What would you do right now instead of browsing this forum if you had a good life?

[noname223]

It is pure speculation.

Maybe chatting with my potential girlfriend. Actually I am texting with a woman but she lacks sanity we are just acquaintances. And I probably have a lot of flaws too.

I had the idea for this threads when I watched the news. When I was younger I wanted to become politician. It is so sad to see. I wish I could spend my resources on some dream goals. But instead I need extreme discipline to attend half-time college. It is a damn joke which feels pretty pathetic. On the other hand I never was smart enough for that. So I probably would have ended in a mediocre position working my ass off. So instead I can act as philosopher king in a suicde forum. Despite the fact many people here have way more knowledge on philosophy than me.

Maybe I would play video games before going to sleep. I did that when I was younger. I quit that behavior because it is too exciting. And I get depressed before I go to sleep and rather want to use that time for self-reflection and becoming calm.

 

[GasMonkey]

I'd be having sex with a young and beautiful girl.

 

[unnormal9]

Developing video games.
I'm trying, Dot.

 

[Lilythefenfen]

I'd be held close by someone who actually loves me instead of seeing me simply as an object. I'd be loved, I'd be kept safe.

I'd probably be playing games, I'd be on hormones and be happy with my body. I'd be able to sleep without having a panic attack every time. I wouldn't have all this pain and would probably have a decent job. I'd also probably have finished high school!

 

[StolenLife]

Tbh I would still study hard for my exams.

 

[The_End_Is_Comfort]

Working hard on improving my cartooning skills, Learning an instrument or 2, Chatting with people to try to make new friends, Doing or typing dumb stuff, Work on a sketchbook, Research more about my hobbies, Maybe continue on college, Get to know my coworkers more.

 

[deathLiberation]

Good life as in desired life?

Traveling the world. Learning new languages. Coffe shops and lots o drawings.

 

[annxietty]

Probably outside, If I were normal I would be outside enjoying new experiences instead of being afraid and being abnormal...

 

[TowerRoad]

laugh or be happy.

 

[Suwa]

I would imagine I would be wearing skirts, I'd have a girlfriend who supports me and loves me for who I am, and most importantly I'd be working on some of my projects a lot more, and being more productive in general.

 

[squirley]

It's not so much as " if " but maybe had.

In the life I had. I would have been
( when things were good on the outside.)
( not on the inside )

Working ( carpentery/construction ) daily.
Smoke a joint
BBQ
Gym
Learning how to trade futures contracts.
Staying focused. ( on myself , goals, etc )
Trying to be social.
Trying to stay sober from booze.
I'd still be judging myself.Life.Success.failures.etc.
Trying not to seek revenge on those who have done me wrong.
On / off meds.
I'm sure I would have been seeing someone maybe a FWB or something.
Joint
BBQ
Movies / game
Youtube - languages, trading, world.
Simple. Yet complicated.

It's been about a year and a half since this.
And I'm done being angry , upset, happy or not etc.
trying to always be fixing.Again.Again.Again.
No more energy for it all.
I'm ok with where I am. And accept it.
I'm fond of the memories of who I once was,
The good the bad and the ugly.

I'm waiting and wanting to rest.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me no matter what existing could never be a desirable state, I see existence as being a burden and I find it tiring being trapped in the prison that is consciousness. I know that I would wish to cease existing no matter what, I'm not delusional enough anyway to want to decay from age and risk experiencing even worse suffering at any moment. Existing could never be "good" to me, it's something tedious, futile and unappealing..

 

[cgrtt.brns]

id live in my own place, maybe with a partner, id have learnt how to animate, id be working with animals, id have helped save endangered species, id be able to save and care for injured wildlife, id have figured out a proper diet that doesnt make me feel ill all the time, id be fit enough to do the things i want to do, fuck im a fucking failure

 

[sheleftme1]

I'd give her a hug and watch a movie. If she were here and chose me in spite of our situation my life would be good enough… I don't need much. I'd propose to her and marry her tomorrow and never let a chance to figure things out before they blow up go again. I'd learn to calm myself down to make sure I don't allow my mind to mess up things that I love. I'd love her

 

[Pomegranate]

My dream was to be a physician. If I didn't struggle with OCD & depression, I would've been pretty close to being a doctor. Having to witness my dream crumble due to causes beyond my control traumatized me and destroyed my self-esteem. I've also been struggling for a decade with limerence, a difficult-to-overcome obsession with another person and an incessant urge to always be in their presence. It's made it impossible to form social bonds.

