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idelttoilfsadness21

idelttoilfsadness21

turning my back towards death
Jan 6, 2025
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Dreams fade, humans grow, but the inner child never goes away. Share your dreams and how you can romanticize them.

I'll go first.

I wanted to be an architect or a singer, and I am not, but I still somewhat pretend like I'm taking notes, studying, reading, and it makes me feel a bit happy through get the day done and started and puts me back into when it all happened. I stay focused in waking up and stay giving myself some peace of mind to energize the feeling and process or music helps when it's related to what I picture in my head as an architect, I give myself room to just do the little tasks, and for the singing part, I always do vocalizing lessons and put some time to allowing the instrumentals I like to be song while allowing the lyrics to grow through my harmonies and tones when I sing. I am still working to perfect this but a simple romanization makes it feels the soul a bit! ((:
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

I'm ready for Hell
Oct 21, 2024
164
I grew up wanting to be a train engineer. Never happened, but to this day I will sit and watch trains go by wishing I was the one driving it.
 
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raskol1980

raskol1980

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Aug 16, 2022
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I wanted to be an American cop (from uk) It always seemed so glamorous and dangerous and you got a gun! That's one of my dreams I'm glad I didn't follow...
Genuinely though, a close family member (my offing mum) told me around 12 that I seemed like one of those people who would just float through life and be fine. Made a big deal about it being my path. Not needing to focus, I mean it's not her fault I did lol but I did and am now 42 in a homeless shelter organising the end of my like. Alone in a shared hose with a raging alcoholic who is apparently a rapist too!

... I feel I've changed the tone of this thread ignore me :D
 
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overcastdays

overcastdays

I'm not that sick, just a little horse.
Dec 4, 2024
7
Since I'm too lazy to really write anything, I'll just copy and paste a message I sent during a conversation I had with a friend regarding my former dreams for the future.

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I'm not too sure. I've had a general direction I've felt like I've wanted to go towards for a while, this being some broad focus on some type of physics or engineering related field (as far as engineering goes, maybe mechanical, civil, transportation, materials, systems, safety, or nuclear, the last of which I really want, since anything in the nuclear/particle field has always been sort of a dream of mine for the past few years), though I've kind of given up on the pure science aspect of it because I'm just kind of stupid and not an innovator of any sort which is why I've pivoted to the engineering side (though as far as that goes, I used to think maybe a particle, nuclear, condensed matter, or astro physics sort of field). I also have some weird "shot in the dark" interests like something in the linguistics field or something, on the other hand, maybe a historian, or archaeologist, as these topics interest me as well. Way back when, the field that interested me the most was biology, so I sometimes wonder what would have happened if I stuck with that interest instead, and even earlier, I wanted to be an architect, which I suppose is kinda funny since it's come full circle with the whole civil engineering thing, at least sort of.

So, in short, everything I really do want is just some far off, poorly defined and distant dream. So, no, I don't really know what I want either. I don't know. I don't really have a purpose in life anymore, I don't know what I want at the moment, and I don't know when I will, and if it will be too late by then, or not. I guess I just want to be proud of myself.

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I suppose I do romanticize many of these careers to varying degrees, I've always admired the "field" of science to varying degrees, drifting from field to field, and I guess I've settled on admiring physics as of late. It's just so incredibly fascinating to me, how people in this field do all sorts of things, are able to come up with the most cutting-edge technologies of our species, are able to, via some idealization, map out and define every interaction between bodies of matter both big and small, and further our understanding of the fundamental characteristics of our universe. It's something that I, in my idiocy and lack of ability to enter the field myself, look upon in absolute awe and amazement, a field I am absolutely dumbstruck, blinded by, and that I idolize and admire so much.
 
GalacticWarrior777

GalacticWarrior777

Recovering, slowly but surely from this mess.
Sep 24, 2024
149
As a child, I always dreamt about living a peaceful and quiet life with the friends from my childhood (Who I sadly no longee have contact with), travel around the world with them, have fun and enjoy our lives as much as possible. Nowadays, I still dream about living a peaceful life, with a couple friends ( or possibly a girlfriend, if I ever do find one). Im recovering, but I believe that im shy by character and not due to my trauma and mental problems. I also always dreamt of having tons of cats in that house as I love just how cozy and lovely cats are, especially cuddling with cats!
 

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