Venting What would make you *not* want to ctb?

[alexithymia]

It makes it where I have a bad short term memory and makes it where I'm unable to articulate myself

I'm really sorry you have to deal with that.

 

[Mr2005]

A time machine

 

[Wayfaerer]

It makes it where I have a bad short term memory and makes it where I'm unable to articulate myself

I have the same problem as of the past year. I can't cognitively function as well as I used to.

 

[Squiddy]

I'm really sorry you have to deal with that.

I still have a tiny shred of hope it'll go away, but I'm starting to lose that

 

[alexithymia]

I still have a tiny shred of hope it'll go away, but I'm starting to lose that

I wish there were easier solutions and that I could offer you one. My heart goes out to you, friend.

 

[Squiddy]

I wish there were easier solutions and that I could offer you one. My heart goes out to you, friend.

I found this one supplement on Amazon that might be able to help with it, but I have to save up some money as I'm currently broke

 

[Final Escape]

A do over knowing what I know now. At least the most important things.

 

[LastFlowers]

As someone else said, A Time Machine, as well as complete control over what I look like.

 

[clownangel]

• Lack of chronic pain/illness
• Traumas erased, don't care if shit wasn't "undone" but the aftermath/effects at least
• As goofy as it sounds cuz it's mostly pointless, a few million dollars cuz I could at least tend to the first two better than I've been able to & never worry again with it in hand

Bonus round would be my ex, if it all fell apart & I still wanted to leave I'd be able to go with fewer loose ends and probably some help.

 

[woxihuanni]

Keep the change. Nothing is worth the endless tight smile in the face of idiocy, woo, ignorance, patronising. The only way to get rid of that tight smile is die or be a cunt yourself.

 

[okaoki]

someone to guide me to a better life , away from this place as far as possible.

 

[Nosferaddo]

I'd like to believe I live not in vain and my live actually matters. I'm not just existing just because, without any meaning, you know? I do though. I'd like to die today.
I'd like to believe I live not in vain and my live actually matters. I'm not just existing just because, without any meaning, you know? I do though. I live just because though

 

[sadgirl2002]

If I have true love from the person I'm waiting for, I'll finally be happy. I just need love from that one soul and everything will get better for me. That's the only thing that is making me not kill myself for the past year.

 

[Jean4]

A husband and paid bills.

 

[falconeyes]

If I'm able to stop my mind from being so anxious, stressed and panicked.

 

[cowbain]

being able to function, proper treatment, meeting people i could connect with/relate to, not being in an abusive or toxic environment.

To transport me back to my 18-year-old self with all of the knowledge that I have now.

Realistically speaking? Nothing.

I absolutely love your avatar. Alex Colville's work is great. And I would do the same, but at seventeen.

Is it okay for me to ask you guys what knowledge you have now that you'd want your 17/18 year old self to possess?

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Being physically well. The rest I could manage.

 

[Timetoleave]

If I could have my Son back, which is impossible that's why I will never change my mind I wish it wasn't so hard to find a way

 

[StillWaiting]

Nothing really.
Anything will only only make me stay longer but someday I will still ctb.
It is scary to think that I will grow older and become weaker

 

[Élégie]

If I could change my body/physical appearance
If I had total financial freedom
If I had grown up in a different environment/family
If I didn't have mental blocks and a fear of intimacy, so I could finally make friends and be in a relationship
If I could live in the countryside... I'm tired of living in the city. I want peace, quiet and nature.

But ultimately, I think I would still die by suicide, because I'm afraid of becoming old, sick and crippled.

 

[Heart of Ice]

Being reborn as a Chad with an IQ of 130+...or just being reborn without genetic disorders.

 

[alexithymia]

being able to function, proper treatment, meeting people i could connect with/relate to, not being in an abusive or toxic environment.





Is it okay for me to ask you guys what knowledge you have now that you'd want your 17/18 year old self to possess?

I would stay away from the guy I started dating. It's possible that I'd still want to die but my life was altered so intensely by that decision that I wonder if I'd feel completely different about life.

 

[AnonymouslyBlue]

If the people around me could see beyond the fake smiles and pretty words. If they could just understand even a fraction of what's going on inside my head.

 

[wendydong1]

I would stay away from the guy I started dating. It's possible that I'd still want to die but my life was altered so intensely by that decision that I wonder if I'd feel completely different about life.

I would stay away from a guy...

 

[C_F]

I still have a tiny shred of hope it'll go away, but I'm starting to lose that

Go to a naturopath and have them do tests... seriously. My test results were "abysmal", said the doctor... followed regimen she gave me and it fixed my horrid brain fog that I had for years and years. It took time, but it worked.

 

[Fallen_From_Grace]

Have my abusive, narcissistic husband replaced with a version of him who truly loved me and supported me and had a healthy relationship with me.

OR a stable job that didn't discriminate based on my disabilities and won't fire me. (but had the option to quit) so that I could pay off my medical debt and find a place to live close to said work and wouldn't have to worry about paying bills or losing my house or anything like that and be as far away from my husband as possible and get a divorce. Money is the only thing that's kept me from leaving him but also CTB. So if I had either of those I wouldn't want to CTB. A long string of abuse in childhood then abuse in relationships with no money to seek medical care for anything mental or physical with no money to be able to do anything with I've felt suffocated and trapped in my current situation.

 

[Ch92921]

Epigenetic/biochemical therapy, neurobiological change!(not possible)

gynephilic heterosexual!

 

[Astral316]

To make it interesting by assuming I'd have to remain a pariah... a cabin in the mountains. A quiet life away from society. Perhaps I have a dog or two. I'd spend my time chopping wood or hunting or hiking, etc. Of course I'd have tv and internet to keep up on current events. I could "zen out" like this for several decades before I pass naturally.

 

[Cook]

What's better ? Jumping off a 21 foot story high rise or parking garage of seven floors? I'm worried about a potential tree on the way

 

[woxihuanni]

Fucker comes on to me due to some surprise reaction in their brain where the frontal cortex suddenly overpowers the reptilian bit. They say: 'I've fucked up royally, what came over me? '

And then we fuck happily ever after.