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doomedbynarrative

doomedbynarrative

Losing more of myself every day.
Jan 21, 2026
272
All problems including financial issues, health issues, mental health issues, bad relationships, bad family, etc. If you woke up unburdened by all of that what are some things you would do?

For me:
  • Go on a run (cause I can just imagine myself running out of my house going "yippee!" and running around like a crazy person tbh)
  • Dance around to music!!
  • Host a house party and invite all my friends and loved ones.
  • Donate a shit load of money to charity and then go work my ass off for a charity.
  • Create so much art!!!
  • Fuck it I'm going to Disneyland!
  • I would travel the world and see places I've always wanted to see like Ireland, Istanbul in Turkey, Jerusalem, Italy, Prince Edward Island in Canada, New Zealand, Kyoto in Japan... So many places
  • Go date šŸ˜‚
  • Eat ALL the food!
  • Go to every damn cow sanctuary and cat cafe and puppy daycare and love on all of them.
Like the world will still be horrible but I'll have felt like I was able to indulge in the illusion of happiness for a time.
 
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5er50ji

5er50ji

Member
Jan 27, 2026
17
I'd also go for a run, I love exercising but I've been sick for so long :( I'd put myself out there and do hobbies and join clubs and try to make friends and travel and stuff
 
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idontknowwhatiam

Arcanist
Sep 10, 2025
416
I'd be ecstatic
 
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doomedbynarrative

doomedbynarrative

Losing more of myself every day.
Jan 21, 2026
272
I'd also go for a run, I love exercising but I've been sick for so long :( I'd put myself out there and do hobbies and join clubs and try to make friends and travel and stuff
You know it's kinda funny. I used to hate running for physical education classes as a teen. Now I'm just like man that's the first thing I would do.
 
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gottacheckout

gottacheckout

COB
May 20, 2025
716
If that happened to me I'd just think I had died
 
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Arvayn

Arvayn

Face the end.
Nov 11, 2025
337
Oh boy...

1. Propose to my girlfriend of 6 years and marry her. I'd be satisfied with just this, everything else is extra. I know I can't have this, so this is the main thing.
2. Finally go and get my driver's license.
3. Start dieting and going to the gym to get in shape.
4. Finish my mortuary apprenticeship and find a quiet job as a mortician. Master the trade.
5. Learn absolutely everything there is to know about death. Just for fun, go to university and get degrees in linguistics, history and literature. If I still have time and motivation afterwards, look into math and physics.
6. Move to a nice and secluded spot in the countryside.
7. Hire house servants to do everything for me so I can focus exclusively on hobbies.
8. Study esotericism, mysticism and folklore to exhaustion.
9. Become a musician and an artist, and finally make all of my ideas a reality.
10. Turn my friend and I's passion project into a proper board game and publicize it.
11. Learn about spiritualism and start meditating.
12. Start doing a sport, preferably fencing or HEMA.
13. Commission a set of authentic plate armor and medieval weaponry.
14. Pay for all of my best friend's expenses so he can get away from his abusive family and cure his chronic disabilities.
15. While I'm at it, pay for the expenses of everyone that I know and remotely care about.
16. Experiment with fashion, get a proper wardrobe of clothes and outfits that I like.
17. Become an eccentric and stop talking to people.
18. Write a book, why not?
19. Running out of ideas here... Err... I guess find some places to travel to? I'm not very big on travel, but I see its benefits.
20. Question what the fuck caused all of this to happen. Am I a Boltzmann brain after all?

I'm currently working on a lot of these, actually. Once I accomplish all of these goals, especially the education-related ones, I'll just mess around with my wife until she dies, and then I'll kill myself too. If she magically doesn't die, then I'll gladly live forever. Nothing left to stick around for after that; I'd have accomplished everything I ever wanted to do in my life and mastered the mental. I imagine I'd develop more exotic tastes and interests overtime, though, so it's hard to say if I'd ever reach that point.
 
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pax420

pax420

Gonna end up a big ole pile of them bones
Jan 19, 2026
110
I would go back to sleep because it must be a dream.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,996
I would think I'd gone mad!

I'd likely be much better at my job though. I'd likely pursue that again with greater vigour, give my all to it and be exploited until I died.

That's maybe my biggest obstacle- I can't even see a best case scenario being worth the effort.

To try to be optimistic though- with greater confidence and fitness, maybe I'd try more things. Visit more places. Swim in a lake, explore the coastline via canoe, walk around the whole UK coastline- I love all things water.

