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CTBed
- Aug 24, 2019
- 919
what was your original method before SS if you had one?
blueclover_.
Better Never to Have Been: 2006, David Benatar
- Oct 11, 2021
- 667
Full suspension hanging. Glad I've never attempted before cuz it would've been a painful death since I didn't know the informations needed to make it painless.
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Thequietone
Student
- Dec 4, 2021
- 121
I plan to OD with sleeping pills someday. But I also think about partial hanging.
Maybe I try OD first so someone saves me and I maybe get better and after I try partial hanging and will be 99% dead if it works.
I still think I need to commit so it could get better? Idk
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1st attempt, paracetamol overdose(about 20 yr ago)
2nd cutting wrists ( about 20 year ago too)
3rd night night, too strong SI. And couldn't do it plus don't like stuff around my neck
3rd amitryptaline overdose, nearly succeeded but found and spent 5 days in icu ( didn't plan on getting found so early)
Now: N with plenty of time not to get found.
2nd cutting wrists ( about 20 year ago too)
3rd night night, too strong SI. And couldn't do it plus don't like stuff around my neck
3rd amitryptaline overdose, nearly succeeded but found and spent 5 days in icu ( didn't plan on getting found so early)
Now: N with plenty of time not to get found.
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I don't know what you mean but if you mean you want to OD just so someone saves you...I'm sorry but that's selfish. Don't involve any more people in your CTB than you have to.
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cambrai33
Traveller
- Nov 3, 2021
- 385
Machete through the heart and hanging, bit of a coordination nightmare but failure isn't something I want to happen.
I have a few methods prepared now but would love to feature the machete still but don't want to be at the expense of more reliable avenues
I have a few methods prepared now but would love to feature the machete still but don't want to be at the expense of more reliable avenues
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PrincessInWhite
I just want to sell out my funeral
- Feb 21, 2019
- 641
It has changed so many times, my original methods way back when were things that would have just left me with organ damage or more problems than I started with- things like OD on pills.
Obviously I wanted N, but I am not willing to deal with the dark web, bitcoin, or the consequences from LE. I planned on SN back in 2019, but the peaceful factor remains highly variable in my opinion, and also if you survive and end up moving forward with life you're pretty much guaranteed cancer down the line. I do still possess the SN I purchased that year which has remained unopened and temperature stable but I doubt I will ever use it.
Lately I have been torn between partial and exit bag. I am able to get the right position for partial, however it's EXTREMELY hard to ignore the survival instinct that tells you to stand up, at least for me. i don't know that I can be successful in it.
My best friend in the world took her life a few years ago with the exit bag after years of fighting a crippling degenerative physical illness and trying everything under the sun including ketamine treatments out of pocket. I do think this is how I'll leave. I have a basic enough understanding and none of my physical conditions affect my dexterity (only my ability to stand/walk and move around) so I can easily do the physical maneuvering needed- my concern lies in the fact that it's a very technical method and Im worried about the set up. I am exhausted, i averaged 1.5 hours of sleep a night this year and did not once sleep longer than 4 hours so my brain is pretty fried. I also am unsure where I will carry this method out, I hear the tank hissing is loud and I don't live alone.
The main takeaway here is that there is no method of taking one's life that doesn't come with significant risks, be it to health, legal issues, or a combination of both. This is why I so deeply wish I could apply for MONITORED EUTHANASIA- I would gladly offer proof that I have tried all the medications and therapies and treatments and supplements and programs out there with my myriad of physical and mental illnesses and, I would gladly show how I still have zero quality of life or ability to take care of or provide for myself. I understand this is not a decision to be made lightly. I don't want total chaos where everyone is allowed to off themselves at the first sign of trouble, I want a system that actually offers help to people and then has a way out with guidelines requiring how much you must try before giving up (many people can't even try the therapies and treatments needed for their illness, they simply do not have access financially or otherwise. So that needs to be changed).
