What would make you commit?

[zizzou]

What would be your breaking point? Your release/trigger to finally stop dicking around and just do it?

 

[itsgone2]

Loved ones passing. Would be no reason to live after that.

 

[PI3.14]

I've already given myself the green light, it's a matter of time and SI management at this point.

 

[zizzou]

Loved ones passing. Would be no reason to live after that.

What if there are just too many?

 

[itsgone2]

What if there are just too many?

Oh. I only have one that would make me give up. I mean I've pretty much given up already.
The past three weekends I've been convinced I'll ctb. Or at least make a real attempt. This weekend is similar. But I'm not sure what would get me moving. I'll spend 99% of the weekend in bed or on the couch.

 

[scordatura]

My mum passing. We aren't always on good terms, although it's usually my fault, but even still I know she loves me, and I love her too.
Besides that, when I press the self destruct button, to a point of no return, and have fucked up enough of my life.
I dealt with something two years ago, I won't get into it as it's close to the worst thing I've ever had to deal with, but I could never cope with something like that again, and if I ever had too, I'd be out of here in a instant, I couldn't survive a round two of that.

 

[Kurwenal]

I wish I knew, so I could make it happen, and stop my needless dicking around. I suspect that if I drank just enough to make myself miserable, but not enough to impair motor skills, maybe that could set things in motion. I'd have to have some sort of foolproof method planned in advance, or at least a drunkproof method. I'm really coming to think I'm just that awful mix of a lazy bastard with someone who has that infuriatingly inextinguishable flicker of hope floating around incessantly. Perhaps if I douse that flicker in alcohol, that's getting me halfway there. But then I get even lazier when I drink.

I really am my own worst enemy, be it in life or death. I'll probably haunt my own grave just to spite myself, knowing me.

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

When it finally sinks in that my existence has a negative impact on my loved ones and other people.

 

[shironeko]

I don't know. I just wish I could end my suffering but I just can't do it. Even after many many impactful events.

Maybe someone can convince me.

I can't live blissfully in this world after all.

 

[chester]

What would be your breaking point? Your release/trigger to finally stop dicking around and just do it?

What would usually keep me from doing it is the quiet thought in the back of my head, that there still might be some hope. That maybe, if I try this or that, no matter how unlikely, then maybe it's worth giving it a chance. Let's face it, all of us have these thoughts, whether we like to admit it or not. We say we don't, because it would make us look stupid that we see a hypothetical path do recovery, we just don't want to walk it. And it makes people feel stuck.

Breaking point to me is not about being too tired or overwhelmed to try. A breaking point is a feeling that there's nothing left to try, that I'm fucked no matter what. Once it's strong enough, it kills the bargaining part of you. And once that part is dead, there's no SI, no hope, there's only a plan, or a plan to make a plan.

 

[zizzou]

I don't know. I just wish I could end my suffering but I just can't do it. Even after many many impactful events.

Maybe someone can convince me.

I can't live blissfully in this world after all.

I hear you. If my mom told me I could go I'd do it right now. My dad already told me he understood where I was coming from.

 

[FuneralCry]

If suicide wasn't a crime and peaceful death was made legal then I'd be long gone from this dreadful, torturous existence, I only continue to suffer as a result of being enslaved in this horrific anti-suicide world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what.

It's just all so terrible and cruel to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, all I want is peace from the mistake of existence and I always suffer from how I cannot just access a painless, guaranteed death to finally escape from the pain and suffering of this existence that just tortures existing beings, only non-existence is positive for me, I see it as so deeply undesirable to exist in every way, I'll always see existence as a abomination no matter what.

 

[chudeatte]

I will definitely do it if my mother decides to kick me out since im broke and have nowhere else to turn

 

[dead dav]

Tricky one maybe just need someone to push me that last bit

 

[Karera]

I think for me, I'm waiting 'til my Dad can no longer support me (house and feed me), I do not intend to and cannot be a functioning person, I simply do not have the desire to live in a world of such hurt and hate. Hope is all I can muster for a painless, ease, and quick end.

 

[arcticmonkey]

Once my lease ends lol, I'm not making real efforts to not end up homeless, but I'm most definitely not up to the challenges that homelessness will bring, so unless something crazy happens, like winning the lottery despite not participating in it, i will probably ctb soon.