I suppose though- even if I was 100% fit and optimistic- I don't think this world is set up to give me what I want. Even the people I've most admired for being successful haven't got entirely what they wanted. Most don't have a good work/ life balance. They've succeeded in their careers because they gave their all to them and ultimately- it was usually to make someone else richer! I'm not sure I could un-see that reality.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,554
That doesn't even make sense to me as for me existence is the problem, I see existence as the most terrible, tragic and cruel mistake that just causes all this dreadful harm and suffering and no matter what I'll only hope for non-existence, for me ceasing to exist is the positive solution to find peace from the suffering, torture and evil of existing, existence to me is an abomination that only ever tortures existing beings.

I find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible, to be conscious in this existence is just the most terrible burden and for me every second is torture to be conscious, I just find it so terrible how humans impose something as evil and harmful as existence that only ever causes existing beings to suffer with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the suffering and torture of existing is endless, all I want is to erase this existence, I find it so terrifying how a human can be tortured in this existence for decades longer just to face the agony of old age.
 
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assassinlord82

assassinlord82

Member
Nov 12, 2024
27
probably cry.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,772
I would still work towards ending my life. Good life, bad life, it does not matter to me. I do not want to live anymore.
 
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a65b

a65b

It's your life. Do what you want with it
Jan 31, 2026
72
beat my addictions, buy a dog, try to find someone who loves me, travel around the world and live long enough to find out how berserk ends
 
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movies4guys

movies4guys

Member
Jan 21, 2026
14
- spend more time with friends, travel to visit them
- stop planning to go no contact w/ parents
- get an actual apartment
- maybe take a gap year
- then take as many classes as i can
- spend time making art and music, learn lots of trades and crafts
- get a gun license
- make friends with all the people i think are cool
- go to grad school
- publish my writing
 
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broken_stoic

broken_stoic

Wander till you find your place
Aug 21, 2024
198
If that happened to me I'd just think I had died
Sadly I'd probably have a similar response. I would probably either wonder if I'd just had a break with reality or be well on my way to one. Then I would start wondering if the simulation hypothesis had more merit than I'd given it so far and go into existential crisis.
 
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MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP
Feb 11, 2023
48
I'd do what I can to become the person I wish I could be. I want to be a kinder person, but I'm easily set off by even the slightest bit of criticism, and I wish I didn't have to deal with that.
 
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prettynoose

prettynoose

jack
Oct 19, 2023
28
i'd take a trip round the entirety of california with a friend. see all the big places like hollywood san francisco san diego and all the beaches. just spend a lifetime exploring the world and just feeling and being alive
 
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Sleepwalkuntilsane

Sleepwalkuntilsane

I'm so tired
Oct 26, 2025
21
Reconnect with all the people I've lost touch with, take college seriously and do well, interact with more people, get into my hobbies more, and lots and lots of camping and hiking.
 
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Greyhawk

Greyhawk

Student
Jan 3, 2025
169
Going for a run came to my mind as well immediately after I read the title. I'd also make new friends and spend more time with my old friends, read more books, maybe start writing, travel, go on a date and study CS or math in uni.
 
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raemysteryO

raemysteryO

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Feb 8, 2026
39
Oh gosh…

• Build a sanctuary for endangered animals
• Study veterinary and becoming a vet to take care all of those animals myself
• Buy a land and live a beautiful life among animals and my loved ones without guilt and worry-free šŸ¤—
 
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bobsacamano

bobsacamano

Member
Feb 11, 2026
53
I'd probably fuck that up too.
 
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cheesecakec

cheesecakec

Member
Feb 17, 2026
10
id probably go to work (i have trouble going to work). honestly, id probably just be a normal human for a day. go out to eat. go to an arcade. idk what else... these are things I like but can't enjoy
 
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yourlocalprotist

A-B-C-D-E-F-U-C-K-I-C-E
Jan 29, 2026
7
Please ignore the above post.
 
hitagi-crab

hitagi-crab

Member
Feb 21, 2026
15
Get out there and meet people more. Go to events, go on dates or hookups as long as it made me feel good. Make music with other people and share my music with others. Invite people over to my house and cook for them, make a warm space for others in my life. Travel, go back to Japan maybe, meet people in other countries and learn their languages. Go out and eat good food with friends. Find a fulfilling career or calling. Fall in love. Live life like a real person in the real world.
 
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Mr.Tristesse

Mr.Tristesse

LIFE IS TORTURE
Jul 23, 2022
4,848
I would not be depressed and have no problems.
 
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eyenumbing

eyenumbing

don't sing me to sleep
Aug 17, 2024
21
- go back to college
- talk to my friends again
- learn how to drive
- pick up a new hobby
- be a productive member of society
 
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kitkatt

kitkatt

Possumpwincess
Feb 17, 2026
131
I wouldn't be alone all by myself. I have people but can't allow them to know me fully. I'd hug my mom and dad because then they wouldn't be the source of everything wrong with me. I'd slump my back and tense my shoulders and I would cry for all the other reasons I am the way I am. Because here we're in neck deep in garbage all by myself whenever they could've just avoided all this in the first place with an abortion
 
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