, my husband had left to go home, and I got in a cab with the guy I was avoiding. I thought we were going to all meet up at the hotel but I ended up in the hotel room with the guy. I passed out in the bed and when I woke up the next day I was horrified but also relieved to see my wellies were still on, my jacket, everything. He did ask if he could kiss me once I was awake which I said no, and my mind began to spiral thinking of the fallout…how I was going to explain to my husband, my friends…my mother and step father who were having a birthday dinner for me at another restaurant later that night, on my actual birthday.

3 of us ended up at a rooftop bar day drinking and I started going into alcohol-induced psychosis. I was looking over the edge and it was absolutely high enough for a fatality but I knew I wouldn't be able to pull it off. The place was crowded. I walked up to the bar, stole the corkscrew/knife combination and left without saying anything to anyone. I ran through midtown and found a parking lot that was open, saw some trucks, got underneath one and stabbed myself in the chest and slashed/stabbed my left wrist. I figured if I didn't die from the stab wounds, when the truck started moving it would run me over.

I should've gone for the jugular.

It's been 10 years since that attempt.

Anyway - I'm also reminded of this saying,

"The trick is to die young as late as possible."

When I was eventually found, I was taken to Bellevue - that's where I was given the alcohol induced psychosis diagnosis - didn't realize how it rhymes so well till now.

Bellevue is an absolute pit. Unless it's drastically changed since - the psych ward had one shower for the entire unit, paper towels to dry off with…men on one side, women on the other, separated by the nurses station. When I first got there I was pancaked in blood and dirt and grease from being under the truck. After I was able to shower, the nurses legit didn't recognize me. They were alarmed and thought they had missed a patient but no, it was me.

 

[BornByGhosts]

when one realizes they are ready
age should never be a factor to trivializing ones readiness to exit

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Why would you set a date for your life in the future at all? To me it was always clear that suicide is an option I would consider under certain life circumstances. However I was lucky to have a good life and no necessity to think about CTB for most of my life but now it may be inevitable sooner or later.

Just becoming old doesn't mean you may become weak early or whatever, just be prepared and be in peace when the time comes, then suicidal thoughts aren't bothering you. Live your life as long as you can. That's just my opinion.

Ofc you can leave whenever you feel you are ready to do so, everything is your own decision and your own choice.

 

[Zebulon]

For me it would be 23-27. After that I have no more energy to actually do the plan, because life is so draining. And ofc it only gets expodentially worst with each passing day. I wish that I find the strengh to end it before 30...

 

[StellaSomnus]

Probably post-graduate years, like I am right now at 24. So I would say around 24-27.

My life as a university student and NEET was so much more enjoyable, now I'm in a dead end job with expenses to pay with little money and time for myself to enjoy. I'm also expected to land a career-progressing jobs in my field of study which is virtually impossible to get as the job application process is broken and people are overeducated, housing unaffordable and yadda yadda yadda, what is the point anyways if I'm gonna be a burden to my parents if I have to rely on them for basic living.

Maybe 10 years ago things would've been different, sorry I was born at the wrong time.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

Depends on your upbringing. I would say that I was reasonably happy up until I was around 13-14, though. Life was all downhill from that point.

 

[アホペンギン]

18 is the best age to die, unfortunately i'm not privileged enough to be able to do so. I'm running out of time until I turn 19.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would personally prefer to never exist at all, I only desire the eternity of nothingness and I could never see any value and benefit to being conscious and aware, enslaved in a decaying flesh prison that can potentially torment us so much.
To me existence will always be something so incredibly futile and harmful, I've never wished to suffer in an existence I never had any interest in enduring in the first place, I'd personally prefer to fall into a dreamless sleep as soon as I could as only death can bring me relief from the pain of existing.

 

[jessisme]

My first serious attempt was on my 30th birthday. I didn't plan it like that but it happened. It didn't have anything to do with age; I was married at the time and the night prior, my husband and some friends of ours from out of town came to the city for my birthday party at one of my favorite restaurants, La Esquina.

One of the friends brought this guy who I had previously said I felt was creepy and didn't want him there but lo and behold, a friend brought him anyway. We were all drinking and I got especially hammered.

When we were splitting up into cabs, my husband had left to go home, and I got in a cab with the guy I was avoiding. I thought we were going to all meet up at the hotel but I ended up in the hotel room with the guy. I passed out in the bed and when I woke up the next day I was horrified but also relieved to see my wellies were still on, my jacket, everything. He did ask if he could kiss me once I was awake which I said no, and my mind began to spiral thinking of the fallout…how I was going to explain to my husband, my friends…my mother and step father who were having a birthday dinner for me at another restaurant later that night, on my actual birthday.

3 of us ended up at a rooftop bar day drinking and I started going into alcohol-induced psychosis. I was looking over the edge and it was absolutely high enough for a fatality but I knew I wouldn't be able to pull it off. The place was crowded. I walked up to the bar, stole the corkscrew/knife combination and left without saying anything to anyone. I ran through midtown and found a parking lot that was open, saw some trucks, got underneath one and stabbed myself in the chest and slashed/stabbed my left wrist. I figured if I didn't die from the stab wounds, when the truck started moving it would run me over.

I should've gone for the jugular.

It's been 10 years since that attempt.

Anyway - I'm also reminded of this saying,

"The trick is to die young as late as possible."

When I was eventually found, I was taken to Bellevue - that's where I was given the alcohol induced psychosis diagnosis - didn't realize how it rhymes so well till now.

Bellevue is an absolute pit. Unless it's drastically changed since - the psych ward had one shower for the entire unit, paper towels to dry off with…men on one side, women on the other, separated by the nurses station. When I first got there I was pancaked in blood and dirt and grease from being under the truck. After I was able to shower, the nurses legit didn't recognize me. They were alarmed and thought they had missed a patient but no, it was me.

