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zdeweilx

zdeweilx

It's over
Dec 15, 2025
29
Let's pretend you planned to CTB on December 31st. What would you spend your savings on between today and December 31st ?
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
2,240
I am rotting away in poverty, I have no savings
 
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kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
115
Probably I will make sure that savings will be available to my family members.
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
495
Well, I have very little money in my account, so I'll probably treat myself for some food, and that's about it.
 
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Wrestler99

New Member
Dec 16, 2025
2
Let's pretend you planned to CTB on December 31st. What would you spend your savings on between today and December 31st ?
Already planned. An expensive hotel the night or nights before, eat all my favorite things, sushi, alcohol, anything I'm not allowed to do anymore. Then spend a lot of my money on someone to spend the night with me one more time(plan on way over paying bc i don't believe in that) but if I'm leaving this world i want that one more time before i go and I'll help change someone life with all the money maybe they won't have to do that anymore potentially. And catch the bus the next night.

I'm single no kids and my relatives will miss me but that's not enough for me anymore, and I wish it was.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,093
I would give it all to charity.
 
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Realgar

Member
Aug 19, 2024
65
Give most of it to Animal Shelters.
 
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zoeTDavies98

zoeTDavies98

Member
Dec 16, 2025
7
Just came back from several months of traveling europe and asia. I think I'm set
 
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WhatCouldHaveBeen32

(O__O)==>(X__X)
Oct 12, 2024
874
Holy moly, a grand total of 200 euros? Jeff Bezos MAKE WAY, I'm buying Amazon for a day.
 
qewpie

qewpie

bedbound, bouncing, broken
Aug 3, 2025
155
everything would go to trans&disabled&POC mutual aid
 
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suicidesergal

suicidesergal

A verifiable critter.
Dec 17, 2025
19
I would donate it to a charity. Let others make use of what i cannot.
 
Sleeper System

Sleeper System

Z z Z z Z z Z z Z z Z
May 5, 2022
909
I'm so tired of living that I wont even be vague.
I have 20k. 15k to my mom. The rest to having one or two nights of just self care and self indulgence. I'd buy a gun first. Once I have that then I want to find a nice hotel and blow my brains out in a tub. I want the water to be warm and comforting. Like a hug holding me as I join the dead.
 
Sardinha

Sardinha

I love jellyfishes
Dec 17, 2025
11
I don't have much money and I don't have many ideas, but to be honest, what came to mind now was:


1- Hike to some SUPER isolated spot in the mountains ranges near me. it's SOOO BEAUTIFUL when u see it from below!!! I'd much rather spend money to go to an isolated place and die among the trees and animals than in this dead concrete world that r the cities. besides… my family wouldn't find me if I did it right! and that reassures me, I REALLY want to be far away from those who hurt me, and also… having my body imprisoned inside those concrete tombs… terrifies me a little…

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2- A new Gura plushie (since I already have Dino gura)!!!!! I know it sounds silly, but she was the reason I'm still here and answering you! she was and still is a HUGE, long-lasting emotional support for me (so long-lasting that even today, despite her having ceased lives, I STILL persist in LIVING because of her!!). i REALLY like her and admire her deeply, so I think I would buy another plush toy of her so I could die alongside the one that gave me reasons to live for so long and made dark days so fun and less burdensome
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cakedog

cakedog

waiting for the respawn
Dec 13, 2025
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I don't have much money and I don't have many ideas, but to be honest, what came to mind now was:


1- Hike to some SUPER isolated spot in the mountains ranges near me. it's SOOO BEAUTIFUL when u see it from below!!! I'd much rather spend money to go to an isolated place and die among the trees and animals than in this dead concrete world that r the cities. besides… my family wouldn't find me if I did it right! and that reassures me, I REALLY want to be far away from those who hurt me, and also… having my body imprisoned inside those concrete tombs… terrifies me a little…

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2- A new Gura plushie (since I already have Dino gura)!!!!! I know it sounds silly, but she was the reason I'm still here and answering you! she was and still is a HUGE, long-lasting emotional support for me (so long-lasting that even today, despite her having ceased lives, I STILL persist in LIVING because of her!!). i REALLY like her and admire her deeply, so I think I would buy another plush toy of her so I could die alongside the one that gave me reasons to live for so long and made dark days so fun and less burdensome
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that plushie looks cute thought it was a fumo for a moment
don't know much about the english speaking hololive vt but gura is cute
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
13,928
Nice food. I'd like to sea the sea again, maybe some waterfalls/ rivers/ lakes again before I go. So- some limited travel and stays some places.

I'd want to try and leave a fair bit behind though. There's going to be a big mess in terms of my living environment to clear up and I want my solicitor to handle all that- with a house clearing company etc. Hopefully, with enough money left behind, no one else will have to get involved.
 
FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,498
Just enough savings are set aside for my cremation. If we pretend 31 December is d-day, I'll have to work until then and book a hotel room for the day at a nearby beach, which is actually what I'm planning to do when it's time. Just a last day at the beach.
 
cowboypants

cowboypants

From milkyway
May 7, 2024
564
Food and travel. I'm running low on money, so just food now. I have to clock out before I run out of that too
 

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