What things traumatize you?

[Life sucks]

Hi everyone, I think everyone is already traumatized in life. I found many things to be traumatizing. The sad thing is many things are tiny in perspective of others but can be very hurting for you. Like a bad word you hear or small incident that other people would consider normal but for the sufferer, its very traumatizing and painful.

Personally, I have much list of traumas, some of the stuff are secret and never tell anyone while other things can be small,for example hearing abusive words and its nothing in perspective of others, however very bad for me and still remember many of the small shit happened in life.

Strangely I experienced something like trauma override (I don't know if the word is correct), mental problems and depression when I started experiencing them was a big trauma that made me felt everything else was nothing (not because the previous things were small but because the pain was very heavy and sudden).


I don't know what to say, life is a big trauma

 

[not_a_robot]

Finding out that the mental healthcare field employs more predatory sociopaths than I ever met working as a prostitute.

 

[oopswronglife]

Medical anything, doctors, clinics...I get sweaty and anxious and feel miserable. After what they've done to me it's no wonder.

I also am hit very hard by even witnessing tiny injustices or cruelties. Seeing a total stranger be a twat to someone affects me deeply and upsets me.

Seeing animals of any kind suffer can make me really upset. When it's at the hand of people it enrages me.

Each time these things happen it's additive and stays with me.

 

[Ko9]

Being made sexually unconformable at the age of 9, being beaten by several teachers for several years, being bullied, going from school to school, having several shit therapist, constant arguing with my parents and them beating me and having no feeling of safety whatsoever for the first 15 years of my life.

 

[Donewith_]

Abuse.
When someone shouts at me or illtreats me

 

[oxymoron]

My past.

My past. My present and the future.

 

[Final Escape]

I'm a walking bag of trauma lol!

 

[Rocksandsand]

Health workers are a big one.

Sex work. Not so much the clients - you know what they're after unless they're particularly fucked - but the sneaking around and the lying to avoid being outed and the brothel management

Watching my mother die, and having her be abusive right until the end.

Being raped twice in the space of a few months

Surviving a very serious suicide attempt

My current job. Getting attacked and assaulted by teenagers who are hurting so bad.

My childhood of an abusive mother and an emotionally absent father

Abusive partner. He accuses me of not being loyal to him almost every time we see eachother. Interestingly, he actually cheated on me a month ago. But yet I must be questioned every time we talk...

I could go on. I don't wanna depress myself more

 

[Painted Bird]

Having to deal with sheeple, their cruelty and stupidity, that's traumatizing to me. I'd love to never meet another human in real life again. Impossible in the long run, so eventually I will just "off" myself.

 

[oxymoron]

My past.

In 28 years I never wished for anything so much in my life as I wish for my death now.

 

[Orin]

Trusting and looking up to someone who turns out to be just as ignorant and bigoted as most of humanity.

 

[Taki]

Being in a large space with people socializing and enjoying themselves. Makes me feel lower than shit.

 

[Azazel]

I was 7 years old, my great grandfather past away (he lived for 102 years). At that moment something on my mind clicked, and I started thinking constantly that in the end everybody would die, my parents, friends, etc. I would also die, someday. The thing is that, I wasn't sad about it, I simply stopped being happy that I was alive. I simply didn't care anymore about anything at all. I would stop playing with my friends, because in the end, they would die, so it didn't matter if we had a good time together. I learnt to cope with this, but it sure scarred me, having to go through that at that age

 

[Fr2]

One of the things that traumatize me is not being heard or cared about in practical things to THIS extent:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-i-am-really-feeling-upset.20338/#post-381023

And then on top of that THIS:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-i-am-really-feeling-upset.20338/#post-381316

Shit. My heart goes to you, @Now_And_Then

 

[Tortured_empath]

My past memories of happiness, if that makes any sense? Especially emotional memory, if I smell a scent, look at a picure or hear something from when my life used to be good. Especially of family. Maybe it's not traumatic, but I feel an overwhelming sense of horribleness that almost makes me vomit sometimes.

 

[Now_And_Then]

One of the things that traumatize me is not being heard or cared about in practical things to THIS extent:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-i-am-really-feeling-upset.20338/#post-381023

And then on top of that THIS:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-i-am-really-feeling-upset.20338/#post-381316

Shit. My heart goes to you, @Now_And_Then

Thank you for your concern . I have been in my flat for the last 4 or so days laying down and over thinking about my life . The fact that I went out of my way to make sure the stuff I want to keep was not touched . But they still did it

Michelle reckons she told them to not touch the small room , like I requested , but they still did . What the hell happened ?

She also has put the blame on me saying that I requested to have the deep clean and should be grate ful . That I am making accusations with out proof

So who else took and threw away the stuff then , seeing as they were the only o es who had the key ? How can even a huge bed vanish in to thin air ? I have since discovered that my external hard drive is missing

Sorry for the long post , but I am fuming

 

[Nihil]

9/11, surviving six games of Russian roulette, listening to and slowly seeing my grandfather suffocate to death due to COPD (it was like he had a plastic bag over his head), psychological and emotional/verbal abuse from some relatives and real life strangers over being trans, having to fear for food and shelter with threat of homelessness multiple times between 2018-2019, and being treated like subhuman garbage most of my life. Trauma comes to me whenever it wants to, though usually through random triggers. When that happens, I actually get really physically ill and struggle to function for the rest of the day. Otherwise though, I'm able to handle past traumas okay so long as I don't focus on them heavily. Living more in the present versus the past helps me, I have found.

 

[azucaramargo]

Hi everyone, I think everyone is already traumatized in life. I found many things to be traumatizing. The sad thing is many things are tiny in perspective of others but can be very hurting for you. Like a bad word you hear or small incident that other people would consider normal but for the sufferer, its very traumatizing and painful.

Personally, I have much list of traumas, some of the stuff are secret and never tell anyone while other things can be small,for example hearing abusive words and its nothing in perspective of others, however very bad for me and still remember many of the small shit happened in life.

Strangely I experienced something like trauma override (I don't know if the word is correct), mental problems and depression when I started experiencing them was a big trauma that made me felt everything else was nothing (not because the previous things were small but because the pain was very heavy and sudden).


I don't know what to say, life is a big trauma

Rejection is traumatizing.