I just want it to be peaceful with no more pain and no more suffering and peace from this cruel, futile existence is all I hope for, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be tortured by this existence, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and is all I hope for, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me, I just want to be unconscious for all eternity. I'll personally always see it as an abomination to be conscious enslaved in this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for permanent peace, relief and safety from all suffering and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence.