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seeking2learn

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Aug 18, 2021
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What would be your last meal, last song you would listen to, last person you would talk to before you CTB.
 
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PinkSakura

PinkSakura

Rip Flower I'll never forget you </3 我想你花
Feb 8, 2021
137
Hmm don't know, maybe I'll eat chicken last
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
I'm not sure about my last meal anymore,I doubt I will feel hungry before I attempt suicide, i'll be too nervous.

For last song I would go either, I have nothing by Whitney Houston or streets of your town by the go-betweens.

Last person I talk to, not sure. Probably some people on here.
 
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Alwaysbadtime

Alwaysbadtime

Enlightened
Jun 28, 2021
1,158
No meal. No song. Talk to someone I hate.
 
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Cant go back

Man, I really f****d up
Apr 15, 2021
105
While I have a method already, the act itself will be spontaneous.

Last meal: none. I barely eat anymore and wouldn't have planned it out to say I want this before I die.
Last song: If I bring my phone I have a playlist but I might choose phoebe bridgers - I know the end (snl version) or cat power - the greatest as the last song.
Last person to talk to: My spouse, due to the argument we just had that would trigger my desire to ctb right then.

Fucked up right?
 
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sadpinky

Stargazer
Jun 10, 2021
202
It's kinda hard to answer this when everything feels like it's my last, I think back to the last week I spent with my partner before they CTB and I can only wish that this isn't what they were feeling
 
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RedEther

RedEther

Member
Sep 3, 2021
92
I try not to make a big thing of it. Itll be to obvious to everyone, and I might become to emotinal to keep going. One thing I def want to do is erase all my tracts to be sure none finds this sight, where I got the pills or my plans.
 
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seeking2learn

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Aug 18, 2021
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I'm not sure about my last meal anymore,I doubt I will feel hungry before I attempt suicide, i'll be too nervous.

For last song I would go either, I have nothing by Whitney Houston or streets of your town by the go-betweens.

Last person I talk to, not sure. Probably some people on here.
Both great songs.
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
I think I'm gonna try to make it casual: eat whatever I have in fridge, turn on some stupid reality tv and just try to distract myself from the scary thoughts.
 
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Walkingcorpse123

Walkingcorpse123

My only friend, the end
Jul 9, 2021
44
Some meat, no music just silence, No talking. I will try to not get too emotional will probably numb myself with antipsychotic drug called Olazapin it will function as AE also when I drink SN.
 
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LivideLamb

LivideLamb

I'm so decaying, feeling like an ashtray
Jan 5, 2020
368
No meal. I don't enjoy eating anymore, and I don't know why but I believe that not eating before ctb could make it a little cleaner (maybe I'm wrong ?)...
As the last song, I'll either listen to a playlist I've made and carefully picked, or to a vinyl of classical music. Maybe Liszt, Tchaikovsky, or Rachmaninov.
Since I don't have friends nor significant other, I think I'll just talk to no one. Maybe people online but that's it.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,805
Gotta fast, innit? Won't bring a phone so no music. Talk myself into doing it :pfff:
 
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seeking2learn

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Aug 18, 2021
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No meal. I don't enjoy eating anymore, and I don't know why but I believe that not eating before ctb could make it a little cleaner (maybe I'm wrong ?)...
As the last song, I'll either listen to a playlist I've made and carefully picked, or to a vinyl of classical music. Maybe Liszt, Tchaikovsky, or Rachmaninov.
Since I don't have friends nor significant other, I think I'll just talk to no one. Maybe people online but that's it.
Good choice of music.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,397
I would like to ctb far away from any people, somewhere isolated. In an ideal world, there would be no words said close to when I die. There is nothing that I want to hear.
I doubt I would feel like eating honestly. Eating is a chore these days.
My last song would be Funeral Cry by Dark Sanctuary. That is the song that comforts me and I can relate to it.
 
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Braindead Atheist

Braindead Atheist

Specialist
Oct 7, 2020
387
Last song would depend on my mood.i made a death play list. My last meal would probably be ice cream, cherry pie or doughnuts. Maybe something salty too.last person I talk to would be my favorite teacher, Mrs.Brun.
 
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