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freefrommybody

Vehemently Pro-choice
Nov 19, 2019
115
Please discuss. It can weeks, months, days, years- any period of time that stands out as the best of your life.
 
porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
I would say from June 2018 til June 2019.
I went to a teacher conference that was mind blowing and got me pumped about teaching, moved to a lake with mountains, joined a bunch groups and started hobbies I love, dance, etc... there was roommate and boy drama, but I have never been so in touch with my positive self as much before. I was extremely organized and clean and stylish more than ever. I felt like a goddess.


And then I decided to leave ... and worst I've ever been in my life.
 
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TheEndof

TheEndof

It's getting dark and it's getting cold
Dec 31, 2019
146
Hard to say. Just about every period of my life has been marked by some form of intense depression or anxiety. I guess the period that stands out the most are ages 13 almost 14 to just about 15. I had some support and the future didn't seem quite as dim. I was still struggling, but it wasn't anything unbearable. Things started to go to shit shortly after I turned 15. I moved and lost what little support I had.
 
enjoy

enjoy

Creature
Dec 20, 2019
337
when i was with my ex.

i still suffered from severe mental illness, but she made me want to wake up in the morning.

she was all i had left. she was the last remaining piece of my purpose puzzle.

now, i'm here.
 
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APharmaDestroyedLife

APharmaDestroyedLife

Your RX drugs are likely your real problem
Nov 4, 2019
305
31 to 41 everything was perfect. In love and loved. Healthy both physically and mentally even more than I was even in my 20's.
 
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Throwawaysoul

Throwawaysoul

Wizard
May 14, 2018
606
My 20's, 1999 - 2008ish. The internet was young and magical. I was a low level drug dealer, no real job, or responsibilities, I had "friends", always on the go, never a dull moment. Everyday was a new hustle. Then everyone grew up, died or disappeared except me.
 
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2manyproblems

Member
Jan 4, 2020
53
Never really. Some moments were better than others. 2009-2010. Though that was extremely depressing, it was before I acquired any of my problems that make life no longer an option for me. Now would be pretty ok if I didn't screw up my life so much and if my financial situation was tolerable which it's not.
 
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Lotus

Lotus

Experienced
Dec 17, 2019
234
I thought to myself 'what a nice thread!', but it's actually quite depressing because I can't think of a time in my life I have been genuinely happy. I thought I was somewhat happy between 2012 and 2013, but when I look back at it I realize that everything I did was just a defence mechanism. I did well by performing my best, but I wasn't happy or doing well at all.

I remember getting some internet friends in the middle of my teenage years though. That felt kind of nice. I was able to just be myself and not worry about the things happening in my life.
 
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Nogodallchaos

Nogodallchaos

Member
Oct 30, 2019
27
April 2017 to April 2018, when I was at a boarding school and actually managed to make some friends in my always lonely life and met some beautiful people and a girl I could share my depression with and joke about it and yell and laugh about how everything sucked and how life was shit. Then of course being depressed I didn't study/couldn't go to class and dropped out after a year, just as my depression and life was getting a bit more tolerable.
 
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LivingToLong

Experienced
Feb 23, 2019
259
This is such a difficult question to answer because I really can't remember any period of time that I'd call the best. I think I've just existed for most of my life, existed in a kind of almost blank way. I suppose I figure that's how we all exist. I guess I've had periods of relative contentment, but there's never been a time when I've felt 'this is it!'

I have been happy, sometimes very happy, I know that, but it's been on occasions and not a continuous thing. I know I've done stuff that I'm proud of and has made me feel good about myself, but it's moved on and 'normal service' has been resumed. I certainly couldn't point to a period of time of sustained happiness. That's not to say I've been sad either. As I say, just 'existed' with no real passions or desires.

Further, for me, happiness is a temporary state. An elevated one. I know it will pass and I will be back to my blankness when it's over. Not sad, just blank.
 
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Bleak Stoic

Bleak Stoic

Goodbye, Cruel World.
Dec 22, 2019
40
I guess my childhood. Ignorance is truly bliss, when you're a kid you don't have the ability to really reflect and realize your future will be miserable.
 
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2manyproblems

Member
Jan 4, 2020
53
I guess my childhood. Ignorance is truly bliss, when you're a kid you don't have the ability to really reflect and realize your future will be miserable.
You have so many false hopes before you get older and realize none of those things were ever going to happen for you and your life will be miserable. If only I'd known I could have made some better decisions I think.
 
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Merith

Merith

Member
Oct 24, 2019
97
2017 was a year of utopia until everything started becoming increasingly unbearable in the subsequent years of 2018 and 2019. It was honestly a great year all around. I hope 2020 can be the same.
 
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Finis Autem Spero

Finis Autem Spero

Dec 30, 2019
259
Despite being more or less homeless, heavily into self-harm and aware that all the friendships I was making were shallow, summer of 2006 hanging out with all the other weird kids in Leeds at the Corn Exchange are some of my best memories.
 
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Jul 31, 2018
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Post 94 after uni. I travelled, worked, chased girls (OK most of them ran away) and woke up in some very odd places. I was ten foot tall and bulletproof. Of course I was usually very very drunk.
 
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Freedom Believer

Freedom Believer

Forever alone.
Dec 23, 2019
351
Elementary school. Back when I had friends (I think) and when I was still happy all the time without having to worry about everything all the time.
 
hershberger

hershberger

Student
Dec 28, 2019
129
2011-2016. I had a job I tolerated, and I was good at it. My wife was happy with me, my daughters were unaware of my problems, and I felt like I was a productive member of society. That was nice.
 
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lucid

lucid

antinatalist specialist
Jun 29, 2019
177
Almost everything up until 2014, nothing really specific as it was pretty average.
During 2014, I lost my grandfather, my father who meant almost everything to me, contact with my IRL friends, in 2016 my grandmother and went through two breakups over 2018 and 2019.

All I ask for is a peaceful 2020 with no "special" events if not anything good.
 
Source Energy

Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
705
My first year in the United States. The only dream that came true. It has been magical!

About a year and a half - when the person I loved half my life was around.

The rest...I could press the "Delete" tab on all pictures of my life
 
WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,415
Probably 2014-2015 when I was in a relationship that distracted me from my dysphoria for a bit. Had to end it though and it was for the best since I'd probably grow jealous of her.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,393
I don't even have one, I've never wished to endure existence and I've never felt content even being here at all. I simply dislike existing and I've always seen it as being something undesirable and not worth enduring. All my memories from the past are of wanting to die.
 
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timetosleep

Member
Feb 19, 2019
61
When I am sleeping and don't have to deal with the nightmare of being alive.
 
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