Discussion What was your suicidailty like before this site?

[fuewybfunsfoiceoi]

Before I came across sasu I was quite naive about suicide. Had in mind many methods that wouldn't work, ie vsed, dehydration, heatstroke, etc.

I was also more isolated in my ideology before the site, it's good to be here.

Every unconventional method has a thread discussing it, convenient

 

[SunriseParabellum]

I was more or less the same, like you said I was definitely more naive on how to make it work, hence the 3 failed prior attempts
It's almost helpful to know I'm not alone with it all. Like don't get me wrong, I feel awful that ANYONE is here and wish everyone the peace and happiness they deserve but knowing there's a whole community out there fighting separately but together just to get through the day is a big help. This might sound dumb as hell honestly but that's my thoughts on it

 

[Redacted24]

I was more suicidal, and ignorant before... and felt really isolated and alone.
This site has given me a sense of community and acceptance that the real world has not.
I'm trying to pull through the ideation.
Being here helps me with that.

 

[Lola18]

Think 3 years ago I was at my most suicidal and hoping I can get to that level again to go through with it

 

[locked*n*loaded]

My suicidality hasn't really changed. When I found SaSu, my method was stupid and full of errors and I probably would have irreparably damaged myself in some way with my plan as it was. With information contained within this forum, I was able to modify my plan and turn it into something workable, and now I have high confidence in it being successful when the time arrives.

 

[Forveleth]

I got here after failing an attempt I thought would work. I was looking for advice on a better method. I have been suicidal for 2/3 of my life, long before I found this site, so it really has not changed anything for me. At least now I am far less likely to get brain damage from attempting something stupid.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I've had ideation since I was 10. This site hasn't made me anymore suicidal. It was already intense while I was looking for methods a few years back and came across it.

This site has given me a sense of community and support that I doubt I would have found anywhere else.

 

[Well_Its_Time]

I find that people here don't judge me. I would have ended up braindead. I also learn a lot of things from this community. I hope I can end it soon

 

[billie]

i'm chronically suicidal

 

[areyousafe??]

I've had suicidal ideation since I was a teenager. I'm at my worst now after a horrible 2024, and started doing research into SN, which led me to Sasu. I've shifted from passive suicidal thoughts to actively planning my death.

 

[tiredtired]

ive had on off ideation for most of my life. i was first going to attempt when i was a kid. i found sasu only because i was researching into methods anyway.

it's actually quite a nice community, and the support makes me feel less alone in how horrendous every single day is. i hope we can all make it without ctb

 

[justanotherloser]

Before this site i had several failed attempts. At least one that damaged my liver and another my GI tract.
Being on this site I feel that I won't fit in anywhere. Always have terrible timing in trying to reach out or make friends. And I will never belong even to people of a like mind. It's made me try a different style, and thus I'm still here. Idk how else I could fail at life- even failing to end it.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

That's a really interesting question! I've not been suicidal for most of my life but somehow it was clear to me that suicide is an option in certain circumstances (e.g. terminal illness, big failure in life, terrible life circumstances before the actually occur and so on). Long before even knowing about SaSu and when my personal circumstances required thinking about suicide methods I chose the CO method with charcoal. As an alternative (that doesn't need too much preparations there always has been the cyanide option which is pretty quick but said to be not that peaceful - but it's very effective and quick!

I wasn't suicidal for most of my life but in the emergency case I would have had suitable methods.

 

[Darkover]

i first became suicidal back when i was 18 after relationship breakup back in 2005 long before this site existed i've been suicidal ever since because i haven't been able to get another girlfriend for year's although my suicidality now comes from a injury i got 8 years ago to both my ears and brain that i got from using big headphones while addicted to weed listening to loud drum and bass

 

[bananaolympus]

I already attempted suicide years ago before i became a lurker then a member of this site

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

It's only when I became actively suicidal for the first time really, that I stumbled on this site. So maybe a few weeks before I joined, I seriously wanted to end things and realised I needed Google's help in making that happen.

 

[sammiechzxv]

Funny enough I was significantly worse before coming here. Lol

 

[waterbaby100]

It's was more manic ...and less well informed. I had a bad experience with anti depressants that made me very suicidal. I thought a short stay in hospital would help. It had the opposite effect. But it did make me sure that when I cbt I will succeed as I'm not going back to hospital

 

[owl_culture]

It was more on and off for the past decade but right before this site I decided that i will go through with it once I finish up what I want to accomplish first.