Malaria

Malaria

If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
Feb 24, 2024
1,085
If I no longer struggled with mental illness and addiction problems
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
Nothing. I would hate to have to work for a living just to survive. I'd rather die
 
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falling_snow

falling_snow

Mage
Aug 9, 2023
516
Maybe if life treated me better.
 
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uzuf86

Too many mistakes and regrets
Jan 1, 2024
232
Nothing in my case, unfortunately. It's too late.
 
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davidtorez

davidtorez

Mage
Mar 8, 2024
547
New joints and no more osteoarthritis and tendonosis
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,945
For me existence was certainly never something desirable in the first place and I wouldn't wish to exist under any circumstances, I'd always see it as better that this existence disappears into nothingness and is forgotten about. I just don't have any interest in suffering for decades in this meaningless existence just to be inevitably be tormented by old age with no limit as to how much agony I can feel, to me existence is just so incredibly harmful, I find it such a horrific, terrible tragedy how life even exists at all. I just don't want to suffer in any way, I want peace from the futile and torturous burden of existing of a human, I only want non-existence.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
3,292
Having a healthy brain
 
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MyChoiceAlone

MyChoiceAlone

sleep deprived and/or drunk
Jul 23, 2023
1,212
at least 2 of my dogs back. won't even ask for my pains to be gone
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,163
If the girl I like became my girlfriend but that's not happening.
 
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sapphoslastpoem

sapphoslastpoem

Student
Jun 23, 2022
110
I don't think anything in this life could make me want to keep living. I was born with a predisposition to a ton of mental illnesses, in a family with untreated mental illness and rampant religious guilt so I was already set up for failure. My autistic tendencies made life miserable as a child—once I learned how to mask in middle/high school, that area became a bit more tolerable but I still had to deal with the horrors of being a queer person in a religious household and also being a woman surrounded by men who only wanted to take advantage of me. Then of course fucking Covid happened, the isolation combined with being stalked combined with unsupervised ketamine therapy—sent me into psychosis and I forgot everything I once knew about masking and appearing like a "socially adjusted" person. Now I'm being bullied and ostracized like I once was as a kid. Any small happiness that seems to pop up in my life is purely temporary, there's nothing in this life that makes things seem tolerable. I'll have to try again in the next life.
 
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Sad_Autistic_boy_101

Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
453
There's lots of things that I feel need to happen in order for me to want to live again. But these just feels so unrealistic/ unachievable.

- Getting my emotions back
- Having the right support in place
- Being able to limit exposure to toxic family members
- Unmasking my Autism and identity
- Finding the right therapy
- Having a purpose in life
- Having 1 friend
 
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ultrasharpy123456

Wizard
Aug 18, 2022
634
Being in my desired reality. I'd still kill myself of course but not right now
 
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Heartaches

Heartaches

Apologizing for my life and ever entering yours
May 6, 2021
261
If I wasn't myself
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,749
Nothing. I don't want anything from this world and life

I think life is bad and a prison

I think life is an evil imposition torture slavery prison.

I also think the same about existence this evil world, consciousness.
 
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SoulCage

SoulCage

Student
Dec 28, 2023
105
Nothing, there will always be pain and sacrifices involved. The good doesn't outweigh the bad.
 
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bonecollector

bonecollector

hikikomori not of my own will
Apr 12, 2023
11
nothing that is actually possible for me, but idealistically if i could become proficient at driving, advance from a 2nd grade education level, and have all of my physical disabilities cured within the next few months.
 
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emptymiku

emptymiku

bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru
Mar 27, 2023
126
my old best friend to come back to me
 
грустная сука

грустная сука

сладких снов~
Dec 24, 2023
48
Maybe going back several years.
 
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Zaya

Zaya

dead dreams, false hopes
May 3, 2023
122
Being loved, it wouldn't solve all my problems but it would make them much more bearable. Either that or become rich I guess
 
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EmptyHeaded

EmptyHeaded

Experienced
Jan 24, 2024
230
Nothing. Some people just aren't made for living, and there's nothing that can change that.
 
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hopemelodies

Member
Mar 14, 2024
6
I'm not sure, but there was a time when I was recovering in which my heart was filled with hope and I could see myself living a long, fulfilled life. Although, even at that state of mind I would often think about how I ruined my chances. I had a lot of potential, I know I'm a smart person and maybe even attractive, I'm young and I'm likable, I could have had everything. But I destroyed my body, I made bad choices who will haunt me forever and most of my traumas were consequential. If I didn't make the choice to destroy myself nothing so bad would've happened, but I did. If I could go back in time, before all of the scars, before I ruined my mother, this would make me want to live. I used to be a good person, a great daughter, an amazing friend. Now I'm hollow. If I could have the chance to do it again, I would live life to the fullest and make sure I keep watering my heat and worrying about others. Even if I still felt pain, I would keep on going. But now it's inevitable that my pain hurts others and I can't see anybody being able to truly love me when I'm stuck in this body and with all of this trauma. If nothing of this mattered, I would keep living regardless.
 
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cursedbynature64

Member
Feb 23, 2024
71
If my relationship was completely repaired and my autism could be cured
 
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lnlybnny

lnlybnny

the art of being alone
Jan 25, 2024
531
it isn't worth saying since i know it's laughable and too much of a fantasy
 
AbsurdAbyss

AbsurdAbyss

Lost, broken, empty, fragmented.
Mar 4, 2024
113
If life wasn't as deadly as it is, maybe. Death makes life worthless.
 
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juna

Exhausted...
Mar 4, 2024
189
A reason to live. I don't have any reason to live, I am in constant psychological pain due to my past traumas, I wish I had someone. Someone who could understand me, and be there for me. But I hope I will die this year and end this pain.
 
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hadenough58

Looking for Understanding
Mar 7, 2024
128
Nothing. I would hate to have to work for a living just to survive. I'd rather die
Strangely I find work a great distraction from my problem's and it is filling the empty time which is the most difficult. This is why I set myself goals that maybe little things to achieve to long haul trips to places I have convinced myself I need to see before I die?
It maybe that I am just finding reasons to delay the final act as I am to cowardly to do it but surely even I will exhaust the excuses eventually?
 
2ndme

2ndme

Member
Mar 15, 2024
60
i struggle a lot with my looks. i feel, if our bodies werent so impermeable and they could be changed in a meaningful way, i would want to live. i have things i want to do, but i cant just cant engage with life as i am now. i think ill never be functional or happy with myself
 
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