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uuser1412

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Feb 28, 2026
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Do you know?
 
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KristineMC

KristineMC

I don't think; therefore I am not.
Oct 13, 2024
29
Involuntary committment needs to stop being a thing. I experienced it and feel like I can never heal as long as I live in a society that does not respect my human rights. I don't ever feel safe, not in my house, not anywhere, always the fear of being arrested and sent back again. I also cannot trust MH professionals and seeing any therapis/psychiatrist triggers nightmares about being detained. If only this could stop being a thing, then maybe I can actually try seeking help again and stand a chance at getting better.
 
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Spite

Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
454
I'll list a few that come to mind:

* Not having autism
* Having IRL friends
* Either not having to work at all, or working a dream job I absolutely love
* Being financially comfortable
* Living in a different part of the world where it's cooler
 
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ctwc

ctwc

Chasing a certain happiness that can never be
Jun 17, 2022
89
- Someone to talk to, only to just stay silent
- Something so different that the me right now cannot imagine.
 
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voc_89

voc_89

Specialist
Apr 10, 2023
316
For the voices to stop. I always in a state of worry, anxiousness, doubt, panic, fear, depression. The messages in my heard when going through these emotions, on repeat, is just to much. Sometimes they sre soft and bearable. But for the last few weeks it has been alot. Anyway, if that stops my life would be so much greater
 
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Pisceslilith

Pisceslilith

Student
Aug 19, 2019
163
A safety net, my own place, financial stability and independence
 
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[redacted]

Member
Apr 25, 2023
29
To stop working for good and maybe to lose my fear of talking
 
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extremelyugly

extremelyugly

Member
May 6, 2026
18
Being very attractive, would cure the cause of my misery. Then, maybe going to therapy, to remove old thoughts.
Never gonna happen.
 
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hurts2b

hurts2b

Tired
Mar 14, 2026
199
Some amount of money. Real privacy. A future that I can live out at my own pace. That's all I've ever wanted but it's not in the cards for me. If not for my survival instinct I'd be long gone.
 
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certified_idiot

certified_idiot

Future Lost Media
Dec 5, 2023
124
If we're talking about things that could actually happen, I'd need a proper support network, so I don't have to worry about money when my disabilities flare up. I have a lot of trouble talking to people and making friends, so I don't think this will happen.

If we're including things that can't happen, not being disabled in the first place and having supportive parents would be helpful. However, this would change my life so drastically, I don't think that person would truly be me anymore.
 
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Quietist

Quietist

🌹 šŸ—”ļø
Sep 6, 2024
308
Just being able to be functional as a human being.

With anyone outside of family, I've only ever been a weird ass, quiet, organic cardboard cut-out of a person.

I'd just like to be around people I can relate to and have a genuine interest in.

I've been afraid to get back on anti-depressants after over a decade of not being on them, even though I need them so badly.
 
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boyafraid

boyafraid

Is life over yet?
Oct 27, 2025
90
-Getting away from toxic parents
-Maybe medication? I tried some in the past but did not feel much different
-Socializing more
-Leaving the house more
-My brain not being such a mess lol

There are other things, but it's more personal ):
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Warlock
Nov 26, 2025
734
Being able to enjoy things again. I'm just not able to enjoy anything anymore.
 
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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
527
The symptoms of my borderline personality disorder being minimised and under my control.
 
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HollowSoul

HollowSoul

Member
Apr 14, 2026
48
- A job
- A romantic partner, someone who cares about me.
- Being able to move out from my parents house.
 
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calebzz1

calebzz1

What is it like to see single and clearly?
Jan 6, 2024
212
I need real, practical treatment that can directly improve my overall function and make my vision more stable.

No waiting, gimmicks or half-baked attempts.

I know my condition exactly and the mechanics make sense but there hasn't been a single provider who offered something to improve my symptoms across the board.

Atropine 1% sulfate was great for my blur but induced too many side effects.

I'll be getting disability benefits but have to abandon a lot of hobbies including the following:

1. Reading books.

2. Watching television shows and movies.

3. Playing video games.

Also, I will never be able to work or have the opportunity to continue to learn how to drive.

The only hobbies I can enjoy are listening to music, dancing and audiobooks since they don't require stable vision.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,310
I honestly dont know my meds dont seem to work

I guess im the one who's given up on me.
 
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troubled_puppet

troubled_puppet

New Member
Apr 29, 2026
2
if i could feel brave enough to go outside on my own, where i feel safe shopping for groceries, where i learn to drive, and phone calls are normal and not the end of my whole world, i feel like i'd feel a lot better about living my life and holding on. :/

right now though i feel like i'd have to travel back in time to fix the mistakes i made in the past, in order to not be suicidal for good.
 
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IWillSurvive

Member
Aug 28, 2023
24
Being able to feel strong positive feelings. I've been a bit too empty for too long.

If a temporary purpose that I care about came would be a nice thing.
 

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