What would you want to change about your life ?

[Parnate]

I would like to change my brain and mental health. I would like to not be depressed or avpd. Also if I can change it then my orientation.

 

[GhostInTheMachine]

XY -> XX

 

[ellevain]

Nothing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd change it so that I don't exist, I wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, to be permanently at peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake is just all I hope and wish for.

I just want to never suffer ever again, I just wish to be free from this painful, cruel torturous and dreadful existence, I'd just never wish to exist and I see existence as the problem, I see it as an abomination to be conscious burdened with this existence with no limit as to how much one can be tortured just to die in agony from old age, I want to change it so I'm at peace instead of suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, I suffer simply from existing.

 

[patheticparasite]

Oh yes, a brain transplant please. Just toss this malfunctioning piece of garbage. Whenever I socialize, it becomes painfully obvious that I'm a fraud of a human being. So I avoid it.

Also if I can change it then my orientation.

Horizontal or perpendicular?

 

[AnimeSlayersFan]

Right now, If my dream could be realized, I would like to have a tiny place on the countryside (I moved here with my mom when I was super depressed) all for myself, completely secluded for everyone else, so I don't have to see anybody, and a job either online, or with the minimal interaction with people possible. I've been doing some reading on Autism, and I think I have found something really telling, beware, text wall ahead:

"The reader will be interested to know that I have discovered a means of
removing almost all of the characteristics that define Asperger's syndrome in
any child or adult.
This simple procedure does not require expensive and
prolonged therapy, surgery or medication, and has already been secretly
discovered by those who have Asperger's syndrome.
The procedure is actually rather simple. If you are a parent, take your child with Asperger's
syndrome to his or her bedroom. Leave the child alone in the bedroom and
close the door behind you as you walk out of the room. The signs of
Asperger's syndrome in your son or daughter have now disappeared."

In solitude, the child does not have a qualitative impairment in social
interaction. At least two people are needed for there to be a social
interaction, and if the child is alone, there will be no evidence of any social
impairment. In solitude, there is no one to talk to, so there are no speech and
language peculiarities; and the child can enjoy time engaged in a special
interest for as long as he or she desires, without anyone else judging whether
the activity is abnormal either in intensity or focus."
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That, that'd be heaven in earth for me. You always will have online communities to keep yourself entertained, but of course, the main problem of life arises. Money. If I could find work that I could do, and acquire this standard of living, I could keep on going for a while longer. I just don't know if this is possible for me.

 

[Vlad Tepes]

My genes, parents, and upbringing (or lack thereof).

 

[Forever Sleep]

I don't want to be alive at all. Changing a few things here and there would be unlikely stop future shitty things from happening.

 

[patheticparasite]

In solitude, there is no one to talk to, so there are no speech and
language peculiarities; and the child can enjoy time engaged in a special
interest for as long as he or she desires, without anyone else judging whether
the activity is abnormal either in intensity or focus.

I've tried this for the past 25 years. Of course I accomplished nothing and it made me lose interest in literally everything. That's why I'm here.

 

[AnimeSlayersFan]

I've tried this for the past 25 years. Of course I accomplished nothing and it made me lose interest in literally everything. That's why I'm here.

What did you try? I would on to other things that bring a happy break from life but I don't know where the NSFW section is haha.
#Cope

 

[Parnate]

My genes, parents, and upbringing (or lack thereof).

I would want the same . Eventually it all boils down to what we got in the genetic lottery.

 

[33K1LLM3]

My existence

 

[painfully]

There are many things that I dislike or are painful... Most of them cant be solved... But the one thing that would make this shit life worth living for would be to have someone to share it and support and love each other... Without that, nothing has meaning for me...

Supposedly its "solvable"... But nobody wants somebody like me... So in practice Ill just ctb from loneliness...

 

[FoxSauce]

Well if im being honest my appearance and geez I dunno Ive never actually sat down and thought about it

 

[deletednumber]

I wish I had a loving and unite family and caring and fun friends...somebody that loved me deeply.
But I am ok with death now and to close all this nightmare forever.

 

[Lyn]

Bite off the umbilical cord like in the movie Butterfly Effect.

 

[weedbrain]

I want freedom. Enough money to do the things I want to do before it all goes to shit

 

[patheticparasite]

Sorry for the late reply.

What did you try?

Solitude. I can't speak for anyone else, but trying to pursue my interests, undisturbed and in solitude, turned out not be that interesting after all.

 

[Custos]

My conditions

 

[Faulty Pawn]

I wish I could go back in time, somehow escape baby cot when few months old and jump straight into some baby hatch unnoticed by my mommy.

 

[Satori Komeiji]

Stop being depressed and miserable and give myself the motivation to go all in on my IT and programming hobbies so I can have an actual career

 

[Pluto]

 

[Hellis]

Either my brain or my face. Ones mean the other is the reason why.

 

[naookoo128]

Hmm, I wish my mom would have been that understanding and self-reflective person she is today, but already when I was a child.
And/Or I wish I could have been more open to accept help on my mental health when I was younger.
I think with "only" that, life could have been very nice. I would have enough willpower to follow my path and to not let everything slip away that was given.