What would you consider the most painful/violent method that actually has a decent success rate?

[everlastinghistory]

I've done nothing but hurt the one person I claim to love. I feel like even death is too good at this point. I deserve the pain I'm in. I know I do. Which is exactly why I don't want my death to be easy. The only problem is all the painful/violent methods statistically seem to have high failure rates. I don't want this to fail. It can't fail. But all the (almost) guaranteed to succeed methods are practically instantaneous. I don't want this to be.

I know at least one person is going to try and tell me I don't deserve a painful death. But I think I do and it's what I want. So please, just answer the question or don't respond.

 

[DaatiSimi]

Drinking bleach or those types of venoms.
I've seen videos and pictures from people who have died and they all had this horror look on their faces. It's not peaceful at all, very painful it seems

 

[Sparx]

Self immolation would probably work and also be extremely bad to experience.

 

[Rocinante]

Jump in lake tied to cinder block
or
self immolation

 

[suicidesheep31.1]

self-immolation seems to be really painful.

 

[theboy]

being eaten by wild animals

 

[Wannagonow]

Train

 

[CowsAgainstCapitali]

Yikes.

I cannot imagine shooting myself in the abdomen with a handgun in the woods and making it to a hospital. I also cannot imagine, if I had jumped off that rocky cliff, how I would have been able to escape the bone mangling rocks below. Getting badly injured in the wildernesses whilst being unprepared seems reliable and unpleasant.

 

[Blue_mist]

Cyanide, eaten by Comodo Dragon, Executioner Wasp if you are allergic to its venom

 

[Seekingawayout]

Sorry, I can't believe so many are even entertaining this idea..

 

[LastFlowers]

I'm more curious about how or who you may have hurt, and to what degree.
I'm not sure it's wise for members of this site to suggest what you're asking for, whether you deserve it or not.
Either way, looks as if many have offered you the answers you seek.

Sorry, I can't believe so many are even entertaining this idea..

Some people are here for the wrong reasons, treat this site and its members flippantly.
Others may actually just want to appease OP as they recognize and empathize with the desperation.

Anyway. I'm not saying you're wrong in your disappointment.

 

[Seekingawayout]

Some people are here for the wrong reasons, treat this site and its members flippantly.
Others may actually just want to appease OP as they recognize and empathize with the desperation.

Anyway. I'm not saying you're wrong in your disappointment.

I know I haven't been around here long, but I've mostly seen people here want to minimize suffering, so this was a surprise.
OP, I don't know what you've done to think you deserve a horrible and painful death... But I do hope you reconsider.

 

[LastFlowers]

I know I haven't been around here long, but I've mostly seen people here want to minimize suffering, so this was a surprise.
OP, I don't know what you've done to think you deserve a horrible and painful death... But I do hope you reconsider.

I understand your confusion, most people certainly do want to minimize the pain or discomfort of the dying process.
Usually they've suffered enough in life by that point.

 

[Rainy_days]

I've done nothing but hurt the one person I claim to love.

You're going to hurt them worse than anything you've done up til now if you kill yourself on their account. Perhaps you have other reasons in addition to this for wanting to die, but I don't think punishment for hurt you have caused is a very good one. Either make amends or be decent and let them go on with their life without dumping all of your guilt onto them.

 

[Maudlin]

"the most painful/violent method" would be to just live with yourself.

It takes years. The longer it takes, the more it hurts. It's Guaranteed 100% fatal.

Also, we all deserve it, OP.