i think the most selfish thing someone can do is keep a person alive against their will. i have been suicidal for years and every single person who has found out has tried to convince me to stay because "it will irreversibly hurt the people i love." and that guilt tripping worked on me for a while, but i've come to the conclusion that they just care more about themselves than the person suffering, and that's incredibly selfish. i have also lost people to suicide and watched people lose their loved ones as well, and it did change my mind for a while, but i've seen firsthand how people learn to live with it and move on, and i want that to happen when i ctb too. personally, i think suicide is the last act of self care anyone can do.