What would it take

[MM's the name]

What would it take to convince you to not end your life, friends?

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will end someday no matter what happens and under no circumstances would I ever want to suffer for decades on end just to die slowly and painfully from old age. Having the ability to exist truly is the most hellish, harmful imposistion that causes nothing but meaningless suffering, it's beyond tragic to me how life even exists at all, I find it beyond horrific how humans procreate even know nobody can suffer from never existing at all yet there is no limit as to how torturous this existence can get.

Suicide is all that feels rational to me as I don't want to suffer in any way, human existence is the most undesirable burden that I never would have chose, only death comforts me. I just wish for nothingness, I'd always prefer the true peace of non-existence over suffering so unnecessarily in this existence that was always so futile in the first place.

 

[ferrie]

Interesting thought experiment bc I'm not sure if there actually is anything. I guess a chance to start over, securely. If I could just pick up my life & move to a new city where I had security with a job, housing, and a support network & never had to interact with any of the people currently ruining my life ever again, I wouldn't have to ctb

 

[lizzywizzy09]

A time machine. But they don't exist of course so I'm fucked.

 

[howlercoaster]

I think if i entered in another relatioship i would easily achieve a level of emotional dependency in which i would not have the direct intention of dying. Not sufficiently for planning a method and effectively doing it.

 

[ImTelling]

If I get disability I can just rot in my room forever. Rent will be covered, drink will be covered, I'd completely isolate myself. I'd still cut, I'd still be extremely sad but the chances of CTB would be lowered.

However, I don't think I will get disability and it's far too late now.

 

[Forveleth]

Nothing. I'm done living. I'm mentally, physically, and emotionally drained. I don't care if you handed me $20 mil and told me the rest of my life will be a dream, I don't want to live it. At this point I don't even want to go to a happy afterlife because I just want to stop existing.

 

[divinemistress36]

If I get disability I can just rot in my room forever. Rent will be covered, drink will be covered, I'd completely isolate myself. I'd still cut, I'd still be extremely sad but the chances of CTB would be lowered.

However, I don't think I will get disability and it's far too late now.

As someone who is on disabilty after years of isolating yourself and bed rotting it will make you want to ctb even more

 

[ImTelling]

As someone who is on disabilty after years of isolating yourself and bed rotting it will make you want to ctb even more

How so? If you don't want to answer I understand.

 

[divinemistress36]

How so? If you don't want to answer I understand.

You will have all day to think about your issues after awhile you will become bored even with your hobbies and disabilty is such shit pay

 

[ImTelling]

You will have all day to think about your issues after awhile you will become bored even with your hobbies and disabilty is such shit pay

I'm sorry to hear about your experiences. :(

 

[sugarh1gh]

My partner who left me.

 

[last3mos]

It's too complicated. Competent treatment for severe PTSD would help, if I could get past the extra PTSD from medical mistreatment, but then I'd need to find a way to fit into this world as an autistic person, keep a roof over my head and food I can eat, deal with 25 years of dental neglect including two teeth that broke in half a few years ago, 6+ years of physical problems that have gotten worse since I lost medical care and housing. I don't want to live in this world. Most people are liars and hypocrites. It's the liars who survive. One of my disabilities became trendy during COVID and the state of care and support is non-existent. It already was before, but adding a truckload of misunderstanding on top didn't help. The way society treats vulnerable people is disgusting. The amount of judgement, the way we cut others down so we can thrive. The world was build on trauma and abuse, and still runs that way so it's not going to change. I don't understand how anyone wants to survive in this world.

So no, nothing would make me stay.
What's ludicrous is that I can't access assisted suicide.

 

[Vicolo cieco]

I'd have to turn into a completely different person.

 

[Criticalgeese]

10 million at the bare minimum to 100 million at most before my parents are gone. Could come from the lottery, sudden inheritance from an unknown family, a gift, or just sheer dumb luck at this point. I'd rather die than work or put any effort in life. Just the thought that I'll eventually be forced to work and interact with people or die fills me with such dread while being looked down on and kicked on by most people in the world for being a "burden to society". 99.9% of my problems will evaporate with the money. The 0.01% would be my physical and mental issues and I can tolerate it if I had the money.

 

[LaughingGoat]

Nothing that's possible in reality. For me, it would take removing the nature of emotional suffering and having objective meaning in the world, both things that don't exist.