The original plan was to go out tonight in a hotel because family was going to be home and the physical issues have been getting worse by the day. New info has come up and my mom will be gone tomorrow and I have the option to be at home. The thing is I am at odds of even doing it at home and still prefer to do it somewhere else. Just wondering if i should postpone for a day so that she will be around people for when she finds out or just go ahead with the plan tonight.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,939
I think that with questions like that it's up to you, it's completely a personal decision, only the individual can decide when to leave. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.
Fktw0rld
An end with suffering > Suffering without an end
- Aug 29, 2022
- 404
That's a tough one. We obviously want to be as comfortable as possible in our own bed. But do we want to leave that scar for everyone there to remember as long as they remain in that home. I guess it all boils down to how much you care about who's there. Have they pushed you to this point and your choice is to leave them with the burden of your suicide memory being attached to that room and bed? Or have they not and it's not something you want them to carry.
wagner2029
Experienced
- Jun 25, 2023
- 213
If you're sure you want it, I don't see why delay. At the same time, you don't need to be in a hurry, a day or two won't matter if something unexpected happens. do it calmly.
it's an interesting point. but I don't see how to make it "less worse", I know people will suffer for what I'm going to do, I just hope they understand that I was worse alive. in my case the options are to do it at home or shoot me in the head somewhere and possibly be buried without identification, perhaps considered missing or murdered, disfigured. if I do it at home, they won't need to recognize the body or go after the police. it will be horrible either way. another question is that the owner of the hotel will have a loss, if it is to choose, it would be better inside the car. in brazil it is more difficult, they would probably throw my body on the floor without identification, steal my cell phone, car and everything else they could take.
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