deathtomyKNEES
Member
- Oct 5, 2024
- 9
whenever i hear them say...
"Are you okay?"
"Im worried"
I feel empty, sometimes angry.
They just utter those words when im not okay, and whenever i wanna answer them with honesty i just cant. I dont wanna be harsh saying all of you made me feel alone, showde me i dont matter, your so called "tough love" put so much hatred in me.
I didnt receive praises when i accomplished anything, all i hear are complaints, lectures, shitty advices, a ton of scolding even from the tiniest problems. Even my hobby of playing basketball seems like a bad thing to do.
Its the only activity that keeps my sanity in check.
Why cant you even ask how my day was on a regular day?
Only reaching out when everything seems to fall apart just to give me a lecture.
Im burned out.
Im in a bad place.
Head needs some thinking space.
Heart full of rage.
I cant control my emotions.
Im crying, im laughing, im mad, im empty.
Head hurts all the time.
Lack of sleep at night.
I f*ckin hate it.
"Are you okay?"
"Im worried"
I feel empty, sometimes angry.
They just utter those words when im not okay, and whenever i wanna answer them with honesty i just cant. I dont wanna be harsh saying all of you made me feel alone, showde me i dont matter, your so called "tough love" put so much hatred in me.
I didnt receive praises when i accomplished anything, all i hear are complaints, lectures, shitty advices, a ton of scolding even from the tiniest problems. Even my hobby of playing basketball seems like a bad thing to do.
Its the only activity that keeps my sanity in check.
Why cant you even ask how my day was on a regular day?
Only reaching out when everything seems to fall apart just to give me a lecture.
Im burned out.
Im in a bad place.
Head needs some thinking space.
Heart full of rage.
I cant control my emotions.
Im crying, im laughing, im mad, im empty.
Head hurts all the time.
Lack of sleep at night.
I f*ckin hate it.
