My reason is probably not as bad as most people on this forum, but I would say my turning point was multiple career failures in the span of 4 years, but it was do to my depression that I have had since I was 15, now I'm 27, failing these jobs, always having mental breakdowns in public, and during my jobs. Last year was my breaking point. I finally had gotten a job that required a HS Diploma/ GED, witch that I got in October of 2017. Also, 2018, had quite a few people in my life pass away, and that also took a big toll on my mind. So since last year up till now, my mental state has worsened, especially since I have been a bernit for a bit over a year. Also, doesnt help that throughout my life, I had a few accidents that took a toll on my body, accidents that should have killed me but didn't. Now I am a 27 year old that feels like I have the body of a 57 year old. So since last year up till now, I have been a hermit in my apartment, have only left the property maybe 7 times throughout 2019, so since I do not go out, my mentality has worsened, and my body has become somewhat fragile, it feels like if someone flicked me, that I would crumble into dust. And with all that, I am not mentally capable of working nor physically, so yea, even though this is hardly nothing compared to everyone else, it is still a bad enough reason for me to want to ctb.