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GoneGoneGone

Enlightened
Apr 1, 2020
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F*** you all
 
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itsamadworld

i wanna die somewhere like up there
Mar 15, 2020
410
Please let me rest in peace....
 
Deathcabforugly

Deathcabforugly

Member
Apr 25, 2020
72
See you soon (to my wife that passed last July)
 
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Musketeer

Student
Jan 24, 2020
188
That will be all... Peace Out!
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honestly I have always been non-chelate about death in general including my own.
 
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RepressedMind

Miss the full ability to think
Apr 24, 2020
160
I was forced and everyone was wrong.
 
Kikoo Loool

Kikoo Loool

Enlightened
Feb 25, 2019
1,128
Depending on an hypothetical partnership: "I love you".
 
Despondent

Despondent

Archangel
Dec 20, 2019
6,777
I would wish my last words to be something beautiful as I make my exit but realistically it'd probably be "Oh, shit"

Or I remember something that I forgot to do that was really important
 
TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

Visionary
Aug 27, 2018
2,999
Maybe nothing but probably either one of these

Let me be a child again or let me wake up as a child again or I wanna be a child again

or this one with the explanation of my interpretation of it below each bold line

"You are waiting for a train"
You are waiting to die by train, gunshot, hanging etc.

"A train that will take you far away"
It will take me all the way back to my amazing childhood which was so many years ago

"You hope where this train will take you"
My childhood

"But you can´t know for sure, but it doesn´t matter, now tell me why"
Because even if I don´t wake up as a child again from this nightmare I will just seize to exist and free myself from this pain
 
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a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

velle non discitur
Nov 17, 2019
1,831
Maybe nothing but probably either one of these

Let me be a child again or let me wake up as a child again or I wanna be a child again

or this one with the explanation of my interpretation of it below each bold line

"You are waiting for a train"
You are waiting to die by train, gunshot, hanging etc.

"A train that will take you far away"
It will take me all the way back to my amazing childhood which was so many years ago

"You hope where this train will take you"
My childhood

"But you can´t know for sure, but it doesn´t matter, now tell me why"
Because even if I don´t wake up as a child again from this nightmare I will just seize to exist and free myself from this pain
Love inception, and your interpretation of it.
 
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TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
2,999
Love inception, and your interpretation of it.
I love that movie too especially because of I maybe believe life could be a simulation so by killing ourselves we would wake up like in the movie with the train scene but most likely we will just seize to exist.

I´m glad you like my interpretation of it because despite being an atheist I really wanna believe I will wake up in the heavenly world of my childhood when I kill myself so when I watch that train suicide scene I just can´t help to interpret my way that as they say in the movie take a leap of faith which I essentially are doing by ctb.

I know I rant about it a lot about my amazing childhood and I am sure some people on this site are tired of me talking about it all the time but I was so happy back then, life was so exciting and fun I had a ton of friends, hobbies, passions, hopes and dreams and no physical or mental problems and there was a whole world to explore everything was fun anything from studying insects, plants or climp trees god I miss how much fun it was climbing trees life was so simple and fun

Now as an adult even without my physical and mental problems it seems there is too much work for so little reward compared to then I just want to be trapped in an endless loop of my childhood where every time I would hit puberty my life would reset and play over again in a never ending loop exactly as it was of course with a clean mind that would be heaven for me.

I have aspergers so I am sure that might have something to do with how much I hate growing older and things changing I am 26 I feel so old even have a few wrinkles in my forehead I see so many previous friend´s and aquintances now looking so much older than they did as teenagers and dozens of them now has children and it scares the shit out of me seeing how old we have become I remember already at the age of 18 that was the first time a friend I knew got her first child and it freaked me out that people from my youth already had begun to have children of their own meanwhile I was/am yearning for my own childhood.

I also save screenshots of the "memories" option on facebook where it shows what you shared on Facebook on that day and it hurts so much to see all those friends I used to have and seeing it saying it was 8,9,10 even 11 years ago a certain event happened and when I inspect the likes or comments there are literally DOZENS of previous friends and aquintances who has unfriended me and it hurts so much, I just wanna be young again and have a life I can´t handle watching everyone I knew as a child or teenager grow older and older it´s just too much so I wanna take a leap of faith and kill myself if I wake up as a child again that would be amazing, if I just seize to exist my suffering is over no more dealing with my physical and mental problems or life itself.
 
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HappyEnding

HappyEnding

Member
Mar 23, 2019
85
I think I'd be silent since I am a generally quiet person.
 
Shero

Shero

Experienced
Dec 19, 2019
274
"Im out, Beeeeech".
 
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porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
I would cry for my mom and hope to see her when I go.
 
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Lostkitten1

Member
Apr 28, 2020
79
Probably the closing verse of either I Dreamed a Dream from Les Mis, or For Good from Wicked. Pretty much sums up the last few months of existence
 

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