Sounds like you totally overreacted. You were drunk: it was a simple mistake and you didn't have to tell your husband at all.

 

[Takamagahara]

I failed to join the 27 Club but around 30 seems like a decent milestone.

Your 30s are only happy if your 20s were already happy.

 

[Kerrtu]

Sounds like you totally overreacted. You were drunk: it was a simple mistake and you didn't have to tell your husband at all.

Oh, I was a mess. As soon as I woke up in the hotel room I went into panic mode. Day drinking did not help at all.

I have a tendency to feel deep shame in general, and the thought of my then husband thinking I had slept with that guy had me sick to my stomach. I was going to have to face him (that was my mindset, like I was going to have to walk the gauntlet) and I didn't think he'd ever believe me. No, I didn't have to tell him, but I didn't feel right about it at all. The shame became fear and then paranoia, add more alcohol and there you have it - me under a truck with stab wounds in midtown Manhattan.

 

[somenone]

I think it all depends on the circumstances, for some it's 30, for some it's 14. In my case, I just think when everything became irreversible, for me it's somewhere around 18. From then on I just rot, get worse from every point of view .

Now I'm 21 and I still can't do anything. I have an expired passport, and I'm not going to get a new one thinking - "Why do I need a passport if I have to leave", and I've been living without a passport for a year).

 

[TheSquiddieSquid8]

Any age when the person feels they understand what ending their life entails. Whether that be 10, 20 or 90

 

[RainLover]

Any age, whenever they are capable to understand the consequences of that decision and still want to do it

 

[jessisme]

Oh, I was a mess. As soon as I woke up in the hotel room I went into panic mode. Day drinking did not help at all.

I have a tendency to feel deep shame in general, and the thought of my then husband thinking I had slept with that guy had me sick to my stomach. I was going to have to face him (that was my mindset, like I was going to have to walk the gauntlet) and I didn't think he'd ever believe me. No, I didn't have to tell him, but I didn't feel right about it at all. The shame became fear and then paranoia, add more alcohol and there you have it - me under a truck with stab wounds in midtown Manhattan.

Crazy. Literally!

 

[StolenLife]

I'd say 30. At that age one pretty much has an idea of how the rest of their life will turn out, and there are milestones that should typically be done by 30. Most of the excitement of life is gone after 30, and the brain is developed enough. Though I understand that it's different for everyone and this is just my opinion. I personally wish that I died at 12 when everything went to shit for me.

 

[Minsu]

I was a happy child until 15. Then everything turned out to be a nightmare for me.
But my answer is: any age

 

[Kerrtu]

Crazy. Literally!

Me, the situation, or both?

 

[girlsboysthems]

20 or 27. why not 18 you ask? because my life started at 18, finally did all i wanted, travelled to places and now im ready to end it all, but im probably not going to wait until 27 ill do it someday in the next month

 

[Unknown21]

21

 

[jessisme]

Me, the situation, or both?

Both! xo, j

 

[Kerrtu]

Both! xo, j

Save that xo for someone else.

 

[jessisme]

Save that xo for someone else.

Well for what it's worth I am on disability for mental illness and have been for the past thirteen years so I have had some REALLY crazy times that i refer to as crazy but I probably wouldn't appreciate someone else calling me crazy so my apologies. I'm sorry that happened to you, it sounds like it was quite an ordeal and may have taken some time to recover from. Apologies for my insensitivity. xo, j

 

[flowers in the mist]

30

 

[Unattainable666]

I keep thinking maybe 30 is like the prime because I don't wanna grow old and wrinkly and walk with a cane with back pain but I also don't wanna die too fast before I can do stupid stuff with my life and then die

You are so sweet! Im in my 60s and am wrinkly nor in pain. Not all old people are the same. I hope you change your mind - sometimes being older has its pluses!!

 

[noname223]

Contrarian take: probably 92 after having had a fulifilling life were all your dreams became you true. You can look back at your life and say "I loved life and now since I enjoyed it to the fullest I can die in my sleep holding hand with my partner and we both die at the same time" Such things literally happened especially the dying almost at the same is very interesting and might have something to do with psychogenic death.

This would only probably the ideal life for average people. I would have prefered that outcome for me too.

Personally I asked me the same question quite often. When I was 18 I thought this might be a good time to do it. Then years later when I was let's say 21 I looked back what happened and said well. I was quite at the age 18 to commit suicide. The same repeated during the last years. I am now in my mid twenties and I think if I committed suicide years ago I would have been quite young. At the same so much fucked up things happened since that I often regret not having died earlier. I am as I said in my midtwenties and I cannot imagine to keep on another decade full of suicidal thoughts and daily suffering.

I read stories of people like me who are suicidal since a very early age. And I think the process to decide to finally do it can take a while. It is probably pretty individual. Personally I try things out and almost everything backfired. I try that it will be a rational suicide having explored all the options. Rationally weighing up the pros against the cons. I stopped asking me the question which age I should have reached. This is not the most important thing to me anymore. It is rather the long list of therapies, over 20 medication, different paths I seriously tried which did not work. Life literally spit me in the face a couple of times. I think I will keep on going as long as my pain limit is not crossed. I am not really interested to be in the 27 club. I don't give a fuck on such a abstract thing my own well being is way more important than that. But if my pain limit is reached at 27 it won't stop me though.

 

[stage4johnny]

100 baby! If life could be good,and if one is healthy,I'd like a deep drink of the old jug!But in my case that doesn't apply.
So I gotta go soon(er)!

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

i dont want to make it past 30