I think we all know this. Sometimes members just vanish and we worry about them. Some people perceive uncertainty as worse than for example a clear death. Personally I prefer uncertainty and the naive hope for an happy end for that person. Not sure what this tells about me.
At first one thing. This thread probably cannot give complete reassurance. However maybe some members want to share about potential reasons why they might quit the forum temporarily or forever.
I try to speculate about me. I think that I just decide one day to kill myself and hide those plans to the forum is unlikely. Personally I don't like goodbye threads. They are so tragic and I think sometimes words are unable to express the incredible injustice that many of us have to experience. This is at least how I perceive them. I don't plan to make one when I ctb but maybe my mind will change until that day. I think there are some developments which could force me to ctb soon. I try to postpone that as long as possible.
Fuck I deleted a huge part of the thread. So here we go again.
A possible scenario for me quitting the forum would be: Members would get doxxed and harrassed in a systematical way. I don't want to scare people. But strange things happened to this forum which I never saw coming. If such a scenario happened I think many people would quit and the reason would be obvious.
A more likely scenario would be: Me having accident. I think my physical health is quite good so I don't see an heartattack coming for me. But I could get involved in a car crash for example. Sometimes I am not fully attentative and don't fully perceive my environmemt. My racing thoughts sometimes distract me. So I would have to stay in the hospital.
Another possibility: Me having another psychosis. I already shared my threads with this forum when I was paranoid. But I never had a psychotic episode while posting. Sometimes I protect me in such a mental state and end the communication to strangers. I think this is a more likely scenario for me silently taking a break of this forum. Though usually my mania comes first and I would warn about the shit that will happen.
In case my VPN would not function or my country/provider would block this website even more aggresively I might had to take a break.
I think in the scenario I got bored by this forum I would openly speak about that. Or at least I would share such a sentiment. I have now suicidal thoughts since almost a decade. If they just vanished and I had a real happy end I don't know when I would quit this forum. The whole scenario is pretty unlikely. But also in such positive outcome I would share that probably in recovery section.
I have the feeling the deleted passage was better than that what I wrote afterwards. I am quite exhausted. I hope I can sleep well.
Which reasons would be the most likely ones if you silently quitted this forum? Noone of us can predict the future. So take the considerations with a grain of salt I guess.
At first one thing. This thread probably cannot give complete reassurance. However maybe some members want to share about potential reasons why they might quit the forum temporarily or forever.
I try to speculate about me. I think that I just decide one day to kill myself and hide those plans to the forum is unlikely. Personally I don't like goodbye threads. They are so tragic and I think sometimes words are unable to express the incredible injustice that many of us have to experience. This is at least how I perceive them. I don't plan to make one when I ctb but maybe my mind will change until that day. I think there are some developments which could force me to ctb soon. I try to postpone that as long as possible.
Fuck I deleted a huge part of the thread. So here we go again.
A possible scenario for me quitting the forum would be: Members would get doxxed and harrassed in a systematical way. I don't want to scare people. But strange things happened to this forum which I never saw coming. If such a scenario happened I think many people would quit and the reason would be obvious.
A more likely scenario would be: Me having accident. I think my physical health is quite good so I don't see an heartattack coming for me. But I could get involved in a car crash for example. Sometimes I am not fully attentative and don't fully perceive my environmemt. My racing thoughts sometimes distract me. So I would have to stay in the hospital.
Another possibility: Me having another psychosis. I already shared my threads with this forum when I was paranoid. But I never had a psychotic episode while posting. Sometimes I protect me in such a mental state and end the communication to strangers. I think this is a more likely scenario for me silently taking a break of this forum. Though usually my mania comes first and I would warn about the shit that will happen.
In case my VPN would not function or my country/provider would block this website even more aggresively I might had to take a break.
I think in the scenario I got bored by this forum I would openly speak about that. Or at least I would share such a sentiment. I have now suicidal thoughts since almost a decade. If they just vanished and I had a real happy end I don't know when I would quit this forum. The whole scenario is pretty unlikely. But also in such positive outcome I would share that probably in recovery section.
I have the feeling the deleted passage was better than that what I wrote afterwards. I am quite exhausted. I hope I can sleep well.
Which reasons would be the most likely ones if you silently quitted this forum? Noone of us can predict the future. So take the considerations with a grain of salt I guess.
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