I am not someone who is depressed over a breakup 2 months ago or has led a good life and ran into trouble the last year. I have suffered progressively and immensely my entire life, excessively so in the past decade, and acutely even more so this last year. My whole body completely fell apart in a way that is measurable with objective tests and measures. Am I terminal? Technically no. But I should have the right to choice how much more I want to suffer through with my illnesses because they have robbed me of everything I ever was, so it might as well be terminal.
Sorry for the rant this ended up becoming!
Obviously I wanted N, but I am not willing to deal with the dark web, bitcoin, or the consequences from LE. I planned on SN back in 2019, but the peaceful factor remains highly variable in my opinion, and also if you survive and end up moving forward with life you're pretty much guaranteed cancer down the line. I do still possess the SN I purchased that year which has remained unopened and temperature stable but I doubt I will ever use it.
Lately I have been torn between partial and exit bag. I am able to get the right position for partial, however it's EXTREMELY hard to ignore the survival instinct that tells you to stand up, at least for me. i don't know that I can be successful in it.
My best friend in the world took her life a few years ago with the exit bag after years of fighting a crippling degenerative physical illness and trying everything under the sun including ketamine treatments out of pocket. I do think this is how I'll leave. I have a basic enough understanding and none of my physical conditions affect my dexterity (only my ability to stand/walk and move around) so I can easily do the physical maneuvering needed- my concern lies in the fact that it's a very technical method and Im worried about the set up. I am exhausted, i averaged 1.5 hours of sleep a night this year and did not once sleep longer than 4 hours so my brain is pretty fried. I also am unsure where I will carry this method out, I hear the tank hissing is loud and I don't live alone.
The main takeaway here is that there is no method of taking one's life that doesn't come with significant risks, be it to health, legal issues, or a combination of both. This is why I so deeply wish I could apply for MONITORED EUTHANASIA- I would gladly offer proof that I have tried all the medications and therapies and treatments and supplements and programs out there with my myriad of physical and mental illnesses and, I would gladly show how I still have zero quality of life or ability to take care of or provide for myself. I understand this is not a decision to be made lightly. I don't want total chaos where everyone is allowed to off themselves at the first sign of trouble, I want a system that actually offers help to people and then has a way out with guidelines requiring how much you must try before giving up (many people can't even try the therapies and treatments needed for their illness, they simply do not have access financially or otherwise. So that needs to be changed).
I am not someone who is depressed over a breakup 2 months ago or has led a good life and ran into trouble the last year. I have suffered progressively and immensely my entire life, excessively so in the past decade, and acutely even more so this last year. My whole body completely fell apart in a way that is measurable with objective tests and measures. Am I terminal? Technically no. But I should have the right to choice how much more I want to suffer through with my illnesses because they have robbed me of everything I ever was, so it might as well be terminal.
Sorry for the rant this ended up becoming!
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obliviousatbest
atrophy
- Nov 10, 2021
- 67
My first attempt I took 64 paracetemol and got committed to psych. These days, if I choose to exit during the winter I'll poison myself with yew while it's at peak toxicity, or else throw myself off Beachy Head during the longer summer months
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wanttogetonthebus
chronically unlucky
- Nov 27, 2021
- 405
LOL Probably because they weren't members of SS
Here, we have the knowledge to do it right.My original method was partial suspension, followed by SN, and now it's N - the golden standard.
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Rayzieka
Not Really Here
- Apr 28, 2021
- 637
Hmmm I guess I would've opted to hang myself since I tried partial a few times. I tried overdosing before as well and that was a nightmare.
Overdosing is probably the worst pain I've experienced.
When I was younger though I assumed you could easily die from blood loss but luckily I heard a lot of failure stories before I caused damage to a visible part of my body.
Now I'm pretty comfortable with SN. Though as anyone else I'd rather have N.
Overdosing is probably the worst pain I've experienced.
When I was younger though I assumed you could easily die from blood loss but luckily I heard a lot of failure stories before I caused damage to a visible part of my body.
Now I'm pretty comfortable with SN. Though as anyone else I'd rather have N.
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