What thoughts help you when thinking about ctb

[Daystavro]

To me what helps me is this thought.
Yes, I"ll be dead forever after I ctb but at least I won't be the only one who is dead forever.
I'll be joining millions upon millions who have already ctb and are now dead forever.
Avicii, kurt cobain, chris cornell, anthony bourdain, and all the other millions who are unknown.

 

[VincentValentine]

That the struggle of life will be over and I won't have to worry about it anymore. That I will no longer be a participant in an unfair world.

 

[diyCTB]

If they can do it, so can I and that no longer will have to bear discomfort that I have.

 

[Paulsmith]

Life would be over.no more stubbornly pains and disasters

 

[Help_Me]

Life would end. No more both mental and psychosomatic pain, no more thoughts, no more suffering, no more duties / responsibility for anything. My gf's complaints and attempts to make my life worse will be at absolute zero. I feel myself as a winner by thinking of suicide

 

[Bringmepeace]

Life would end. No more both mental and psychosomatic pain, no more thoughts, no more suffering, no more duties / responsibility for anything. My gf's complaints and attempts to make my life worse will be at absolute zero. I feel myself as a winner by thinking of suicide

This, this is exactly it for me, all I think about is theat I won't be a burden anymore especially for my ex. Thinking this just instantly calms me down

 

[worldexploder]

The pain will finally end and all my problems would be solved.

 

[Daystavro]

No, sorry let me rephrase that.

I meant to say what thoughts help you to deal with the fear of ctb

 

[Jaded]

It's the circle of life. My brain and head are a mess and I need to do it

 

[TiredHorse]

I meant to say what thoughts help you to deal with the fear of ctb

Nothing articulate, really. Just the awareness that I will no longer feel this all-pervasive, overwhelming pain.

 

[MAIO]

To me what helps me is this thought.
Yes, I"ll be dead forever after I ctb but at least I won't be the only one who is dead forever.
I'll be joining millions upon millions who have already ctb and are now dead forever.
Avicii, kurt cobain, chris cornell, anthony bourdain, and all the other millions who are unknown.

You will also be dead forever with everyone who has ever died for any reason from dimentia to old age. Our notion of one life seems to be incorrect anyways. Most close to all of the molecules in your brain and body replace through out life span with copies of themselves and this idea we have of cousiousness/ego is probably wrong.

 

[Goldie]

It's the circle of life. My brain and head are a mess and I need to do it

It's the ciiiiiiiiiircle of liiiiiiifeeeee!
Sorry BIG Lion King fan.
I actually played the part of Rafiki at a school production when I was 11. I can can do the solo African chant at the beginning.

 

[onewayroad]

This suffering will come to an end

 

[Rocky M]

What helps is knowing that I will be making someone special happy. That's all I want. For her to know that I am sorry and that all I want is for her to be happy

 

[WaitingForTheBus]

After today, I literally have no fear of ctb. I am sorry for the heart ache i will leave behind, but I am more than confident my journey will be peaceful and quick.

 

[wanttodie]

That my life will be over wont have to live any more be glad when my life is over

 

[NemoZeno]

I normalize thoughts of suicide/death much to the consternation/disappointment/objection of mental health professionals.

It's normal to complain about traffic even though it is well known you can't really do much about it. Still, people complain away.
It's the same with my mortality and (my( existence.

"Ah fuck, I woke up which means I'm still alive/in the simulation/whatever. Just X more months and no more of this."
"That was a nice meal! Still rather not be."
"Today was super. I accomplished a lot. Rather not be."
"Wow....I feel so fulfilled watching that deep film/having a great conversation with a beloved person. Still rather not be. Only X more months."
"Haha that's hilarious because of how absurd, saracastic, and/or ironic the premise was! Not being is best. X more months."
~While checking in with psychiatrist .~ Routine question response: "Yes/normal/things are fine." Internal thoughts: "That's a "lie" but only X more months and I won't be. " "Only X more months and I won't be."

TMI/further crazy rambling: if you haven't noticed, I have an obsession with being.
To me, people who want to die don't go far enough: you can die in this shared reality we perceive but still exist in some form (as a memory, alternate universe (if existent), as a character in a book (if this reality we collectively perceive is a "novel"; see ), etc).

Having absolutely no essence whatsoever that not even omnipotent and/or omniscient god(s) can conceive of "you" at any "point" in time: THAT is the ultimate death. It isn't even "death" because to have death, you"had to" at one point exist.

 

[52shriek]

Yesterday I was rationalizing it, thinking it's just like quitting a job you cannot stand anymore. If your job is *that* unbearable, then quitting it really makes sense. At least to me.

 

[TAW122]

It will all be over soon, no more pain and suffering, no more bullshit, no more secret shame/guilt, no more injustice and unfairness to deal with, and finally, no more duties to perform. Just forever non-existence and peace.

 

[LostInLife]

I wish I hadn't been / don't think I should have been, born in the first place so... exiting this place is just like correcting a stupid mistake.
That sounds cold and terrible / awful after actually writing it, but that's exactly how I feel. If someone asked me to sum up my life in one word, it would be awful. So... it all fits.

 

[Circles]

No more sadness, no more pain, no more mental illness, no more working, no more being a human, no more feelings, no more waking up, no more existential angst, no more conforming, no more failures, no more grief, no more loneliness, no more worrying, no more crying, etc. Just NO more pointless suffering period.
Nothing more Forevermore

 

[IchIsGone]

I've been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder so even a little mishap or misfortune are big trigger for me. I cannot go on about my life where things got better for while and going downhill again. Everyone keeps telling me that that's life, it's a roller coaster. I just don't have the emotional and mental capacity to face life. I'm just going to be honest, I'm mentally weak. The thought that I won't have to deal with any of this anymore soothes me.

 

[okyeah]

thinking about killing myself is the thought that comforts me. I don't have to worry about fixing my life anymore or wondering why I have been treated the way I have or what I could have done differently. Nothing matters anymore.