SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
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Basically if your wishes came true, and all the struggles came to an end… what would that look like? Your pains gone, all of it gone. What would u do? (Sorry I find it hard to word this question I hope it makes sense lol)

For me it would be not having to mask my personality, my disorders and my struggles. Not having to fear to get hurt, and not having my past as a weapon. Also to be accepted for who I truly am. I just wish I could forget a bunch of stuff too. I wish I wasn't so alone, broken and worthless. And someone just like me out there, that's just some thoughts, I'm sure there's more if I put a bit more thought into it… but if those could just be gone, maybe I wouldn't be in this dark place…
 
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Stormy Raine

Stormy Raine

Quietly counting down the days, hours, minutes..
Apr 7, 2023
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Great question. To have my biological mother alive, I miss her so much!
 
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SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
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Great question. To have my biological mother alive, I miss her so much!
I'm sorry to hear that, it must be really hard and that's valid. Sending hugs
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
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Being born the correct sex from the very beginning and being average looking/attractive as such. All I need for the hardships to be worth it.
 
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SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
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Being born the correct sex from the very beginning and being average looking/attractive as such. All I need for the hardships to be worth it.
Sending love and that's valid. I see where your coming from, I'm Nb, I know it isn't the same but similar in some ways. I hope you know your not alone in this
 
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GasMonkey

GasMonkey

Nitrogen Master Race
May 15, 2022
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A young GigaChad body with optimal health and a couple million dollars.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,407
A young GigaChad body with optimal health and a couple million dollars.

Man Body GIF
 
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Heavenbound

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Apr 11, 2023
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I don't want to be wealthy, but just have enough money to live comfortably and not have to worry like I do now. Also would like to have a loving monogamous partner, possibly live in a different country. I would love to have my loved ones back in the earthly realm, and in optimal health, and that my family would be accepting of me and my partner. I'd just like to be happy for once with no anxiety.
There were 8 days in my life that I felt truly happy, loved, validated, human. I would give anything to have that back.
 
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Dead Horse

Dead Horse

Hopeless, but literally
Nov 14, 2018
150
If I had to answer, I'd say a job I don't hate, a girlfriend, and a small group of friends.
Or, a more optimistic outlook on life and not being anxious and afraid all the time.

In reality, though, I don't really believe my brain is capable of being happy, no matter what. I'm not sure if I ever was, even as a child.
 
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Source Energy

Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
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The arms of the man I love around me. I asked for nothing more out of life...
 
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unplug

Vapor Self
Apr 11, 2023
107
At this point? Nothing.
 
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rcs

rcs

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Dec 3, 2022
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Basically if your wishes came true, and all the struggles came to an end… what would that look like? Your pains gone, all of it gone. What would u do? (Sorry I find it hard to word this question I hope it makes sense lol)

For me it would be not having to mask my personality, my disorders and my struggles. Not having to fear to get hurt, and not having my past as a weapon. Also to be accepted for who I truly am. I just wish I could forget a bunch of stuff too. I wish I wasn't so alone, broken and worthless. And someone just like me out there, that's just some thoughts, I'm sure there's more if I put a bit more thought into it… but if those could just be gone, maybe I wouldn't be in this dark place…
I feel the same way. I've been isolating myself and I feel beyond lonely. But I feel that I shouldn't burden others with my thoughts and feelings. It would just be so nice to have someone to keep pushing me, someone that would understand and not get upset with me for feeling the way I do. Even my therapist is kinda fed up with me. But I digress.

If all my wishes came true and all the struggles came to an end.. I would be living on my own, away from my parents. I wouldn't have to interact with them. I'd be healthy -- eat enough and sleep enough and get up at an appropriate time in the morning and go to sleep at a reasonable time. I'd have graduated with my degree, maybe even landed a job in my field without worry. I would have enough energy to get through the day. I'd have my drive and motivation back, my cognition and ability to sit down and focus for hours and hours. I'd be so happy if my brain just worked properly again. I'd be able to accomplish whatever I want. I wouldn't have these stupid nightmares, I wouldn't have flashbacks and these terrible thoughts. I would live with my boyfriend. We're long-distance right now. I would spend my time creating things. Maybe any cool apps I have ideas for. I'd do lots of knitting and sewing. And progress as a photographer. I would love to have a darkroom. Basically, I would be able to do whatever I want, without these mental and physical limits. I just want to be normal again.