Outside of career, I'd have some consistent hobbies, such as playing basketball or piano. And I'd probably have a partner that loves and cherishes me like no other. I really like long hugs with back rubs, where our separate breathings become one, and we'd never want to stop hugging until we have to. I want to travel. I've been to China before, which was amazing. But I want to go to other places, such as Italy, France, England, Scotland (I hear the Highlands are gorgeous), and of course Japan (I want to meditate near the cherry blossoms with Mount Fuji in my sight).

Oh well, back to reality.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

"She lacks sanity" is just about the greatest line ever, btw.

Not really sure what I'd be doing. Probably be a father and husband with a 9 to 5 as was originally on the agenda. But seeing how much work and self-sacrifice that is, I'm not even sure I'd want that, in retrospect. As it turned out I became hopelessly ill with my mystery condition, but I'm at least enabled in the sense that I can stay home and do nothing. I can't function very well so that's as good as it's going to get for me.

 

[Artictart]

I would be preparing for college or spending time with people.

 

[enough of this]

I would be sharing my life with my soul mate, and most likely, my family. I have neither.

 

[Csmith8827]

I'd be making music in my apartment/house... electric guitar, drums, keyboard, bass, etc... recording all my own stuff and trying to like sing on it as well

 

[Vaermina8]

I would actually complete my school work nice and early in the morning, perhaps afterward I could enjoy time with friends, and spend the whole day like that with no worries. Once home I could work on creating a game of sorts, perfecting it until I feel tired. Then fall into a dream that might give me inspiration, that would be nice.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

I'd be back to being loved and happy.

 

[nailen]

studying chemistry, learning polish and going in the gym

My dream was to be a physician. If I didn't struggle with OCD & depression, I would've been pretty close to being a doctor. Having to witness my dream crumble due to causes beyond my control traumatized me and destroyed my self-esteem. I've also been struggling for a decade with limerence, a difficult-to-overcome obsession with another person and an incessant urge to always be in their presence. It's made it impossible to form social bonds.

Outside of career, I'd have some consistent hobbies, such as playing basketball or piano. And I'd probably have a partner that loves and cherishes me like no other. I really like long hugs with back rubs, where our separate breathings become one, and we'd never want to stop hugging until we have to. I want to travel. I've been to China before, which was amazing. But I want to go to other places, such as Italy, France, England, Scotland (I hear the Highlands are gorgeous), and of course Japan (I want to meditate near the cherry blossoms with Mount Fuji in my sight).

Oh well, back to reality.

very nice message

 

[DynamicDepression]

Cuddling on the couch with my beloved while we watch old sitcoms.

 

[lonegore]

I'd actually be attending school while knowing how to speak normally without stuttering. Have friends & a caring, non-abusive family. Basically I'd be having a future ahead.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

I don't know, that sums up my life.

Never been happy my whole life and i can't say i have a utopia in my mind. Peace i guess.

And a brain that could hold knowledge, spend my whole life reading till im dead maybe

 

[psp3000]

I would probably try to make friends and go to the arcade with them and host movie nights

but also I could do those things without them and I would also probably leave random notes/stories/poems and images/collages/art around the area without leading on who's leaving them around and at various businesses as a hobby and just to see if anyone would find or like them

 

[sheleftme1]

If I knew about the last few months? I'd hug her and make sure she knows I would fix any issues to never lose her

 

[aGoodDayToDie]

Making money or going out

 

[enough of this]

I would probably try to make friends and go to the arcade with them and host movie nights

but also I could do those things without them and I would also probably leave random notes/stories/poems and images/collages/art around the area without leading on who's leaving them around and at various businesses as a hobby and just to see if anyone would find or like them

Those sound like fun things to do. I've left things at various locations, knowing (or, at least, hoping) people would enjoy them.
Anyway, I've enjoyed it.

 

[Zegers]

I probably would have finished high school and gone to college, idk what kind of dedication i would have but i have always been interested in business. Without a disability, which ruined self-esteem, self-confidence and identity, without anxiety within minutes of waking up, without anguish, without crushing loneliness, being relatively content and doing things instead of be nulled.