Oscar.in.the.closet

Oscar.in.the.closet

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Jan 15, 2020
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As in, potential places to visit/ be at when it happens. Who you would want to talk to, any songs you would listen to. Just curious I guess, i have a playlist to listen to and I know that i would want to play my piano because it keeps me calm
 
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gothfairy

gothfairy

sad girl
Nov 12, 2019
64
today is my last day, i am ctb tomorrow. i'm spending it with two of my bestfriends, listening to our favorite music and going to coffee at a night cafe later tonight. should be peaceful
 
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Freedom Believer

Freedom Believer

Forever alone.
Dec 23, 2019
351
Spending it with family, eat my favorite foods one last time, listen to some music, read my favorite book, and end it with listening to some funny videos as I CTB.
 
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Oscar.in.the.closet

Oscar.in.the.closet

Member
Jan 15, 2020
11
today is my last day, i am ctb tomorrow. i'm spending it with two of my bestfriends, listening to our favorite music and going to coffee at a night cafe later tonight. should be peaceful
I wish you the best for tomorrow x
Spending it with family, eat my favorite foods one last time, listen to some music, read my favorite book, and end it with listening to some funny videos as I CTB.
Ah yes! I must have sushi on my last day. Just goes to show that simple things are just so easy to treasure
 
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hershberger

hershberger

Student
Dec 28, 2019
128
Let's see. Well, there's constant listening to The Beatles, probably a nice walk on our family's land (a creek cuts through it...so beautiful), and then off to a hotel or guaranteed private place to ctb with the knowledge I got to experience my favorite things in this world.
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
1,252
Originally I was planning to eat some sort of ice cream or milkshake. Something I can't normally have ever because I would get a fever then wouldn't be able to work for a few days. Unfortunately since I'm going to use SN I can't do that since I need to fast and not being able to digest something is the opposite of what I need to do lol. Other than that I'd say my ideal last day would be spending time with my cat then having a nice chat with my friends and or boyfriend then just get in bed and drift off never to wake up again.
 
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Maroon

Maroon

Member
Jan 12, 2020
20
I'd probably listen to some of my favorite music and try some new drugs, but I'd be just as content to go right now if the death is instant. If it was up to me I'd do it at night time on a beach or in a densely wooded area. Those places make me feel this strange pleasurable combination of anxiety and aloneness that I like.
 
FaceOfSilence

FaceOfSilence

Shhhh...
Feb 24, 2019
40
My ideal last day is the one i don't see the end of, other details are honestly irrelevant. I could come up with nice things to enjoy but i really don't think i'll be able to enjoy them anyway so whatever.
 
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TheOA

TheOA

Student
Jan 5, 2020
101
Peaceful.

EVERYTHING would go my way. Just once.
 
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HopeDiesLast

self-banned
Dec 28, 2019
254
Honestly, if I could think of things that I would enjoy on my last day then I probably wouldn't be considering ctb to begin with. There's just nothing that brings me joy anymore. Nothing I still want to do in life. I don't have a bucket list. I feel like I've lived my life (with enough heartache for three life times) and there's nothing left to do. I just want to be done. But I can't, so whatever...
 
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Hypergang2018

Hypergang2018

Member
Jan 16, 2020
30
In a hospital on a large amount of morphine, legally and peacefully passing knowing my organs will be donated
 
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AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
917
I don't see myself doing anything exciting for my last day. I would probably spend it watching my favorite movies before I CTB.
 
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LavenderMemories

LavenderMemories

Wandering to the bus stop
Jan 14, 2020
25
Ideally, I would like to spend the day with my mom. Eating our favorite food, talking, watching movies that we both like, nothing fancy. We're not fancy people. I've posted about this before, but I'm taking her on her dream vacation in a couple months and plan on ctb a couple weeks after we return. So the vacation is going to be my chance to do all these things with her and will be my goodbye, so to say. When I do actually go, I want to minimize the trauma for her (definitely dont want her to find me), so I'm hoping to go far away when I do.
 
waterbottleman

waterbottleman

Not a person
Sep 30, 2019
721
I'm not going to do anything amazing for my last day, I just want to end my life.

I finally got my stuffed animal friend for my ctb partner. I'll spend my last moments hugging my stuffed animal friend while I die from SN on the floor of a hotel bathroom. At least I won't feel 100 percent alone with my imaginary friend.

My stuffed animal friend is a cute whale shark, she has a big smile and she's really soft and nice to hug :smiling:
 
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SnowWhite

SnowWhite

Semi-Professional Disappointment
Jan 16, 2020
150
On a phone call with the few friends I have left just after taking SN. CUCO & Joji on in the background as I smoke a cigarette in bed. Then finally, sleep.
 
HereToday

HereToday

Arcanist
Dec 27, 2019
437
Spending the day at the beach and a helicopter ride to watch the sunset from the sky
 
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Emily123

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May 28, 2019
460
rainy and storm . it doesn't snow in Australia . But I liked a heavy snow too
 

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