Sorry if that was a lot. I really liked your question!
 
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Danyyyyy

Danyyyyy

Yippee
Mar 19, 2023
72
Something that would be nice would be non-judgement with loved ones, being able to trust them with anything, regardless of whether it's considered taboo or known publically. And to be able to not overthink, I'm always getting overwhelmed by my own thoughts regarding assignments, people, certain things etc etc. its exhausting :(( and I just want to not think abt anything once in while (while not sleeping lel)
 
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SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
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Everyone's responses r all valid. I hear you
I feel the same way. I've been isolating myself and I feel beyond lonely. But I feel that I shouldn't burden others with my thoughts and feelings. It would just be so nice to have someone to keep pushing me, someone that would understand and not get upset with me for feeling the way I do. Even my therapist is kinda fed up with me. But I digress.

If all my wishes came true and all the struggles came to an end.. I would be living on my own, away from my parents. I wouldn't have to interact with them. I'd be healthy -- eat enough and sleep enough and get up at an appropriate time in the morning and go to sleep at a reasonable time. I'd have graduated with my degree, maybe even landed a job in my field without worry. I would have enough energy to get through the day. I'd have my drive and motivation back, my cognition and ability to sit down and focus for hours and hours. I'd be so happy if my brain just worked properly again. I'd be able to accomplish whatever I want. I wouldn't have these stupid nightmares, I wouldn't have flashbacks and these terrible thoughts. I would live with my boyfriend. We're long-distance right now. I would spend my time creating things. Maybe any cool apps I have ideas for. I'd do lots of knitting and sewing. And progress as a photographer. I would love to have a darkroom. Basically, I would be able to do whatever I want, without these mental and physical limits. I just want to be normal again.

Sorry if that was a lot. I really liked your question!
No that's not a lot! I feel your first part of your message strongly. Your not alone in feeling that way
Something that would be nice would be non-judgement with loved ones, being able to trust them with anything, regardless of whether it's considered taboo or known publically. And to be able to not overthink, I'm always getting overwhelmed by my own thoughts regarding assignments, people, certain things etc etc. its exhausting :(( and I just want to not think abt anything once in while (while not sleeping lel)
I feel ya, your not alone in feeling this way
At this point? Nothing.
What do u mean by that exactly? If u don't mind me asking, I'm just curious.
The arms of the man I love around me. I asked for nothing more out of life...
♥️
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,058
My wish is to permanently cease existing, nothingness is what is ideal to me, I don't want anything to do with existence at all, existence is a burden, it's something tedious, futile, undesirable and doesn't interest me. There is nothing great about life and it could never be worthwhile being trapped inside this flesh prison that is destined to decay from old age, I find it tiring and unnecessary just being awake, and anyway this cruel and chaotic world where we risk ending up in a situation of even worse suffering at any moment could never be worth existing in to me. I just personally despise life and I view life in itself as being the true problem, to me it's always preferable to not exist.
 
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Csmith8827

Csmith8827

Don't you listen to your heart? (Listen to it...)
Oct 26, 2019
851
Getting my legs fixed up or them healing on they're own and getting my money set up and flowing in California so I can have my own life.
 
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Rocinante

Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
1,444
I just wanted a friend
 
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momdontcryplease

momdontcryplease

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Apr 15, 2023
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My wishes would be impossible without magic so the next best thing would be to somehow be the luckiest person on the planet and win a big lottery. Then my parents wouldn't need to suffer any longer.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
8,809
On a very basic level- to earn enough money from my creative job to be able to sustain myself financially and not worry. I'd still want a way out if I develop illness though- nothing is worth sticking around with that (in my opinion.)

