Discussion What y'all doin in the meantime?

[Livingvsdying25]

While I wait to be able to actually kill myself which includes truly settling on a method.... getting said method... deciding on a date etc etc

I'm npt feeling the heavy feelings/sadness/despair/desperation... now I'm just bored. I know im going to end my life.

So today I have energy which may be coded hypervigilance/energy from getting triggered by a dream... but I don't feel like sitting around but I'm not sure wtf to do. Some options here and there but I'm pretty sure the air quality is still bad right now. Sooo jus inside activities which is fine with me.
I gotta be honest though I'm severely demotivated so I may not even end up getting outta bed.
Maybe I'll try to do some creative stuff I dunno.

So inspired by a post earlier.. What are y'all doing in the meantime? Im basically jus waiting to die so for those feelin the similar feels/situation..


What are y'all doin? Or what r y'all up to today?

 

[Daxter_87]

I personally play videogames. They are, among other things, a means to escape from this ugly, boring, pointless reality. They take you to another world that has nothing (or very little) to do with this one. That is, of course, if you don't play realistic or apocalyptic games, such as The Last of Us, which personally depresses me a lot.

 

[DurkheimsCat]

I'm cleaning out my apartment, donating things, cleaning so I won't inconvenience people even more. Suffering with anhedonia so no activity brings me joy. Just putting reruns of favorite shows on while I pack up my life and go for a walk, play with my cats, explain that I love them.

 

[FuneralCry]

The unfortunate reality is that if one doesn't find a way to ctb then they simply have no choice but to continue enduring existence, we certainly are just waiting around to die, destined for nothing and nowhere but to cease existing. Existence is just a temporary and meaningless distraction from the fact that in death everything will be forgotten about, and I do whatever I feel the need to do while I'm still trapped here. But time will pass no matter what and eventually existing beings will return to the ideal state of non-existence.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm waiting to die there's nothing else to do.

 

[oh_no191]

Hanging out with as many people as physically possible

 

[Ambivalent1]

Suffering

 

[CursedReality88]

Marathoning The Office again

 

[ANTALWOODA]

I am drinking vodka outside below porch and in front of me are my neighbors partying, i kinda get upset seeing them enjoying life, but i get it, i may go and buy some more drink at store later, yesterday i was considering finding suicide partner, i may go do that later tonight or just get wasted and listen some music, i don't really know for sure, don't have any immediate plans so

 

[No_Lxve]

content creation, it's one of the things I've always wanted to do. make videos for people to enjoy and see before I go.

 

[ANTALWOODA]

I'm cleaning out my apartment, donating things, cleaning so I won't inconvenience people even more. Suffering with anhedonia so no activity brings me joy. Just putting reruns of favorite shows on while I pack up my life and go for a walk, play with my cats, explain that I love them.

I have cats too but can't get myself to play with them much anymore, i love them

 

[cami]

just sleeping and watching trashy shows to keep my mind off of life.

 

[gardenofaphrodite]

I try to draw but I've been having some pretty severe art/creative block the last couple months. Been really struggling. Nothing seems to bring much joy anymore, not even sex honestly.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Well- I should be cleaning and tidying but as usual- I'm putting it off. I hate it so much. I like playing videogames- I like how immersive they are but I'm at the stage where I'm nearing the end of a game and losing interest.