On a fantasy level- I want to find a way of reversing global warming and how to heal all the collosal damage we have already done to this planet... I guess that's either science though (which I was crap at) or- some super hero level ability. That would TRULY make my life worthwhile. I'd quite enjoy bankrupting some of the rich corporate arseholes that knowingly exploited the world and it's poorest people too. That would be a bonus...
 
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targz

targz

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Feb 22, 2023
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There are things that could distract one better, like money, social life, attractiveness, etc. But ultimately I think there's nothing that could make life actually worthwhile IMHO.
 
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SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
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My wish is to permanently cease existing, nothingness is what is ideal to me, I don't want anything to do with existence at all, existence is a burden, it's something tedious, futile, undesirable and doesn't interest me. There is nothing great about life and it could never be worthwhile being trapped inside this flesh prison that is destined to decay from old age, I find it tiring and unnecessary just being awake, and anyway this cruel and chaotic world where we risk ending up in a situation of even worse suffering at any moment could never be worth existing in to me. I just personally despise life and I view life in itself as being the true problem, to me it's always preferable to not exist.
I feel ya. But is there things that u wish could get better?
I just wanted a friend
I'm here if u wanna talk or anything
My wishes would be impossible without magic so the next best thing would be to somehow be the luckiest person on the planet and win a big lottery. Then my parents wouldn't need to suffer any longer.
Well that's also part of the question, some things in this world can't be changed, but do u have an idea of what those magic wishes would be?
Mental stability
I feel u, your not alone in that place ♥️
On a very basic level- to earn enough money from my creative job to be able to sustain myself financially and not worry. I'd still want a way out if I develop illness though- nothing is worth sticking around with that (in my opinion.)

On a fantasy level- I want to find a way of reversing global warming and how to heal all the collosal damage we have already done to this planet... I guess that's either science though (which I was crap at) or- some super hero level ability. That would TRULY make my life worthwhile. I'd quite enjoy bankrupting some of the rich corporate arseholes that knowingly exploited the world and it's poorest people too. That would be a bonus...
Nice! I like your thoughts
There are things that could distract one better, like money, social life, attractiveness, etc. But ultimately I think there's nothing that could make life actually worthwhile IMHO.
I relate, doesn't have to be perfect but at least something that could maybe change some thoughts or anything. If that makes sense
 
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momdontcryplease

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Apr 15, 2023
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If magic is allowed then to go back in time and change myself genetically in the womb so I become reborn the opposite sex. With my knowledge of the future (presumably the magic would make it so that the timeline isn't so fucked up) I could prevent my mom's accident and help myself become more educated to get a good job so I could support them until they die of old age peacefully. Basically I would be able to stop the pain from happening before it even starts.
 
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SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
353
If magic is allowed then to go back in time and change myself genetically in the womb so I become reborn the opposite sex. With my knowledge of the future (presumably the magic would make it so that the timeline isn't so fucked up) I could prevent my mom's accident and help myself become more educated to get a good job so I could support them until they die of old age peacefully. Basically I would be able to stop the pain from happening before it even starts.
Yeah, I'd love to time travel and prevent things that hurt me still to this day. Or just one day forget
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,058
I feel ya. But is there things that u wish could get better?
Only not existing could make things better, to die solves everything. I only wish for permanent non existence.
 
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jerry545

jerry545

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Dec 28, 2022
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To have some form of meaningful connection with another person. I feel perpetually disconnected from everyone.
 
unnormal9

unnormal9

SOLDIER T.
Apr 12, 2023
1,139
Simply ceasing to exist. This is because dreams are faux.
 
PleaseTakeMeAway

PleaseTakeMeAway

Nothing to say anymore.
Jul 16, 2022
118
Nothing anymore. I'm completely lost. I have nothing now.
 
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NoLoveNoHope

NoLoveNoHope

Mage
Mar 25, 2023
555
Go back in time, change my AGAB erase my memories and cure my mental illnesses with a guaranteed life in absolute ignorance and bliss with my lover.

Or if I can't pull a homura moment then I want Nembutal and a mountain of our lord and savior - Blahaj.
 
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